Journal :::

Journal

Some of the entries read like letters while trying to explain things. They are. Names have been changed to protect the innocent, and the guilty... and if you know me, then those things don't matter.
Though many things have happened over the years, I'm not a faithful journal writer. This begins with where I started keeping a journal, but often times, if there wasn't great detail, I didn't write it down. In many of those cases, there were no dates either as everything was under one file called 'dreams'.
There even came a point I stopped journaling, wondering what the use was. I've since taken it back up and now try to note everything possible.

April 12, 1996 - ..and at that moment I realized I could not wake up and it was all real. "Oh God, oh God," I sputtered, "this really is real! I'm not dreaming! This is real!" [Humans, UFO]

General 1996 - Short odds n ends.

96' Spaceship and Chat with Blonde (hybrid?) - She seems human, but there are things not human. Her hair is blonde, but very thin so that her scalp shows clearly. Something about her face is ugly, but she is very friendly and exudes an attractivness. She wears a jumpsuit of some sort with a small picture of triangles on the chest. She is older than me, thirties or forties.

Ugly Greys - ..two Greys unlike any I've seen. Their heads are huge, their noses actually look a bit like noses, and they smell like rotted food and sewage..

April 4, 1997 - ..they assured me I would be ok, and they seemed surprised that I would be afraid of them. [tan Greys and Blonde]

July 29, 1997 - ..thinking what will they do when the come in and see me awake, because I had told them I didn't want to remember anymore. [floating, paralysis, UFO, tall Grey]

October 22, 1997 - ..Woke up, went to the bathroom, came out.... And Wham! [tan Greys]

November 5, 1997 - Either fell asleep or blanked out. And then woke up, in the midst of walking around the bed. Marked the headboard. [Dino and Greys?]

Summer 1998 - 'Seemed like one moment awake and trying to sleep, and next I'm sliding down the mattress to the end of bed..' (graphic warning) [Organics]

November 10, 1998 - .."You're really an alien. You're tricking me!"... "No. We are cats. We are cats." [Greys]

January 15, 1999 - Floating off the patio dream. [Greys?]

December 1, 1999 - In the kitchen. [Grey]

August 2000 - Strange dream with needles. ..They have little alien faces and use gooey appendages to stick to things and pull themselves up. They're injecting us. They were in disguise. [Greys]

October 1, 2000 - '..My hand on the doorknob, I pause and see three beings standing right outside the picture window..' (graphic warning) [UFO, Humans, Greys?, and twinkling lights]

March 9, 2001 - '..I tripped over the dogs as I ran out the hall, still screaming, "Get out of my house! Get out now!".. [tall Greys and tornadoes]

New May 25, 2001 - Four white aliens, a maze, and a woman named 'Shiela'.