Chapter 46
"...So that's what I told him and he seemed to understand." Nick finished, shrugging. "I mean, he did such a great job on the song ya know?"
"Yeah, it's a great song."
"Honestly, the whole thing turned out better than I'd ever expected, I'm still in shock. Granted I may not be number one or whatever, but I'm so proud of it and the fans seem to like it and that's enough for me."
"It really is a great album Nick, I'm so proud of you." Nyla smiled, patting his hand.
A faint blush fell over his cheeks, "Thanks."
She nodded.
"So how bout you? What have you been up to here lately?"
They'd actually talked, talked the way he'd wanted to for so long. That wall that had once been there was now gone and it was almost like old times.
He watched as she talked animatedly about the events that'd been going on in her life, she seemed happy, very happy and he was glad, but part of him was still a bit hurt. He couldn't shake that feeling that she'd gone on without him and seemed happier than she'd ever been with him.
Maybe he was just being too emotional, maybe he was just being touchy, but whatever it was, he wasn't used to it.
"And then I got that promotion at work and that was like the icing on the cake."
"How'd you and Scott meet?" He asked suddenly, realizing he desperately wanted to know how this guy had won her over. She seemed genuinely startled, but recovered quickly, starting to explain.
"Well, I met him through a friend at work, kind of like a blind date of sorts. We doubled and met at this restaurant for dinner one night. We hit it off and we went out a few more times and that's about it really."
"Ohh, so it was kinda instant for you then huh?"
"I don't know if I'd say that, I mean, that's only happened once where I just looked at someone and that attraction was there..." She stopped, looking down suddenly.
He swallowed hard, he knew what she meant cause he'd felt the same, not necessarily love at first sight, but... a feeling a connection of sorts. And like her, there was only one person that it'd happened with.
"What about you?"
"Me?"
"Yeah, you and Celeste, how'd you two meet?"
"Oh, when I was doing some work in the studio, she's the daughter of one of the producers that was there that day working with someone else. I was eating lunch, she asked if she could sit next to me, we started talking and that's that." He explained.
"I see, well you seem really happy, and I'm glad that she does that for you."
Nick studied her for a moment, trying to decide how to take that before responding. "I'm...happy, but...there's...something missing, something I couldn't quite put my finger on, even from the beginning."
"I know what ya mean..."
"You do?"
She nodded again, "Yeah, I do."
He watched her, waiting for her to go on.
Nyla looked at him, realizing he wanted her to explain, she went on hesitantly. "My relationship with Scott is...was from the beginning, different. I don't know if it's the way we met or what, but it just...it felt kinda, casual if that makes sense. I don't know, maybe I wasn't giving as much as I should've been."
"Well, he wouldn't have stayed with you and still be with you if he felt that way right?"
She shrugged, "I guess."
"You don't seem so sure."
"Well I'm not now, I haven't been the best girlfriend here lately. I mean, all this happens, I barely call him, I'm not all upset and whatever like most girlfriends would be. I feel like I'm letting him down." She frowned.
"Hey this is not your fault Ny, you can't call him cause ya can't get through. And it's not like you haven't called and talked to him at all ya know? What can he say?"
"I dunno, I just...I feel like I'm screwing everyone over. I've hurt so many people and it's not right."
Nick shrugged, "We all make mistakes."
She shook her head, "Not as many as I've made."
"Come on, don't be so down on yourself, I'm sure Scott understands."
"And you?"
"Me? What about me?"
"Do you understand?"
"Of course I understand Ny."
She looked at him and sighed.
"Come on, c'mere." He pulled her into his arms and then down on the bed, hugging her tightly.
"I just don't want you or anyone thinking that...that...I want to just brush over my mistakes and forget that I've hurt people...that I've hurt you. I want you to know that I'm sincere."
"I know Nyla, I know." He frowned, she was still beating herself up over everything that'd happened, and now she was doubting herself in her relationship. He looked down at her and she looked up at him, the pain and the vulnerability he saw in those eyes caused something inside him to crumble and before he could stop himself, he leaned down, kissing her gently.
She pulled away, looking at him in shock. "Nick?"
He knew he couldn't deny it any longer, couldn't deny her any longer. "Nyla," He whispered, leaning in to kiss her again.
Just when I believed
I couldn't ever want for more
This ever changing world pushes me through another door
Again she pulled away, a slight hint of fear in her eyes as she gazed up at him. Reaching out, Nick ran his fingers over the soft skin of her cheek and looked into her eyes. She smiled suddenly and he felt his heart drop.
"You're so beautiful."
"Nick..."
"Shh...just let me be here for you Ny, let me be with you tonight. Let me shelter you from the hurt and the pain you feel. Let me be with you." He whispered.
"Yes Nick."
I saw you smile
And my mind could not erase the beauty of you face
Just for awhile
Won't you let me shelter you
Nick kissed her again gently, barely able to hold back. It'd been far too long since he'd touched her, tasted her. He couldn't believe he'd been without for so long. He wouldn't think about all that was happening, or would happen, he would think about now and it would be enough.
Her heart pounded wildly against her chest, home, it felt like she'd come home in a kiss as familiar as the beating of her heart. She couldn't believe how much she'd missed this, his touch, him. She drank him in, but it wasn't enough, it was never enough where they were concerned.
He shifted, rolling ontop of her slightly, his hands moving down to her hips and then back up under her shirt, rubbing at her skin. He'd give anything, anything to be hers again.
Hold on to the nights
Hold on to the memories
I wish that I could give you something more
That I could be yours
She sighed, it wasn't supposed to be like this, it wasn't supposed to happen this way, but it felt so right, so right. Nothing had ever felt like this, but it was all that she'd wanted, all that she'd longed for.
He'd promised himself that he wouldn't let it go this far, but he couldn't stop himself, couldn't. He needed her; he needed her in a way he'd never needed anyone. Nick had never gotten her out of his system, she'd always been there, hidden within the corners of his mind and the depths of his heart. They'd hid it well, the both of them and when they thought it was gone, it came up and took them both off guard, they could no longer resist.
How do we explain something that took us by surprise
Promises in vain, love that is real but in disguise
Slowly he pushed her shirt up and off, pushing it off the bed and kissed her stomach gently to hear her moan softly. He could barely contain himself, but he wanted to go slow, to cherish the body he missed so much.
Moving up her body, he reached behind her and unhooked her bra, pulling it off and also tossing it away, leaning in and drawing a taunt nipple into his mouth, sucking deeply.
Nyla arched against him, running her fingers through his hair. This was really happening, it was. She knew she should feel bad but she couldn't, not when every part of her body was screaming out for this, for him.
They couldn't stop themselves, they couldn't, and right now it didn't matter. It didn't matter that neither one of them was free, that there was someone waiting for each of them at home. It didn't matter that they'd be hurting them, what mattered now was that they were there in each others arms like they'd wanted to be for so long.
What happens now
Do we break another rule
Let our lovers play the fool
I don't know how
To stop feeling this way
Moving his hands back down, he undid the button on her jeans and pushed them down, bringing his hand down to rub her through her underwear.
"N-Nick..." She sighed.
He tugged on her nipple, teasing it with his tongue before moving to the other, doing the same.
"Oh god..."
Bringing his hand up, he slipped it inside her underwear, rubbing her slowly. She felt so good, just like he remembered and he felt his body starting to tighten in response. Moving up, he captured the groan that escaped her lips, still rubbing her lazily.
She grabbed at his shoulders, pushing her hips up to his hand over and over, the warmth rushing downward. She whimpered against his lips as she tightened around his fingers, holding him tightly as her body bucked below his.
Hold on to the nights
Hold on to the memories
If only I could give you more...
He smiled against her lips, pulling away to look down at her flushed face. "You feel so good baby...so perfect."
Her eyes opened slightly, looking up at him. "Nick, please...I need to feel you."
Bending down, he kissed her again then down her jaw to her neck, nibbling and sucking before whispering in her ear. "Touch me Ny."
Running her hands down his body, she unbuttoned his jeans and pushed them down along with his boxers, moving her hand up his wide hips then over to his stomach and then down lower. She felt his sudden, sharp intake of breath and moved on, running the palm of her hand over him lightly.
"Ny..." He groaned.
Wrapping her fingers around him, she stilled, feeling him pulsing against her hand, she almost lost it there.
"Please Nyla...please baby." He whispered.
Slowly she started to move her hand, stroking him gently. He felt so good, so smooth, so hard.
"Just like that baby, yes."
Nyla started to move her hand faster, squeezing him slightly, her own body starting to tense.
"More Nyla, more please."
She stroked him harder, faster, squeezing him tightly. "Nick..." "Oh...shit." He groaned, his hips jerking against her hand as he released suddenly, burying his face in her neck to muffle his sobs.
She slumped back on the bed, her hand falling away as she panted softly.
"Nyla...I need you...I need to be inside you." He murmured, kissing her neck softly.
"Yes Nick, I need you too."
Pulling away, he kissed her deeply, moving to rest between her legs, bringing them up and wrapping them around his waist.
"Nyla, are you sure baby?"
"Y-yes...I don't wanna wait any longer Nick, please, don't make us wait any longer."
Bending down he kissed her again as he slowly slid into her.
Well, I think that I've been true to everybody else but me
And the way I feel about you makes my heart long to be free
They both stilled, not wanting to ruin the moment. The feelings and the sensations were almost too much.
"I missed this...I missed how you felt around me Nyla, you're amazing." Nick breathed.
She closed her eyes, the words escaping her to describe how she felt. She'd been looking for so long for that one thing to fill her when he had always been there, right in front of her.
"Nyla...look at me, I want to look into your eyes."
Slowly she opened her eyes, looking into his.
"I've been here all this time, waiting, waiting for you to come back to me Nyla...come back to me." He whispered, kissing her softly. "I've been waiting for you, I've been searching for you."
She felt her eyes well up and slowly he started to move.
"You've always been right there...god, how could I've missed you? How could I have ever let you go?" He panted, staring into her eyes. "Nyla..."
She tightened around him and he was lost, moving quicker against her.
Everytime I look into your eyes, I'm helplessly aware
That the someone I've been searching for is right there
"Nick...yes." She whimpered.
Faster he moved and she moved with him, moving as lovers of a time before.
"Nyla...oh yes baby...I'm so close. Cum for me, cum for me Nyla, let me feel you around me."
Her body tensed around his in that familiar feeling only he could cause. "Nick..."
"You're close baby, cum...cum for me."
She arched up against him, releasing hard around him.
"Nyla..." He managed to grate out, releasing right after her.
They slumped down on the bed, wrapped up in each other and breathless. There was no turning back now, no thoughts of what'd happened. They'd crossed the line and things would never be the same. Nick kissed her deeply before carefully pulling away, bringing the covers up over them, and holding her tightly as they both drifted off.
No matter what happened, it wouldn't matter. They both knew there was no one else for them but each other. And even though they couldn't do anything about it, they couldn't give anymore, it was enough. And it was in that moment that they both knew they were still very much in love, but were too afraid to say it.
Hold on to the nights
Hold on to the memories
I wish that I could give you more
Hold on to the nights...
Hold on to the Nights- Richard Marx
