Chapter 23
He lay in bed, staring at the wall. It was three in the afternoon, and he was still thinking about her, about last night. She'd been all he'd thought about all day. The more he thought about it, the more he was beginning to think that maybe things were fine the way they were. Maybe him and Vanessa weren't meant to be. He grabbed the phone off the dresser and dialed.
"Hello?"
"Hey man."
"Sup Nick?"
"I need to talk to you."
"What about?"
"Me and Vanessa..."
"Ohh."
"And Illana."
"Illana? Whoa, what's been going on?"
"I don't know. I mean, I've been wanting to try to work things out with Vanessa and all."
"You don't want to anymore?"
"I don't know. There's other things now."
"Like Illana I take it."
"Well yeah. We've gotten closer now."
"I see."
"It's not just that How. She's so much more different from Vanessa. I get along well with her."
"So what's the problem exactly?"
"I think, I think my feelings for Illana are changing. I'm beginning to think that..."
"That what?"
"That maybe I don't want to get back together with Vanessa." He whispered.
"Wow, Nick are you sure?"
"No, I'm not. Shit, I don't know what I'm sure of. I mean, maybe it's cause of all the shit we've done and all."
"What kinda shit?"
"You know, kissin' and all that."
"Oh."
"But it's beyond that. She makes me happy, happier than I've been in a long time. I can't remember being as happy as I am with Vanessa as I am with Illana. Never in the whole time we've been dating."
"Nick..."
"Howie I don't want to hear it! I don't."
"But Nick..."
"No Howie! I can't help the way I feel, even though I don't know what that is right now." Nick frowned in confusion.
"Would you just..."
"Enough Howie!"
Howie was quiet. Nick bit his lip. "Howie?"
"Yeah?"
"What were you gonna say?" He muttered quietly, hearing Howie sigh.
"I was gonna say to just be careful. Don't jump to conclusions."
"Oh, well yeah. I know."
"I think you need to think about what you want, or better yet, who you want."
He hung up after saying goodbye, and sat up on the bed. The choice shouldn't be hard, and he shouldn't even have to choose. He was supposed to be with Vanessa, they were supposed to be together right?
