| Whew..I’m glad that’s over!.. All is not Shadow as I learned on my Journey through this life, although it certainly seemed so during much of it. I felt like I was cut off from Life Breath itself; suspended between two worlds, yet belonging to neither. A Perpetual Outcast of sorts; out of step, and out of tune. What I did not realize was that I was my own worst enemy. Though I had been going through a major internal process, and was changing ever so slowly yet surely, this was unrealized by me at the time. It felt instead like I was dying many deaths; successive pieces of self being lost along the way. Also unrealized was that these very pieces needed to be cast off, as they were no longer useful, and indeed if “kept” would insure further stagnation. I was continually faced with “lessons” in life that I did not see as such at the time, so ran instead of facing the music. One day it occurred to me that if I’m being faced with this over and over, maybe there is a reason. Slowly and precariously I began to stand and not run. Once beginning to do so, many wondrous things began to occur and I felt a growing sense of ~Inner Peace~ There is so much more, yet don’t feel this is the time or place to relate, but you might get an idea if you’ve read the works in The Book Of Shadows. I will be working on additions to synthesize and explain the content in its literal and symbolic forms in the future. In 1996 I had an experience that changed me forever. I saw and heard in a flash a message that allowed me to see the interconnectedness of ALL things, and the reasons behind them, including my own pain and suffering. I wept for Joy. There was indeed a Purpose for all that had seemed senseless and useless. I began to participate in Life willingly, rather than existing on the fringes. I am grateful for the ~Now~ yet equally grateful for the “Dark Night Of The Soul” as it has brought me to a place of ~Understanding and Acceptance~ {at least a bit more than I had} :) Beyond temporality, it truly is the Same Day Anyhow, is it not? The Poems in The Book Of Shadows were written between 1978 and 1990. There are others that preceeded them that are long lost. In 1978 I had an opportunity for a new beginning. It was a long, slow and painful process but in the end was well worth while. I was overjoyed at having the physical freedom, although it would be awhile before being truly free. 'Tis all a process. I hope you'll read the other poetry in Vesta's Hearth too, if you have not done so already. Thanks For Listening Blessings Always Sarah/VestaFlame22 |