well, tmr maybe meeting jiewei for brunch. maybe meet marcius(?) dunno. of course I'm still holding onto hope that people from our family may ask me out even if just to talk or whot...but
yeah...I understand that all of them needa mug for exams and such. so may just ask others out...
one of the stuffs go like this. you know. theres a saying that in life, everyone that groups together will eventually split separate ways. I'm beginning to think about how true it is. as people from young progress to the next stage of their lives, their environment changes and they meet different people. their so called personalities, mannerisms, goals, and interests can all change in time. different people have different destinies. and so, they split. the basic differences are in schools, and eventually will be ns and jobs. I have a friend who already migrated overseas, and a few more closer friends that may do the same, all to different parts of the world...everywhere's kinda connected in a way by the net, and phone lines etc, but it just feels different...to be unable to be with people you hold dear to, to drift apart eventually. and for some, even if they're still near to you. either you've changed and they didn't, or the other way round. you still drift apart. and for me, I used to think of how close some friends of mine used to be with me. and now we're just plain aquaintances...we're all splitting apart...either in feelings, or distance, or simply both.
as I thought of it. I felt kinda depressed, felt down. before, I used to think of this, but not as deeply, and I used to just look into the night sky and my eyes start to wet at how sad I found life to be sometimes. people told me that that's just how life is, its pointless to think about the inevitable. its true, but I guess I'm just not matured enough to accept it all yet, for I still feel sad about that fact. you can say that I'm just over thinking or I'm emotional or what. but yea....=(
so tomorrow's valentines and what have I planned so far? absolutely nothing!! thats right, nothing!! and my mum was repeating how no one's free to celeb my b day on friday, and asked if I want to get a cake myself and bring to my grandparent's place or celebrate on sat instead, how pathetic can my b day get? do you all wanna eat my shit instead? at least it'll give me entertainment. gah, scrap that.
and so it goes, once again I'm wasting time alone at home, doing nothing. fucking no life. at least jie wei's flying back from hk tonight. thn got plans to watch the movie, jumper with him and xin wei. booya, jumper gonna rawk man! been waiting for that movie. but what am I gonna do till then? go fuck myself? okk, this post's getting more and more vulgar *laughs* at least the only vulgar word i use is the f word. though I'd have to say when I speak I use it quite excessively.
lalalalalalaal~ who own's a punching bag in his house? I'm so gonna be your best friend =]
kay, on the way back on mrt, was half asleep, phone rang, takes out phone
*hm...unknown number calling, must be wrong number*
answer
listens
"woah!!!"
lalalalalalalallalal~
after that went home, com for a while. then went out to get chilled mocha from 7-11. then went to the fitness corner at the condo where I stay. I swear its more fun training at a fitness corner than at a gym lolz. went to do 20 one handed pushups for each hand and felt the stress level. estimated max number I can do for each hand...left hand can do at least 25 and right hand can do at least 30 one handed pushups straight. um...all boring stuffs lolz. k, post done