next time will drag other friends there. sis, when you come back you gotta try it as well hahaz, I'll definitely go there again next time man, fucking awesome. best jap res ever.
either you all start appreciating the things around you, or well, I can't be bothered. just don't bother me cause I may not want to appreciate having you tards as friends you know. or you know what? I think you're all just trying to gain attention or something? go screw yourselves, cause you're only getting attention from my knuckle. emo people are okay you know, but not when I can justify all the reasons to why you don't even have any reason to be emo. shut your face and eat my shit.
nothing much happened today, went out with family for lunch at simei's banquet. thn carried a new big printer back home only to get slightly sore forearms lolz. then went online to talk on msn, posted abit on sgcafe. what else I did today? nothing? erm, went to emo at the fitness corner by sitting on a wooden bench and think about alotta stuffs..
you know, I can see and imagine how painful it is for bro and sis, if sis were to stay in aus and not come back anymore. I mean, even I'm feeling a sort of pain, they must be feeling worse. and being sort of a more emotional person, even that pain's kind of excruciating. though there could be a possibility that I'm feeling this way cause of accumulated crap piling up on me. soon jiewei said he may leave for canada if possible as well. my only little sister may not come back to stay, and one of my best friends gonna migrate if possible. argh...and if thats not enough crap, my exam results are coming out soon I think, and I'm not confident of even passing every module, and if I don't, I may get retained. I tell you if I ever do get retained I'll want to change course at the very least. dunno.
sigh, and after talking to jiewei on last friday about all the other countrie's and travelling stuffs. I'm kinda intrigued about a life of constant travel, go to a country, no money, work there till enough to jump to another country, repeat. hahaz, but no can't do. not when you're not the only one in your family, not when you're the only grandson lolz. because of that even migrating to another country next time's hard.
and another thing, tenma, the last time I remember telling you, I'm always emo-ing. that wasn't the truthful answer to your question then, but that itself was true you know. to anyone that ever hangs out with me, well, most people wouldn't bother to notice or think about my facial expressions whenever I'm not looking at you or talking to you. well, nowadays its almost always giving either a painful look, like I'm really in deep pain, or I'm frowning very deeply, or the simplest one, very tired, yawning. that last one, being tired's not because of sleep exactly, but more of being tired of life actually. all the way from lower primary till now, I've been through so much shit, no normal person can compare. and the thing is, there's not much happy stuff that happened, that can overcome all the shit. the only reason why I'm alive now is cause I'm not dead yet, to say it simply. and if I'm giving a painful expression, well, its literally that...
whenever you call out to me or start to talk to me however, I'll probably be suddenly smiling like an idiot. its like an auto habit hahaz, its like an expression or shield, a sign that say's, ""you can't help me anyway, and overall it's really better off keeping whatever's on my mind to myself"" whenever I'm with you all. thn when you stop talking, I'll look away again and yeah, like I said.
*laughs* this is one of my longer posts, done