I wrote this yesterday night on my other site.
I feel adrift in the wind. Nothing to tie my down and keep my emotions docked. Its not a bad thing, just confusing and disturbing. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about what's going on and I can't. They'd disown me, so to speak. Which is stupid, because some of them don't ahve much to say about it since they've done stuff too. Oh well, you eventually end up betraying yourself at some point in time. Guess it just took me longer than them. Truthfully this isn't betrayal, that I did two years ago when I didn't know if there were other options. Now I don't have any options, I've mad a decsion and I can't back out of it. But I'll ahve options when I get back or at least I hope I will. I don't know if...doesn't matter.
Hope I haven't disturbed you with my moody thinking.
Feel happy I retyped this here for all of you who are too lazy to go to my other sites.
Allie
