I miss you already *looks at watch* its only been 30 mins. If you ask me what you or I should do too many times I may just say exactly what I think we should do. We're cheating on two people and in a small way each other. Small only because we're not together to other people. Whatever! I'm sick of this, I feel like a big part of me is being ripped out every time I go back to this place that's suppose to be home. You're home and I don't feel like I'm part of anything out here, just a person living in a house with strangers that make her do things, punish her when she does something they don't like, and then crush her dreams with a cruel reality that isn't how life has to be! I love you and don't want to be apart from you. I wish I could live with...then again living a lone intrigues me. I need some space and to feel like I have control of my life. Not that you ever restrict me or force me to do stuff like some people do, everyone out here. I like the people you hang with, at least the ones I've met and some that you've tolad me about. I don't know what to do. I feel like waiting until I get back and see what happens. I'm going to get an appartment on College Street for $530 a month and that's that. I love you and miss you too much as is to go active and leave here for four or more years. That's not what I want to do. Anyways before I go totally bananaers here I'm gonna stop and do some other stuff.
Allie
