Back from Iraq
My girlfriend's son just arrived from San Diego. He was injured in Fallujah, Iraq. Was shot twice in his right (trigger) hand while chasing an insurgent. The soldier in front of him was killed, and he got shot shooting around the corner in the hand from a AK-47.
Coming out to Mom
The last few days I have been in contact with my mother finally revealling to her my feminine desires. I mentioned things, events, and questions of the past to her. She says the hatred, fear, and rejection of my father , at a very very young age, had caused me to seek the security and safety of her, and therefore find femininty more comforting. She was talking more of a escape, symbols, and security blanket type of result.
I responded by giving a few questions and details about it.
She sort of changed to a more defensive response saying that i could focus on helping my girlfriend become more feminine and i didn't need to be female nor feminine myself. I think this is her defensive reflex and her own wishful thinking, and doesn't think of what's best for myself.
I must say, i have been thinking of what others think for 30+ years and am about sick of thinking about their needs over mine anymore.
Girlfriend's Morning Questions
My sweety, when i woke up started asking if i wanted to live as a woman. This sort of surprised me, and i become defensive myself. I know she says her motive is that she don't want any secrets, don't want to be left in the dark, and says i will just do it for myself. She imagines me with hair removed, huge breasts, and going out in the public living full time as a woman.
In response I have mentioned the huge cost and time of such venture. Also the inablility to hide many drastic changes (huge breasts and overall feminine body). She responded by saying if money was no object, would i do it. I was silent. I must say I would probably say yes. She took my silence as a yes.
She then said, surprisingly that she wanted to make a maid uniform for me. I had made a purplish pink one, and wear it when i clean the house and do dishes. She says she likes when i clean and do that and wants me to have a better one. A black one.
Nervousness and restless sleep must have shown, because she wondered why i couldn't sleep much.
Work:
Thank god its Christmas tomorrow, though i have to work the day after. Argggg i never work on Sunday, and so i only get 1 day off.