At this point of time .. Im  feeling quite exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling that is going on about me and Im looking for some sorta  protection from this state of affairs. Ideally, a peaceful condition and tranquil enviroment in which I can afford to relax and recover.

A extrovert, frivolous and outgoing. I need to feel in control of any situation and if matters are not proceeding according to plan, I  get extremely iritable and perhaps .. difficult to live with?

This present sitiuation... definitely not of my makin..but its  is forcing me to compromise. I guess I have to hold back and forgo some of the hopes, dreams and aspirations...

Whatever that caused this situation... its just that I cant seem to sustain or mantain relationships[incl. friendship] as much as I want to. What Im seeking to develop, is a relationship with someone with whom I can really and truly share : Love . Serenity . Peace . Quiet .

But .. I am such a demanding person.. just my nature. which often leads to disquiet and discord. Maybe Im just like the tide? Flotsam and jetsam.. One minute I experience 'highs'  and moments later 'lows'.

Obviously this will inject discord to any relationship, my demanding attitude, the ideal state I desire.. is often supressed and unable to develop. Despite such strong urges to gratify the natural desires within, I impose self restraint on my instincts, in the belief that this would demonstrates my superority and raises myself above the common herd.

At times .. Im extremely critical of everything that is going around me... and I find it really difficult to listen to or to even take advice from anybody. I guess the only thing I'll enjoy now is originality, ingenious, and subtle. Motivatiing and striving myself to ally with others of similar taste.

At work .. its strange that the anxiety im experiencing at this time is of my own making. Simply because of my desire to be respected by my fellow man. Or rather.. Im not satisfied. I feel that the congenial 'ME' is becomming quite introverted. I seems to shy away from participating in what use to be my everyday activities.

its the reluctance to communicate that is the inherent cause of my problems?

I guess.. enuff said... anytakers?
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name:         Lim Wil Surn
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            aka.  Isaiah
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