I put the plug in the jug on May 20, 1984. I did not want to stop drinking, but I wanted to live even more. I had to make a choice. Live or die. It is so simple isn’t it? All the life choices are so cut and dried. Making the choice is the hard part.
When I got sober, I had no real spirituality and no concept of a Higher Power. I had been religious in the sense that I went to church, sang all the hymns and dropped a buck in the collection plate every week. But as soon as I left the church grounds, I gave no further thought to God or anything else that had to do with getting out of my own little world.
I had no idea of how to pray or how to live as a spiritual person. Slowly over the last two decades I have gained an evolving and ever maturing sense of a power greater than myself. In that relationship with that Higher Power, I have come to know more about myself as the understanding reveals itself to me.
I dedicate this site to the alcoholic who still suffers…wet or dry. I hope that you may find something here to help you work through your pain. Pain is part of life and at times there is no escaping it. To the extent that we allow it to control our lives is a choice. To you I say this: Everything that happened to me when I was drunk has happened to me sober… and then some. Good and bad. I got through it by not taking a drink, by the grace of my higher power, and the support of other sober alcoholics…one day at a time.
Grace. Faith. Spirituality. These words were foreign to me. My life experiences with them before had not been pleasant. The first three steps deal with coming to believe and trusting in something greater. I didn't know how to do that. In the years that followed I have been lovingly guided toward that knowledge by those that have come to believe.
I have come to believe.
My beliefs are not main stream, nor do they conform to any one ideology or theology. I have taken from many beliefs and many texts to find something that I can believe in.
I have been curious about other alcoholics' beliefs, and I am sure others share my curiosity. It is in that spirit that I share this most personal area of my recovery.
Follow the link Safe Haven to share my spiritual journey.
I do not have all the answers. I still ask a lot of questions. But what I do have, I give freely and without expectation.
So come trudge with us as we the Road of Happy Destiny.
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