TOTEM SPECTRE
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CLEAR

it is all so clear
the master plan unfolds
when the noise gets thicker
the eyes get clearer

well it stung a little
and it only itches slightly
the ever more, the discomfort
I have to wrap it up...

I don't think it'll ever make sense to worry about the slightest things
rejection never mattered
mirrors never shattered

we all end up perverted
and shady at the very best
all crack down, all fall down
nature does the rest

therefor I've called out for you
trying to get close
a drive to be inside of you
I wish you were here
(but you're not very near)
APATHETIC

and it's busy on the road
I swear I wasn't ever there
out of tune with everything I tried
maybe apathetic and denied

persuasion into nothingness
investing all this energy
decline on responsibility
and stigmatise, ill maintain
the way of the commerce
the riverflow of cash
so push me in the corner
my aptness with the trash

I'm waiting for the turnaround
see how things, unsound
this progress slow of motion
aimless, and slack devotion
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he finds himself at the breakfast table, watching the clock.
there never was any time.
he did it all in real time, his whole life, and he wasn't aware.
and now, it's the latest hype in software.

he finds himself listening to a song on the radio
he doesn't know the tune, he doesn't know the singer's name
he doesn't like the sounds but he doesn't care to turn it off...
too much of an effort, and the silence will get back at him, instantly.

he finds himself in this place he can't make out to be his own,
he sees the walls are endless, all around him, and the windows are soiled, dirty
it's been raining outside, it's been raining inside,
inside his mind, as usual...

he looks through yonder mirror
a moth hangs from the ceiling, dead
and ragged, a giant spider got the best of it
the man just can't forget
what horror it had been.

he finds himself entangled in thoughts, all brand new thoughts,
but oh so many of them, an endless stream of dreams
and thoughts and nothing, no way to translate the shady flashes
of dissolute configurations, like stars in a night sky,
somewhere, someplace, oh so out of place...

he finds himself wearily laying out his life, his past, his sins
so self-proclaimed as if it was a single thing that made him act this way
he finds himself in apathy, unable to get in touch with life, with other people
he finds himself trying to explain the weather - a wonder of forecast...

he finds himself clutched to a draining sorrow
just because he knows it's the only thing he can rely on
being slowly drained of all thoughts, all feelings,
all of everything that ever made sense, ever before

he finds himself running for the door, the bathroom door
and in a desperate act,
he shaves his ass!
and now,
he's got a nice
clean
pussy-ass