recent lyrics
a hear the phone rings, time for a night out
fragile hearts await to break like glass
on classy smiles and aerosol touch of plastic warmth
enthusiastic spasms of a lovelife on the thresh of lifting off
she paints her face down with red and sticky glue
wrapped around her eyes it looks like wings of butterflies
look at all the flesh displayed, all this ecstasy unveiled
"run away with me" her body screams
"you will be pleased to please please me"
she's a happy valentine, such a happy valentine
kisses, hugs and funny talk electrifies the air
look at her attention span: what with who and why and where
a gazillion pretty friends to give her all the love she needs
in the centre of the universe she says "it's just old silly little ME!"
it's a happy valentine, such a happy valentine
give it love it push it crush it
so void and uncontrolled
a tragic end finds ways upon the streets, cease falling on a numbed out mind,
comatosed, sharp and lively close
feeling whole, left aching in a whole, incomplete, dreary, mindset cold
this suckulent behaviour, inner holding place...
why all this stress, this typical drive to excel at excess and exceeding with extra effort?
one-of, we are as one, over the edge of left off nothing,
left here nothing but an itch too many -
deafening rash rages on and on
hardly ever ending till you look so good...
like I would, if I only...
many things unsaid, much was lost
much was found, and it cost plenty - bound to be repaid?
now I am not so sure about this balance - check the books, the lines alone dive deeper down than anything I've seen before.
I've wasted worthwhile moments, worth my time, I'd rather spent with you.
early afternoon on friday, opening the first of many beers
this is all so sick, a futile fight to kill the grime
this general behaviour pattern, moving to the dreamless state
for I remember well the hardship, all the ignorance I hate.
painful envy, painful drunken brain seing only weary blurs of nameless faces. sometimes I'm just a body watered down with drinks, too much of it, lost edge, losing the balance between freedom and a choice of words.
uncanny, unresolved affairs that haunt a new beginning
I'd believe in anything, I said, you wondered if I meant it
I wondered if you knew how much I really cared.
a shot of pain, awake in penance on crowded streets
so out of touch... emptying a bank account to fill the void of lost loves and broken dreams:
I needed to abandon all this misery, and I'll succeed!
read and weep - I wrote this poem just for you
this long long time ago when I knew you to me my light
my guiding light, now history
the snakes of fortune's poison bite and
falling out of line one time...
a debt towards the self, to smoke with airborn scents and
filthy dance events
I wish, so awfully clear
never to be born again, never
to feel down again
never to stay out of the clear
and marching on...
to cut the circle short
my ever brighter thought
to prevent myself from
getting bored
(geeze, this must be the cheeziest set of lyrics I ever wrote! but what the hell, as long as it sucks it's just like life, therefore has a right to exist... you may think what you want but you know, this is all authentic bull shit and I'm darn proud of it!)