What would have been my last word if it had worked.
January 5, 2001

FOR WHAT ITS' WORTH
I'm sorry.
I REALLY HOPE THIS WORKS.
I'm sorry for any pain or heartache I've caused everyone.
I'm sorry for what I just did.
There is so much about me that no one knows. And I can't deal with it aymore.
A lot of people are going to be mad at me for what I just did,
but I don't see why they don't hate me already.
I am so unbelievably sorry for everything.
This has to work!
I have to die tonight.
Mom & Dad
Please don't think you failed. I love you with all my heart and I apologize a million times to you.
Tony
Of everybody I've ever known, you understand me the most. I think the world of you.
And I beg of you not to hate me. Please don't hate me.
And to everyone else I am sorry.
I know everyone cares but...........

I love you and I am sorry