Letter Written July 26, 2000

 

 

"Be still, and know that I am God"  Psalms 46:10

God often tells me to be still.  He tells me to be quiet and listen...to Him.  You see, it is in the stillness of my mind that I can hear Him most clearly.  I have to submit completely to Him...I have to submit even my mind.  It is then that I hear Him speaking most clearly..always saying "Do not be afraid."  Ge 26:24, Ge 50:19, Dt 1:21, Dt 1:29, Dt 20:3, Jos 10:25, Ru 3:11, 2Ki 25:24, Isa 44:8, Jer 1:8, Mt 10:28, Mt 10:31, Mk 5:36, Lk 12:32, Jn 14:27, Ac 27:24, Rev 2:10

The first of these is Genesis 26:24:
"That night the LORD appeared to him and said, "I am the God of your father Abraham.  Do not be afraid, for I am with you; I will bless you and will increase the number of your descendants for the sake of my servant Abraham."

The last of these is Revelation 2:10:
"Do not be afraid of what you are about to suffer.  I tell you, the devil will put some of you in prison to test you, and you will suffer persecution for ten days.  Be faithful, even to the point of death, and I will give you the crown of life."

And yet...my mind still often wanders from the stillness and I get afraid...
This is just a simple glimpse of how wretched I am.

There is so much I want to share with you...more than you could possibly imagine...more than I could possibly imagine...more than our minds and hearts can handle!  I burst with an excitement...a joy...a peace...a love!  A perfect love!  A love for life!  A love for myself!  A love for my family!  A love for my friends!  A love for my enemies!  A love for all people!  A love for the entire world!  A love for the entire universe!  A love for all that is seen and unseen!  A love for God!
I see nothing but hope for the entire world! 

It is finished... 
It was never not finished...
It's all good...
It's all God...
I have just begun...and yet it is already finished.
Therefore I begin nothing, for He is the Beginning and the End...the First and the Last...the Alpha and the Omega.  Rev 1:8, 21:6, 22:13
Be still.

I leave the stillness in my excitement and my heart rejoices with love.  It is uncontrollable.  It is unreasonable.  It is the light.  "The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it." Jn 1:5  The world does not understand it...and must conclude about me, "He is out of his mind." Mk 3:21

But He responds to this comment made by the world on my behalf, on Paul's behalf, and on the behalf of all others within the body of Christ:  "If we are out of our mind, it is for the sake of God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you.  For Christ's love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died.  And He died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for Him who died for them and was raised again.  So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view.  Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer.  Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!  All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation.  We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us.  We implore you on Christ's behalf:  Be reconciled to God.  God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God." 2Co 5:13-21

Then, my mind starts chasing after worries, even as I write this letter to you!
But He lovingly says again to me, "Do not worry..."  Mt 6:25 "...o you of little faith"  Mt 6:30, 8:26, 14:31, 16:8

So here is another glimpse of how wretched I am.  I wander from the stillness, I get afraid, I worry, and I have very little faith...

And then I cry out...  How unworthy I am!  How undeserving!  God has blessed me so much!  Why?!  Why?!  Why?!  I don't deserve it!  Why not someone who would be better...  Why not choose somebody else for Your work, o Lord?  I cannot do it!  I cannot handle it!  I will surely thwart the truth and push people further away!  There is so much I don't understand!  There is so much I don't know! 

I leave the stillness in my doubts and my heart sinks with fear.  If I return immediately to God though, he stops me.  He says,  "Shhhhhhhh.................listen...........shhhhhhhhh.........listen."  He stills my mind and reminds me, "Be still, and know that I am God"  Psalms 46:10 and "Do not be afraid."  Ge 26:24, Ge 50:19, Dt 1:21, Dt 1:29, Dt 20:3, Jos 10:25, Ru 3:11, 2Ki 25:24, Isa 44:8, Jer 1:8, Mt 10:28, Mt 10:31, Mk 5:36, Lk 12:32, Jn 14:27, Ac 27:24, Rev 2:10

How amazing is this LORD of mine!  How amazing His grace!  How amazing His love!  His "perfect love drives out fear." 1Jn 4:18

And He does.  He drives out ALL fear. 
And then...
I am no longer afraid of what I have done, said, or thought,
I am no longer afraid of death,
I am no longer afraid of hell,
I am no longer afraid of the devil,
I am no longer afraid of fear itself,
I am no longer afraid of being killed,
I am no longer afraid of suffering,
I am no longer afraid of persecution,
I am no longer afraid of losing anything or anyone,
I am no longer afraid of what you or anybody does,
I am no longer afraid of what you or anybody says,
I am no longer afraid of what you or anybody thinks,
I am no longer afraid of driving you from the truth,
I am no longer afraid of thwarting the truth,
I am no longer afraid of what I shall wear or what I wear,
I am no longer afraid of what I shall eat or what I eat,
I am no longer afraid of what I shall do or what I do,
I am no longer afraid of what I shall say or what I say,
I am no longer afraid of what I shall think or what I think,
I am no longer afraid of who I am to be or who I am,
I am no longer afraid of life,
I am no longer afraid of living,
I am no longer afraid of the future,
I am no longer afraid of God.

I am afraid of nothing.

I am full of a joy, peace, happiness, and love that I cannot understand, nor contain.  It is the vine and the fig tree, and I am inviting you and everybody in the world to it!  Zechariah 3:10
Furthermore, I am here to warn you and myself that if you fill the emptiness inside you with anything but Jesus Christ, the emptiness will consume you.  Anything is just that...anything.  It includes everything except Jesus Christ.  And everything obviously includes at the least:  religion, spirituality, good works, relationships, career, stuff, and busyness.  None of these will bring you the joy, peace, happiness, and love that God offers you through His precious gift, Jesus Christ. Ezekiel 3:16-21

Come!...and in His time, He will say and write more about Him for His glory through my wretched and twisted mouth and crooked fingertips.  It is His work, not mine.  I will leave you, but He continues forever and will never leave you.  For it is not about me, but Him.  Through the amazing grace of the LORD Jesus Christ, may He open and expand all of our hearts and minds continually in this life.  May He enable us to immediately and continually accept the LORD Jesus Christ as the living water that fills and overflows the continual emptiness that is created by the continual opening and expansion of our hearts and minds.  Let us all walk with Him daily in this manner loving Him with all of our hearts, souls, and minds and with all of our strength and overflow with the joy, peace, happiness, and love He gifts us with until we sleep or He returns.  Amen.

From the Spirit and the bride:
"Come!Rev 22:17

From all who hear:
"Come!Rev 22:17

To all who thirst:
"Come!Rev 22:17

To all who desire:
"Come!Rev 22:17

 

 

 

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