Coming To Terms
Chapter
Three
Bobbie
sat on the curb, her head hung dejectedly between her knees. The waves of nausea were
“There
you are,” a voice came from the dark behind her.
Expecting
Detective Hutchinson, Bobbie turned and looked up, a grateful smile on her
face. “I didn’t think you would get here
so qui—” Her voice died in her throat as
her eyes came to rest on Dickie Barrows’ angry face.
At
5’5”, weighing only 152 pounds, Barrows was a scrawny man by anyone’s
standards. A pocked face and ferret-like
eyes did nothing to improve his sleazy appearance. The unwanted child of a prostitute, Dickie
had never known kindness from his mother.
And as an adult, he repaid every slight and every slap she had dealt him
by wielding a cruel dominion over the stable of young hookers he had gathered
from the city streets filled with frightened, hungry runaways.
Plunging
his hand into the mass of Bobbie’s unkempt hair, Dickie yanked the girl to her
feet. As he drew her close to his face,
he brought a switchblade up and pinioned it just below her chin.
“You’re
disgusting!” he spat. “I told you to get
busy and bring me your quota for this week.
Instead, I find you sitting here looking like a piece of garbage thrown
on the curb.”
“I’m...sick,
Dickie. I c-can’t work like this,” she
stuttered. Her eyes darted right and
left, and she prayed the cop wouldn’t show up now. If Dickie found out she’d called Hutch, he
really would kill her.
“I
told you—bring me the money and I’ll give you the stuff you need. Don’t I always take care of you, baby, when
you do what you’re told?”
“But
nobody...nobody wants to...when...when I’m like this.” Her teeth chattered, making it difficult to
speak in full sentences.
“Let
her go, Barrows,” Hutch said walking toward them.
The
pimp spun around, holding Bobbie in front of him. With the sudden movement, the knife, still
beneath her chin, nicked the delicate skin, bringing a drop of blood to the
surface.
“
“Let
the girl go, Dickie. She’s
“We
were just on our way home, weren’t we, Bobbie?” Dickie said, tightening his
grip around the girl’s waist.
Afraid
to say otherwise, she agreed, “Yeah...that’s...that’s right, Hutch. Dickie was taking me home.” Tears glistened on her cheeks. “Everything...everything’s just fine.”
“Let
her go,” Hutch said again. He extended a
hand toward the trembling teen. “Come
here, Bobbie.”
Sobs
began wracking her body as she felt the warm drop of blood slide down the curve
of her throat. Why was this happening to
her? All she wanted was for this pain to
go away and never
Then
she focused on Hutch’s face. The cop’s
eyes were like calm pools of blue water.
Irrationally, she thought maybe she could just dive into them and
disappear from the whole stinking world.
Hutch
felt the cold metal of the Magnum nestled against his ribs, but knew drawing
his gun could only end in tragedy. Even
if Barrows didn’t panic and slit Bobbie’s throat, there was no way Hutch could
get off a shot without the possibility of hitting her instead of the pimp.
Barrows
started backing away, taking Bobbie with him.
To Hutch’s dismay, she didn’t fight him.
Hutch
took a step toward them. “Bobbie, he’s
not going to hurt you with me standing right here. He knows I’m a cop. Come over here, and I’ll take you somewhere
they can help you.”
“Shut
up!” Barrows shouted.
Bobbie’s
eyes locked onto Hutch’s again. The
depth of
“Don’t
listen to him,” Dickie snarled. “I’ll
kill you if you leave now. You owe
me! You owe me big time. Who took you in and gave you a bed and a hot
meal? Huh? You go with that pig and he’ll throw you in
the tank. Is that what you want?”
There
was more at stake here than one prostitute.
His reputation, his ability to control his girls would be ruined if he
let her leave.
Hutch’s
extended hand loomed before Bobbie like the bridge to another life. He nodded at her, almost imperceptibly,
urging her to take that one step to safety.
It was all the encouragement she needed.
Bringing
her heel down hard on Dickie’s foot, Bobbie broke free and dove into Hutch’s
waiting arms. He pulled her into a
protective embrace with his left arm as his right hand went to the Magnum,
drawing it so quickly, Barrows didn’t realize what was happening.
“Drop
the knife and put your hands on your head!” Hutch demanded. Barrows hesitated only seconds, then did as
he was told.
In
that instant, Hutch felt Bobbie stiffen against his side. Her head jerked back tightly, the whites of
her eyes narrowed to tiny slits as her body began to convulse. His attention drawn from the man before him,
Hutch never saw the small .38 Special that Barrows had pulled from the belt at
the small of his back.
“Huuuuutch!” Starsky saw the flare as the bullet exploded
from the muzzle of the pistol and knew instinctively that his warning was too
late. Hutch’s head turned toward Starsky
just as the load slammed into the muscle of his left shoulder, inches above
Bobbie’s head. Whether he dropped to the
ground as an act of self-preservation, or from the sheer impact of the bullet,
Starsky didn’t know. His breath caught
and his heart went cold with fear, but training and experience overrode
emotion, enabling him to act.
“Police! Drop it!” he shouted. It was the only warning he intended to
give. When the gunman turned, the .38
leveled at him, Starsky didn’t hesitate.
He pulled back on the trigger, striking Barrows in the heart with one
deadly shot. Beneath the dim light of
the street lamp, he saw the shock on the other man’s face before his body went
slack. The pistol fell from Barrows’
hand, and he dropped like a puppet whose strings had been sheared with one
decisive stroke.
Still
shaken by fear and rage, Starsky kicked the .38 out of reach, checked Barrows
for a pulse, and was on his knees beside Hutch and the girl in seconds. When he reached them, Hutch, conscious but
confused, still held Bobbie close to the ground, pinned beneath his injured
shoulder.
“Hutch! You okay?
Hutch!” Starsky tried to gently
turn him over, but Bobbie still clung to Hutch like a life preserver. Hysterical sobs tore from her throat, mingled
with babbling pleas to spare her life.
Carefully lifting the injured arm, Starsky untangled the girl’s limbs
from around Hutch and drew her close to his own face.
“Listen to
me! Listen to me, Bobbie,” he said
sternly. “You’re safe; it’s all
over. He can’t hurt you anymore. I need you to calm down so I can help Hutch. Okay?”
He jerked her chin up to meet her eyes.
He only hoped he looked calmer than he felt. “Can you do that for me? Huh?”
She
took a deep breath and nodded, her head bobbing up and down quickly. The tears still streamed down her face and
she trembled like a victim of hypothermia—partly from fear, and partly from
withdrawal. But regaining a modicum of
self-control, she backed away, freeing Starsky to tend to Hutch.
Seeing
that Hutch’s shirt and jacket were saturated with blood, Starsky snatched a
clean handkerchief from his jeans pocket and pressed it against the wound,
before trying again to turn him over.
The small scrap of cloth did little to staunch the flow of blood. When Starsky finally rolled him onto his
back, Hutch groaned.
“Hutch,
can ya hear me, buddy?”
Hutch’s
eyes fluttered open slowly. “Starsk?” he
muttered, still confused. He blinked a
few times then mumbled, incredulous, “He shot me. The little bastard shot me.”
Unable
to help himself, Starsky chuckled.
“That’s what I admire about you, partner. You’re one hell of a detective. Nothin’ gets past you, huh?”
“Ow!”
Hutch
“Yeah,
I got him,” Starsky confirmed, cradling Hutch’s head on his knees while
pressing the now soggy handkerchief against the wound. Even beneath the muted beam of the
streetlight, he could see the color fading from Hutch’s face. Concerned about the heavy blood flow, Starsky
knew he had to act quickly.
“I’ve got to
call an ambulance, okay?”
Hutch
reached up and grabbed his sleeve.
“Wait! Bobbie...what about
Bobbie? She okay?”
“She’s
fine. Don’t worry about her. Tough kid,” Starsky reassured him. As he talked, Starsky slipped out of his
leather jacket, rolled it into a soft cushion, and gently eased Hutch’s head
over to rest on it. He then unbuttoned
the faded cotton shirt he wore over his t-shirt and shrugged out of it. Balling up the fabric, he pressed it against
the wounded shoulder.
“Bobbie,”
he said. Turning to find her crouched on
the sidewalk behind him, Starsky took the girl’s hand and placed it over the
makeshift bandage. “Hold this here. Keep it snug,” he instructed her.
“Like
this?” she asked, concentrating to keep her trembling hand exactly as he had
positioned it.
Once
Starsky was satisfied she could handle the task, he turned back to Hutch. “I’ll be right back,” he promised.
“Don’t
worry. I won’t to leave without you,”
Hutch said humorously.
Starsky
turned the key in the lock and opened the door to Hutch’s bungalow.
Because
of his daily trips to care for the plants and pick up the mail, it didn’t have
the stale smell of a place closed up too long.
“Home,
sweet home,” he beamed, stepping aside to allow Hutch to enter first.
His
shoulder heavily bandaged and his arm in a restrictive sling, Hutch smiled and
stepped inside, relieved to see something other than the depressing beige walls
of the hospital room he’d stared at relentlessly for the past two days.
He
took a deep breath and looked around.
“And it’s great to be here,” he said earnestly.
Starsky
hurried ahead of him and cleared the sofa, then grabbed a clean blanket from
the closet. “I thought you might like to
crash here on the sofa for a while—you know, watch a little TV while I go pick
up some groceries.”
Hutch
eased down onto the
Giving
Starsky a teasing smile, Hutch said, “What’s with all the pillows? You been taking nursing lessons from some
cute little candy striper?”
“Give
me a break, will ya?” Starsky retorted.
“I just figured you shouldn’t move around any more than necessary for a
day or two, okay?”
“Look,
I appreciate your going to all this trouble, but I’ll be okay, Starsk. The doctor wouldn’t have released me if he
didn’t think so. He knows I live alone.”
“Yeah,
well,” Starsky hedged. “I kinda told him
I’d be sticking around for a few days to make sure you didn’t do anything
stupid.” He looked up, challenging Hutch
to argue the point. “So don’t pull
anything dumb that’ll land you back in the hospital, or he’ll have my head.”
Hutch
met his eyes, fully aware that Starsky had volunteered to play nursemaid to
break him out of the stifling confinement of a hospital bed. It was a running debate between them, which
one detested the places most.
Unfortunately, in their line of work, they’d both spent far too much
time as patients and in waiting rooms.
Hutch
relaxed into the soft cushions, happy to be in familiar surroundings, and
grateful to Starsky for making it possible.
“Look,
Starsk...I just want to say, I’m sorry about before—”
Starsky
interrupted, “There’s nothing to apologize for.” He gave Hutch a crooked smile and added. “Now, before we get all soapy here, I’m going
after some grub. Be back in an
hour.” He turned on the television and
offered the remote control to Hutch. “So
you surf the channels, or get some shut-eye, or whatever turns you on, and when
I get back, we’ll eat.”
Hutch
looked at the remote for a second, then reached past it and gripped Starsky’s
forearm instead. Understanding Hutch’s
need to make things right, Starsky turned his arm and clasped Hutch’s in the
age-old symbolic handshake denoting brotherhood. It was a simple gesture, but he knew it
Hutch
cleared his throat and said, “I’ll, uh, I’ll be fine. Take your time, okay?”
Unsure
how long he’d been sleeping, Hutch sat up and listened. There it was again. Someone knocking at the door. The ride from the hospital must have tired
him more than he’d admitted. Looking at
his watch, he realized Starsky had only been gone forty-five minutes.
“Just
a minute,” he shouted, untangling the blanket from around his knees with his
free hand. He snapped off the blaring
television on his way to the door. His
stomach rumbled, reminding him he hadn’t eaten since early morning, and making
him glad Starsky hadn’t wasted two hours perusing the junk-food aisle at the
market.
“Forget
your key?” he called out.
Hutch
opened the door and found himself face to face with Jeanie. She looked exactly as he’d remembered her¾beautiful and appealingly
vulnerable. Although her long blond hair
was cropped just beneath the chin now, her features were the same. Those eyes that had haunted his dreams...why
hadn’t he been able to capture them in his painting?
“Hello,
Hutch. I...I heard about the
shooting. I had to see for myself that
you’re okay. May I
“Oh...I’m
sorry,” he said, stepping aside for her to enter. “Of course,
“I’m
just a little surprised to see you,” he explained.
“Yes,
I guess you are,” she answered. “Maybe I
should have called first. But when Huggy
told me last night that you’d been shot, I freaked out because I was afraid I
wouldn’t get a chance to see you again and make things right. I went to the hospital earlier, but they said
you’d been released.”
“You
saw Huggy last night?”
“Yes,”
she answered. “Well, I’ve actually been
in town for a while, trying to get up enough courage to
“Why
would you need courage to see me?” he asked, a little troubled that she felt
that way. “Are you afraid I’ll do
something to hurt you again?” Memories
of his own demented voice telling
“Oh,
no!” Her eyes flew to his face. “It’s not that. I just wasn’t sure you’d want to see me. I mean, the
way we left things... You said, if we
were going to end it, we’d end it there.
I figured I might not be wel
Hutch
sighed and ran a hand through his hair, suddenly feeling very, very tired. He didn’t know what to say. He’d thought about this moment so many times,
wished for one more chance to see her, talk to her. Now that it was here, his mind was a jumble
of emotions.
“Hutch,”
she began apprehensively. “I’ve missed
you. I was hoping you’d missed me, too.”
“Of
course, I’ve missed you,” he admitted.
“For a while, I hoped I’d hear from you when you got settled
somewhere. When I didn’t, I assumed you
wanted to leave that part of your life behind.”
“I
felt terrible about what they did to you, Hutch. I didn’t think you’d want me around as a
reminder.”
“It
wasn’t your fault,” he said, reaching out to take her hand in his. “I’m the one who let you down. I led them right to you. I don’t think I’ll ever forgive myself for
that.”
Tears
sprang to her eyes and shimmered on her lashes.
“You had no choice,” she said, sniffing back the unshed tears. “I never blamed you. Don’t you think I, of all people, know how
ruthless Ben been can be?”
“But—”
“That’s
all in the past,” she said, cutting off his protest. “Can’t we just put it behind us?”
He
reached out and took her hand, hardly believing she was there, at that moment,
sitting beside him. Maybe he was being
given a second chance, after all. Hutch
felt a shudder run through his body as he felt the heavy weight of guilt begin
to slide from his shoulders.
“Okay,”
he said smiling. “If you can, I can.”
She
squeezed his hand affectionately and nodded.
“I already have.”
Changing
the subject he said warmly, “You look terrific.
Tell me everything—where you’ve been...what you’ve been doing.”
“I’ve
been living in Vegas, working as a showgirl.
The money is great and the job exciting, but I miss you, Hutch. I realize now how much I still need you in my
life.” She slid across the sofa and
lightly brushed his lips with hers.
He
felt a familiar stirring in his loins as he wrapped his left arm around her and
pressed his lips against hers hungrily.
The passion between them was still palpable. The kiss deepened, and he drew her closer
until the pain in his shoulder overrode the pleasure, reminding him of the
wound.
“I can’t believe you’re back,” he whispered,
nibbling her lips and along the curve of her jaw. “Where’re you staying?” He gently brushed a wisp of blond hair behind
her left ear, then reached down and kissed the delicate earlobe.
“I’ve
been at Jenny’s place since I got into town, but I thought maybe if you want me
to, I could stay here with you,” she said, her voice caught in her throat when his
lips reached the exposed curvature of her shoulder. “I could look after you until you’re back on
your feet, then you can
Hutch
paused, then continued his gentle exploration of her neck. “Go to Vegas?
What for? I don’t understand. I mean, if you’ve
Jeanie
pulled away slightly, her eyes seeking his.
“Wait, Hutch,” she said. “I...I
didn’t mean that I was
Her
eyes sparkled with excitement as she spoke.
“I mean, you never know who’s sitting in the audience.
Hutch
stared at her, trying to
“I
told you,” she said in her most persuasive voice. “I miss you and I need you, baby.” She leaned
forward to plant another kiss on his mouth.
“I need you near me. I want us to
be together. I want people to see that I
belong to you.”
Hutch’s
brow wrinkled with consternation. Still
a little shaky on his feet, he stood up and paced the length of the room and
back. Then turning to face her, he said
pointedly, “You want a career in show business, and you want me to quit my job
as a detective to live in Vegas with you?”
Jeanie
sighed, realizing Hutch wasn’t pleased with the idea. “Don’t you see? I need to be where I can get exposure and
make contacts. You could get a job
there,” she reasoned. “What difference
does it make where you work, as long as we’re together?”
Sitting
down next to her, Hutch answered heatedly, “It makes a difference to me.
This is my beat. These are my people. More importantly, Starsky and I are partners
and we count on one another. I can’t
just walk out on all of them. Don’t you
think what I’m doing here matters—that they need me?”
“Well,
what about me?” she said petulantly. “I
need you, too! Ben’s gone, and now
you’re gone. I’ve tried it on my own,
and it’s terrible.”
Hutch
felt his temper surge at the mention of
“What
am I supposed to do?” she asked, her voice pleading for understanding. “There are all sorts of creeps out in Vegas,
hitting on me day in and day out. If we
were living together, they’d know I was off-limits. I thought you cared about me, would want to
be with me.”
Hutch’s
mind was reeling with the implications of what she had said. It was finally be
She
blinked the tears from her eyes, then looked way.
Releasing
her hand, Hutch lifted her chin until their gaze met. “Tell me.
Do you really love me? Or are you just afraid to be on your own?”
“I...I
never felt safer than when I was with you, Hutch,” she said sincerely. “Isn’t that love? Knowing you can count on someone? I know you wouldn’t have told Ben where I was
if they hadn’t used the drugs. And I’m
so sorry they did that to you. But with
him in prison,” she rushed on, “we don’t have to worry about that anymore. We can be happy in Vegas, you’ll see.”
He
cupped her cheek in the palm of his hand, and she stroked her face against
it. “Jeanie, I....”
Finding
it hard to put his feelings into words, he paused for a moment. “There was a time when I thought maybe we
were in love, and that if things had been different, we might have made a life
together. But there’s more to love than
one person needing the protection of another.
I guess it’s in my nature to be protective, and God knows, when we met,
you needed someone to protect you from
“I
know now I shouldn’t have left,” she interrupted. “We were good together...I need you in my
life.”
“I
guess what I’m trying to say is that it’s not enough for me. I have needs, too. I want to spend the rest of my life with a
woman who loves me for who I am. Someone
who accepts that my job is an integral part of my life, and understands that I
can’t walk out on my partner and all those people who depend on me. I need to be more than your body guard, and
it seems that’s all we had going for us when we were together.”
She
stared into his eyes for a long moment, considering what he had said. “What am I supposed to do?” she asked.
Hutch
ran his thumb over her lips, then leaned forward and kissed her lightly. “You’re supposed to trust in yourself. You’re one hell of a lady, and I have no
doubt you can ac
She
smiled at him sadly, then stood to leave.
“I think we could have been happy together, Hutch. But I guess we’ll never know. Maybe you’re right. Maybe I don’t understand what love is.”
He
stood also and walked to the door with her.
“Jeanie, I know this sounds trite, but I really do want to be your
friend.”
“You
are my friend,” she assured him. “Only a
friend can be truthful enough to make a person face things about themselves
they don’t want to admit.”
She
opened the door and found Starsky trying to balance three bags of groceries
while digging in his pocket for the house key.
When he looked up and saw her standing there, his face went pale and his
eyes immediately flew to Hutch. He could
see lines of fatigue on his friend’s face and hoped that whatever had
transpired between him and Jeanie wouldn’t mean a setback for Hutch.
“Sorry,”
he said, breaking the awkward silence.
“I didn’t mean to interrupt.”
“I
was just leaving,” she said.
Starsky
heard the tension in her voice. He
stepped past them both and headed for the kitchen, allowing them some privacy.
“Goodbye,
Hutch,” she said, taking his hand in hers.
“And this time, it really is goodbye.”
“Goodbye,”
he said with a poignant smile. “I’m glad
you came back. I needed to see you
again.”
“Yeah,
me, too.”
“I
hope you find what you’re looking for,” he added. “Just remember to believe in yourself, okay?”
“Okay,”
she said, then walked down the steps and out of his life forever.
At
the sound of the door closing, Starsky peeked out of the kitchen and watched
Hutch return to the sofa and sit down.
Taking that as his cue, Starsky popped the caps off two bottles of Coke,
walked from the kitchen, and dropped onto the sofa next to Hutch.
Handing
one bottle to Hutch he asked, “You okay, pal?”
Hutch
nodded slowly. Starsky thought he’d
detected a trace of a smile on his lips as Hutch answered, “Yeah, I’m
fine. In fact, I’m probably better than
I’ve been in a long time.”
Epilogue
Starsky
pulled the
Starsky
rang the bell, then, without waiting for an answer, tried the knob. As expected, Hutch had left it unlocked for
him.
“Hey,
Hutch, it’s me,” he called out, closing the door behind him. When no one answered, he called again,
“Hutch?”
“Be
right out. Just finishing my shower,”
Hutch answered from the bathroom.
In
the corner, stood the wooden easel Hutch used when painting. Starsky noticed that, for the first time in
months, it wasn’t covered with the paint-stained drape he was used to seeing. His curiosity getting the better of him,
Starsky inched toward the corner of the room.
Knowing Hutch didn’t like anyone to view a “work in progress,” he
listened for a moment to make certain Hutch wouldn’t catch him snooping, then
tiptoed toward the easel.
“Help
yourself to a brew!” Hutch yelled from the bedroom. Starsky pulled up short, nearly tripping over
his own feet.
“Uh,
no thanks,” he answered casually. “I think I’ll wait ’til we get to the
club.” Recovering his equilibrium, he
eased his way across the room and reached the back of the easel.
“Starsky!”
Hutch said from behind him.
“What?!” Starsky spun around, wearing the guilty
expression of a kid caught with his hand in the cookie jar.
Despite
the bathrobe and a towel thrown around his neck, Hutch still looked as
intimidating as a stern schoolmaster.
“Just what do you think you’re doing?”
“Nothin’,”
Starsky lied, taking a step back from the easel.
“You
were going to look at my canvas, weren’t you?” Hutch said.
“Well,
it was uncovered and all, so I figured it was finished.” Starsky gave him a sickly smile, seeing from
Hutch’s face he wasn’t buying the excuse.
“Actually,
I’m just getting started. But you can
look if you want to,” Hutch said, nonchalantly.
Taken
off-guard, Starsky just stared at him for a few seconds. “I can?” he asked, disbelieving this sudden
about-face.
“Sure,
why not? I mean, we are partners and
all,” Hutch answered magnanimously.
Starsky
walked to the front of the easel and gazed at the painting before him. The solid white canvas shown beneath the
spotlight, the wet paint glistening like whitecaps on a choppy sea. Wide brushstrokes of shiny white paint
Coming
to stand behind him, Hutch asked, “So, what do you think?”
Starsky
turned his head to one side and studied the canvas. Try as he might, all he saw was white. Deciding this was Hutch’s idea of a practical
joke, he finally said, “Okay, I give up.
What the hell is it supposed to be?”
“I
call it ‘A Fresh Start’,” Hutch answered with a smile. He clapped Starsky on the shoulder. “And I think it’s way past due. Don’t you?”
Starsky
considered it another moment, then answered with a grin, “Yeah. I think it’s probably your best work.”
His
partner was back.
The
End