| My Days.....page 12 |
| September 26, 1999 3:04amED |
| I went to a party tonight, it was awesome - lotsa people, good music from star94.1 who supplied us with the DJ for the evening, with beer and margaritas galore. It was cool watching the kids smack at a candy filled pinata while thier half drunken parents cheered on like it was their children's first football game. Either way, a good time was had by all I assume. I met some interesting people and talked with some old friends, it was a good thing. Unfortunatly, afterwards when I was actually enjoying myself at a friends house, something came up that took me out of town for the next couple of days. Which totally sucks. oh well. :) I'm going to try to get some sleep now. g'nite. |
| September 29, 1999 2:14am ED |
| "I need your arms around me I need to feel your touch..." **YAWN** I just got in a few minutes ago and I am totally exausted. I have so much homework to do, and I suppose one of two things will happen. It will either now get done at all, or I will attempt to do it in the morning before class, if I decide to go to class that is. The drama is coming back by the way, I am now juggling so many soap operas that it just isn't funny any more. One more came on today and nearly made me drop all the balls, but I held on somehow. I am in a situation where I may end up losing one friend, just to keep another one. I did get a break from the drama tonight, after seeing Double Jepordy (which is a totally awesome movie with Tommy Lee Jones) I ended up in midtown at a pool hall where I throughly enjoyed myself hurling small sharp things at a plastic board, but the company was appreciated, and there was this cute guy who kept throwing darts with me, amazing huh? Anyway. I am totally delerious. So I am going to bed after this hellish day, just to wake up to the "world turning to the days of the lives of the bold and the beautiful." nite. |
| October 09, 1999 4:33pm ED |
| Time goes by so quickly. It's so so scary to think that it has only been a little while since I was in high school. SMILE Oh well. No one can stop time I suppose. I have had so many things going on lately, as usual, but I am keeping up. I am WAY behind in things that need to be done, and way ahead in things that can wait. That is a bad balance I think, but I am trying to change it. I have met some really awesome people in the past couple of weeks that have been totally supportive in everything. I'm not sure what I would do without friends, God knows I could never handle the world on my own, as hard as I sometimes try. And that is what I will continue to do, try. Until I get it right, or die trying. SMILE |
| October 21, 1999 6:47pm ED |
| "If all of the strength and all of the courage couldn't lift me from this place, I know I could not do much better than this..." Its better this way, I guess. I haven't seen a lot of the people that I care about for a long time, but it seems that whatever I say and do hurts them all the more. So I never stay to long in the same place, trying to get away from what I dont have there. It's amazing though, really. It's amazing the things you miss. The things that only a song, or a taste, or smell can bring back to your memory and bring tears to you eyes. I woke up this morning hugging a wet pillow, I had been crying in my sleep, it seems now that crying while I am awake is not enough. I was so cold when I crawled out of bed and into my blue cordoroy robe. I have been trying to get back into my normal routine, it seems I always am trying to get back into a normal routine and never quite making it, but someday I will, I suppose. The winter here will be cold and bitter from what I hear. Well, after a bit of cleaning up that is to be done, I am off to the mall to get some stuff I will hopefully re-update later tonight. Lates. oh, its good to know that someone from nashville still cares. :) ip-121-200.lebanon.total-web.net |
| October 23, 1999 2:17am ED |
| aww, i feel so warm and fuzzy. *chuckle* Yes I admit I've got a thinking problem. I spend way too much time pondering things that I cannot change. oh well, I guess we all do that. AH! The ice just fell in the icemaker, it scared the hell out of me. My day has been pretty much uneventful, though my mother and "the aunts" stopped by this morning, that was such a wonderful hour that I spent in torment, smile, it wasn't that bad really, they loved the way I have my apartment decorated for halloween. After that I showered and went into work for a couple of hours, and then to a friends house to watch movies that I'd already seen, but I suppose I spent quality time, so that is all that matters. Tomorrow, I have a bit of traveling to do, early, so I should definitly be in bed by now but we all know how that goes. I will try to get online tomorrow for an update. good night everyone. |
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| [aside] This was a party at Lake Union Hills in alpharetta where I was living at the time. It was the yearly Luau. And it's where I first met and spent time with Matty :-) The friend's house I was referring to was James, and if I remember correctly he and I were in private doing private things when I learned that my uncle was in the hospital in tennessee... |
| [aside] I honestly can't remember the guys name that I was talking about in this entry, it's been a while... But he was adorable, I think he was 26 and he worked for the APD, carried a gun on our date (to the str8 pool hall) and everything. He drove a huge red dodge pickup and we didn't even kiss, but I still had a blast :-) |
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