In Loving Memory

Kaela Gabrielle Anderson

March 30, 1995 - April 15, 1996

"If I Had Only Known" by Reba McIntyre

If I had only known it was our last walk in the rain,
I'd keep you out for hours in the storm
I would hold your hand like a lifeline to my heart
Underneath the thunder, we'd be warm
If I had only known it was our last walk in the rain

If I had only known I'd never hear your voice again
I'd memorize each thing you'd ever said
All those lonely nights, I could think of them once more
And keep your words alive inside my head
If I had only known I'd never hear your voice again

You were the treasure in my hand
You were the one who always stood beside me
So unaware, I foolishly believed that you would always be there
But then there came a day, I turned my head and you slipped away

If I had only known it was my last night by your side
I'd pray a miracle would stop the dawn
And when you smiled at me,
I would look into your eyes
and make sure you know my love for you goes on and on
If I had only known
The love I would have shown
If I had only known ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

My baby, Kaela, was induced one month early after several months of being monitored for growth problems and cysts on her brain.

She weighed 4 lbs., 5 oz. at birth. Kaela was born with Moebius Syndrome and Diabetes Insipidus, both rare disorders. Moebius Syndrome is characterized by a paralyzed face. Kaela was unable to suck, smile or show any facial expression for that matter. She was born with crossed eyes, and we later found out that she was legally blind and had severe hearing impairment. She also had low muscle tone and could not sit up by herself. Doctors said that she had cerebral palsy. The Diabetes Insipidus altered the sodium in her body and caused her to urinate frequently, and so she required a shot once a day, every day.

At 12-1/2 months of age, Kaela gave up her will to live. After a sudden illness, Kaela was declared brain dead after becoming severely dehydrated, due to complications from the Diabetes Insipidus.

Kaela was, without a doubt, the best thing that has ever happened to me. She made me feel absolute, unquestionable, without a doubt - TRUE LOVE. I miss her more than anything and I would give my life to have her back. I can only get by knowing that she is no longer suffering. She is my HERO because her tiny body endured more pain than any grown man could ever handle. I love her for being the fighter that she was. Her footprints will always be embedded in my heart.

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