August
August 3, 1999
Hmm well I thought i'd ramble today, and then I realized "damn, I have to make a new page for august rambles." so I figured I'd ramble and get the page made at least. even if this ramble goes nowhere. Which it will probably end up doing. I am getting a new computer soon. Huzzah!!! it should be a really really good cpu. I'm going all out on it. anyway good news is new cpu bad news is I have to get rid of a lot of stuff. also soon I shall be going off to college so I probably won't update this page for a while, maybe never again depending on how things go at college. but i'll probably end up adding to this page occasionaly. Have to keep mmy friends here updated on the intimate details of my life, don't ya know. PERSNICKITY!!! anyways things are going pretty good right now. my life is (to misquote a song, because this is what I thought the words were but they are not) I'm "happy bout everything but my love" but that's going to change soon. I've got a feeling. Whether it happens here or at college is undetermined but it's going to happen soon. I'll be happy bout everything then. now where was I??? (incase you're wondering why I said that I had to get up and go get something out of my teeth, stupid corn on the cob(b??)
anyway what's new with you poeple today?? if you are reading this then I insist that you send me an e-mail right now and tell me what's new with you E-MAIL ME!!! alright so now that that's taken care of we can ramble about something else. Oh yes I want to go buy new stuff. I have a need for new stuff!! but I sort of spent all my money on a new computer, well maybe not he hasn't called back with the estimate yet. but it will probably be close to all the money I saved up for it. Ok tip number two for today (quiet all you who say "but there's no tip number one" JUST DEAL WITH IT!!!) tip # 2 if you are a guy and you don't like lifting things all day then don't get a job at the elementary school. of course it does build up your muscles some so it's not all bad. my back is sore now though stupid lifting!!! ok another random thought, why are pop machines so freaking heavy!!!!??!!??!?!?!?!? Guess what else happened today, I said guess, no not that, are you crazy?? no um I got a check for $4,000 today. Isn't that neato??? it isn't?? oh ok I was confused I thought it was neato, my mistake. I think I am now done rambling I might add more later, but until then. There can be only one.
August 4, 1999
Well it's ramble time again, which is weird I usually start out with something like that don't I. maybe it's time I started differently like maybe hey world, lets dig in, or maybe just start typing away with no greeting type thing. well it matters little I have already started. But grrr, stuff, um...uh, let's just say that I learned/or not learned, some things that I don't want to hear today. Also my symbol, my meaning, IT FREAKING BROKE!!!! do you know how much that pisses me off. and it also makes me think too. Maybe it means that it is broken, I don't know. I really don't think it is though. I still feel the same if not more so. I'll just have to try and fix it somehow. constant over stimulation make me go insane. I am a gentlemen right? well someone told me that I was today, kind of weird really. well now isn't that special, answer no. I am in love do wa do wa do wa. ok that's kind of silly right, but it's true I am. it's a strange situation that if it develops won't happen for a while. We shall see mayhap I can find someone else who will "steal my heart" so to speak. I don't know, but right now I am pretty happy, kinda, I guess. no I am happy, just two minor problems. Maybe I can get them worked out tomorrow well one I can, the other one might never work out. But I've tried, not 100% at first but now I'm giving it my all in the best way that I know how. alright back to writing my ramble. Well I guess there is not much else to say really. wait I could talk about how when you know something to be true. Like you truly know it in your heart to be the right thing. And then little things attack it. and tell you that it's not right, or that it's not the truth. until you get to the point where you just want to cry?? I feel that way sometimes. yeah kinky *sigh* there goes another thing attacking it. It's ok though I'll survive. another weird thing, is when anything and everything reminds you of someone. like today it's happened to me countless times. sometimes happy moments and sometimes sad moments, but lots of times. I guess that's part of my truth though. you know it's hard sometimes to think of things to say, when you know you can't say all the things you want to. next topic. Why can you not have light without heat. these freaking lights in this room get hot. oh well I'll have my own computer soon mwa ha ha ha. ok so I am a running freak I want to run now. thanks a lot brandi now you make me want to run. ahh running the good old days, I'll have to do that at college. I need new running shoes first though. Oh wait you people don't care about this do you?? you just want to know all the other more personal stuff. Like i bet you don't care about what kind of deodorant I use, or what my favorite book is. well ok then i'll just stop now cause I don't think I have anything else really interesting to share.
August 10, 1999
Well lets see I am to rable being agian. I'm not sure that I have anything to ramble about but you see. This very beautiful duck asked me to. So now I am rambling. I am going to college soon. 6 days left before I leave. I still need to pack most of my clothes and stuff. And then my clock and my puter needs to get here. I will have to call puter man tomorrow. Today was kind of weird, well not really weird but boring. I got up did nothing for a while. uh did more nothing, The morning is kind of a blur of nothing. this afternoon I played board games with aric and then later with parents with tv watching and book reading in between. The book I'm reading is really kind of scary but not scary at all. That might sound weird but that's the way it is. Anyway it's about these appearances of the virgin mary (you know the biblical one) and how she has been appearing in this one town somewhere in bosnia, and the town's name is some m word that is hard to pronounce. And anyway she's been appearing there every day since 1982. And telling people to convert and become good religious people and pray and whatnot. And it is kinda scary cause I am not the best catholic in the world and hell would be a bad place to be. Anyway that's my short little ditty on the book. um what else to ramble about??? I kindof really want to go to college cause it will be good. But I kind of not want to go cause have friends here and such. BUT I AM LEAVING ANYWAY TEE-HEE HEE!!!! oh also on the topic of poems I have stuff to say. It's been like a week or so since I wroted a poem, (well technically I wrote one yesterday but it was crappy so it doesn't count) but I don't think that i no write cause I forgetted how, I think that it's just I have nothing to write about anymore. I mean there's the one topic but I've done so much on it already. I think that's pretty much all the way covered. So as soon as I get more ideas for poems I will write some. Also to all the people out there if there are more than just that know me that read these things. Which I doubt there are. Well write me an e-mail or send me a message on icq. so yeah if you read these then let me know. Cause I get kinda bored writting them for no reason. I just picked fuzzies off my sock. not that you care or anything just thought I'd add that. ok enough of that today kinda sucks you know. Because I have nothing to do and no one to do it with. I'd even take sitting around and watching tv all day if I had someone to do it with. Maybe tomorrow I can just drive around to random places, or find something to do at least. oh ok an update on the broked thing that is important. It be still broked but it no longer anger me as much as afore. I still carry it everywhere that I go. I don't think I'll fix it though. It's sort of fitting that it remain broken. College will be much good for me I'll come back even freakier than before. but alas I fear I am done rambling now. Bye Each. Ok this really shouldn't count as a ramble for today as it is 1:46 am on the 11th but I'm throwing it in here anyway. I was reading through all my poems today and this one really caught my attention. It's called "I miss you" And anyway it caught my attention because I wrote it a long time ago like the beginning of march or something, and I remember the exact day that I wrote it. rachie and brandi were over with josh gordo and I watching movies at my house. and right after they left I wrote a poem about how I missed brandi. And after they left I was talking to them on icq (rachie was spending the night at brandi's) and I showed it to them and they asked me when I wrote it. And I blew off the question and just moved on and never told them. and I think now that maybe if I had said something back then maybe things would be different now. Grr maybe I'm just beating myself up over stupid things, but I'm sure that it's just a bunch of little things like that that have kept me from her. Well that was my thought that I thought I'd share. now it's back to reading my poems. I guess it's kind of weird too that I can remember all that just from one little poem that's only about 6 lines long. Well night night again.
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