Daddy,
Why can't you come home and live with me?
That is the hardest question my oldest son ever asked of me.
It made me want to cry all night.
I am Sorry son,
but mom and dad just fight.
Daddy what's wrong with me?
It's not you son,
It's between your mother and me.
Daddy,
Don't you love me anymore?
How do you explain it to a boy of four?
Daddy can't you come and see me today?
Sorry son but mom says I have to go away.
Daddy,
You are bad for not being here!
Yes son,
You are right I fear.
Mommy said you are going away.
Yes son is all I could say.
Sadness and pain well up from deep inside,
Later that night in a darkened room...
Daddy cried.
-1997 Draco Darkblade-
My missing piece
I think a lot about you these days.
I wonder if you are still alive,
I wonder about who you are and about your ways.
Knowing nothing about you but your name,
I wonder how much we are alike,
or if we act the same.
I wonder if you ever think about me?
Of who and what I am?
I wonder what you would see?
I can't remember the last time we met,
I was only two then,
but you remember I bet.
I am a father myself now,
and time for us has past.
But yet I think about you,
How long will these feelings last?
I have search all over looking for you,
but dead ends kept coming up,
There was nothing left to do.
Dad,
even now
I need
you.
-Draco Darkblade 1997-
--I found my father--
Well,
now it is to late,
It is an unfortunate thing,
But an act of fate.
I recieved news the other day,
My dad who I never met,
He has passed away.
In his memory I dedicate this page,
as I cry quietly now,
in silent sadness and misunderstood rage.
Please people be aware,
If you are a father or mother,
your children need care.
They need to know who they are,
Good or bad,
whether your family be close or far.
Don't let what happened to me happen to you,
because you don't know what I have been through.
To look in a mirror and see your own face,
to not recognise some of your inner place.
I will always wonder what I missed.
Your children need to know who they are,
Its thier right,
The knowlege will carry them far.
I had to live life without my dad,
and now its to late,
I will never know him,
I think in some ways I shall always be sad.
Yes,life will surely go on,
but I will look in the mirror,
and wonder where I belong.
Rest in peace my father,
because I know now you are no longer with us,
I know where your grave site is,
I can now finally
end my search.
In memory of
Kenneth Eugene Clark
The father I never knew
who passed away in July of 1998
I love you dad.
---Draco Darkblade----
My Awakening
I walked through the darkness without seeing any light.
A darkness so cold that I
shivered with fright.
Wandering along a twisted path of greed,
not even knowing I had planted a
seed.
My path wondered on seeming without an end.
I had no goals to reach and no love to send.
Then somehow the little
seed took sprout,
And hard as I tried I couldn't pull it out.
The minute I touched this small soul grown seed,
It
sparked with life and grew like a weed!
I saw the light this plant had brought,
And I realized that it was
something I had been taught.
It was the tree of knowledge growing in my mind,
I remember how I once
could be kind.
I turned and looked down my dark winding trail,
Realizing I had learned from my
darkness,
The darkness changed to a lighter pale.
I looked ahead down my slightly brighter street,
And saw it
pass other roads of people I would meet.
I would learn a little from each person I met,
Each
intersection,
A person I could not forget.
Then the light began to shine from my still growing tree,
And I had
the realization that the light was guiding me.
It had been with me all along in the dark!
but until I needed it,
It was
only the seed,
From which came the
spark!
Draco Darkblade 1997
Some day I will get around to posting more of the stuff I have written over the last few years,but for now...
its a start!
