He was ticked today and screeched the whole time we were in the car.

But he seemed different...

Later in the day -
"I left Connor at the clinic for tonight
and I'll go down in the morning.
Mark gave him fluids and a sedative before we left.
He said that he could feel that his spleen was enlarged.
All the Vets have 9-12 hours tomorrow
so Marks' friend Dr. (name deleted) will come over
if Connor has to go down tomorrow.
I feel so sad about this and I'm furious all over again
at the people who hurt him last spring.
I just wish I could find them and make them see what they did."

Later still -
"I'm thinking I will go to the clinic early since I have keys.
Maybe I can give Connor just enough phenobarb here at home
that he doesn't get stressed.
It really helped him today, like we talked about before,
who cares about addiction.
Pain is what worries me, you can give dogs aspirin, etc.
but there's nothing like that for cats."

Nearly Midnight - "Mark really loves Connor,
he told me awhile back that he would know when it was time
but he couldn't do it himself.
And Connor has been good all along about letting me inject him
and give him meds so we'll see.
I really am going to bed, my eyes hurt,
I think I have cried more over this kitty
than all of the people I've known except my dad.

Talk to you tomorrow.
Wake Sam up and give him a squeeze!"

I have been asking myself those "why" questions
about Connor since I got him,
it doesn't make sense to me that such terrible things
have happened to him.

We don't know if he's even 2 years old yet."

He called me when he was there
and said that very sick cats can kind of put themselves
into something like a coma so they save their strength.

If Connor is still like that in the morning
he said it was best to go ahead and end it.
He thinks he will have or already does have gangrene
with the amount of abcess inside.

My neighbor helped me put him beside Methos
where the red roses are still blooming.

I want to think his spirit is already going
to someone else whose life needs some help.
Do you suppose there is such a thing as a wandering cat spirit?
I hope so, I know one of the old Scottish clans
has a cat on their shield and a motto "Touch Not The Cat".

I feel very bad but I am also angry all over again
at the horrible people who don't care about anything."

Nancy took an abused kitty
(and she can tell you more about why she feels this was
long term abuse when she makes her page,
if she wishes to share her feelings)
and made him a loved part of a family.
For his last few months he has been spoiled, cuddled, pampered...
everything a cat should have has been his.

Connor has brought together a lot of people who may have never met,
were it not for his story.
I consider Nancy one of my dearest friends now...
were it not for Connor, we would have been aquaintances
with a mutual interest in Highlander.

Connor may not be as well known to the internet cat community
as was our beloved Clyde,
but he was as loved as a kitty can be.

In the past I've asked for prayers for Connor,
but right now I am asking for prayers that whoever caused
*this* terrible thing to happen (and all/any other animal abusers)
will soon suffer the same torments that they have caused...

I think God agrees...

(paraphrasing)
"Whatsoever you do to the least of my creatures,
you do unto Me"

Is there much else anyone can say?