Go away
I don't want to see
you
in my mirror
I don't want to read
your words
in mine
Go away Lady Lazarus
and bury
your
suicidal siren song
of self pity
some place
where I won't
trip over it
Some people pretend
to long for the grave
They turn pain into
a lifestyle
and death into a religion
They keep every thorn
and need to worship
someone like you
a helpless scarred queen
sent to us
with some profound message
Maybe
if I'm as insane as you
someone will worship me too
Please give us your
wisdom
teach us the art of victimhood
You do it so well,
Lady Lazarus
Some people dream
of the day
you'll appear in their mirrors
reveal the beauty
found only in suffering
but I don't feel
blessed by your presence
I'm not impressed
to see you in me
I won't admire that
reflection
Because
I don't need to wallow
in blame
and I know Lady Lazarus
won't rise from the dead
She's too interested
in her own distress
too distracted by her madness
to hear the dawn call
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swirls around me
tries to drown me
I just blink
and today becomes the past
You won't save me from it
too caught up in the whirl
living in a blurr
I just blink
and you become my past
and the world keeps twirling
around the sun
there it goes
in a blink
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and The Devil
Sent me searching for
a little hope in the midst of madness
My search has brought me
to your door
In the middle
of so much
that is wrong
I find something special
something in your eyes
has made me realize
that life doesn't stop
when one part is bad
The cards will never be
all good
If I stay away from your door
The Devil covers me forever
And The Two of Cups
stay empty
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are calling again
Aren't they caring and kind?
No fangs to be seen
Maybe I'm safe in the day
No way!
Gotta watch my neck
they're only here for my blood
Please tell me your secrets
and I'll tell the whole world
You can call me
anytime
You can tell me
anything
with a soft smile
Fake friends know to keep the shoulder ready
with a soft smile
Please tell me your troubles
and I'll use them against you someday
they mine salt from tears
and take the trust
from your soul
Gotta watch my back
Gotta swallow my tears
Think I'll unplug the phone
for awhile
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with you today
Walking on eggshells
has never been
my forteŽ
What am I doing in your breakable world?
easy to break
easy to crack
easy to be angry
with me
Potential disaster lurks
whenever I'm near
What will I destroy today?
You're so fragile
my whispers crush you
You're so great
that you'll never risk success
Dream of walking on water
but never learn to swim
It's a perfect balance
a beautiful world
of your own creation
that falls apart whenever I'm near
Please send me a thousand miles away
before I break something else
in your perfect world
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but not close enough
Not too close to scare me
Not close enough
to make me soar
through this experience
called life
Come a little closer
Not close enough to kill me
just close enough to thrill me
Wake me
From this dream called immortality
that fools me
into believing
that time has a price
and I can always buy more
Don't waste this moment
Come a little closer
I want to know
that your presence
isn't an accident
Erase this distance
You're close
just not close enough
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I had an
ectomy
of some sort
All I know is - you've been removed
Whole again
feels so good to be missing you
emptied of you
My heart's on automatic ignore
as I practice
the art of indifference
and struggle to notice
something that once mattered so much
I don't look up when you are near
I don't have to try
Well, maybe I'll look
and maybe I'll smile
but never at the same time
because you're not on my sleeve anymore
you don't matter much anymore
I don't know why you're near anymore
Go as far away as you can
I won't follow
and I won't look
Go find what you want
I know I'm not there
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I was cold
couldn't pretend to love
you
or anyone else
Glacier Girl will never melt
give you fake affection
the kind that you crave
the kind that others give
so easily
Here I sit
behind my frost covered windows
thinking I could have been an actress
played a starring role in your life
If only I weren't so damn cold
If only I weren't so damn honest
If only a lie were something I could live
No, I can't live a life of numbness
If that is my choice
I prefer the cold
Freeze me
Leave me
alone and shivering
Freeze me
Leave me
atleast I can feel it
Freeze me
Believe me
atleast it's true
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I type on the keys
and nothing meaningful
appears on the screen
Looking for my muse
Ah, there she is -
making snow angels
while I struggle to be profound
Everything's going backwards
Nothing makes sense
Can't get it right without my guide
moving the thoughts
from my head to my heart
turning the thoughts
into words
that flow
from my mind
down my left arm
to my fingers
through the ink
to the page
But nothing moves today
Because my snow angel must play
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