Wildheart's Poetry

Volume X

I dreamt of a burning bridge

I dreamt of things I miss

and you were on that other side

so often I'm so quick

with the kerosene

and the fire

That I forget

That I might want

to return to the other side

or atleast I might miss

what I'm leaving behind

I don't think

I just burn my bridges and run

Dreamt of a chasm

so wide

so deep

and longing to be on the other side

longing for my past

but like fire, I leave nothing behind

I have no past

I burn too quickly

all my bridges are gone

without a bridge

there is no return

Dreamt of the future

and nothing was there

only the ashes

from the bridges I will burn tomorrow

Sit here

We'll get over our guilt together

here at the shallow end

of the pool

Have a Snickers bar

while the fat girls frolick

in their circus tent bikinis

Today I told a bald man to grow some hair

and told an ugly kid

to get his ugly face

out of my face

I'm comfortable here

knowing I can go deep

where and when

I choose

The choice is mine

but one time I couldn't make it

even though we liked the same music

even though we laughed at the same jokes

even though we seemed pretty good together

I couldn't make the choice

forgot how to float

almost drowned in the deep end

choaking on my vanity

am I evil?

or just human

and thin?

Tried to swim

But I couldn't get past his gut

Trapped in the deep end

with my ego dragging me under water

I sink to the bottom

feeling the weight of the water

pushing me

squashing me

Feeling the weight of all I thought I was

am I evil?

am I only human

and thin?

No, I can't see past that stomach

I'm sorry

you're too fat

I'll never do my Christmas shopping at the Smart Stout Shoppe!

Hold my breath long enough

to walk under water

to the shallow end

I am evil

I am human

I am thin

Here's another Snickers bar

Hey, ask him -

when's that baby due?

Someone else answered the message

that was meant for you

now I don't remember

what I'm supposed to feel for you

was it love?

was it lust?

was it good?

Whatever it was

Someone intercepted your chance to reply

sent me a message

call it an arrow

call it a dart

whatever you call it

the reply targeted my waiting heart

I was expecting you

waiting

you were indicisive

preoccupied

I got an answer anyway

thank you for not wasting

anymore of my time

Now I read your words

so ordinary

black on white

there's nothing between the lines

I look at the type and think -

whatever.....

Alien Jesus is coming

back at the speed of light

Armageddon from across the universe

We've been waiting

We've been waiting so long

yes, waiting so long for Our Little Green Savior

Some people thought He was only human

others thought He was the Son of God

but El Greco always knew

that's why he painted his Alien Jesus with a lovely lime hue

Intergalatic Jesus is returning

not by virgin birth

but by warp speed

He'll beam us aboard His Holy Mother's ship

a Rapture of awesome technology

one Holy ZAP!

and off the earth we go

down a worm hole to meet XFiles everlasting

SEE YOU IN HELL SMOKING MAN!!!!!!!!

it's in Revelations, you know

I want to believe

that Alien Jesus will land at the ancient airport in Peru

with Bigfoot in the co-pilot's seat

You'll know Him

Even when He wears shades

He can't hide those glowing eyes

so, don't be surprised

when you find crop circles on your lawn

Don't be afraid

it's only Alien Jesus

returned to take all deserving scarecrows

to their Heavenly cosmic reward

Maybe we could meet near that face on Mars

where we'd finally discover

if the weight of the pyramids

multiplied by the square root of pi

will yeild the secrets of Atlantis

Alien Jesus could take you anywhere

If only you believed

If only you could see

For 2000 years you've listened as Earthlings perverted His words

Now He's returning

will you be ready to accept your ONE true Savior

in His one TRUE form?

Go ahead stay

on the same path

Go ahead and pretend

to cheat death for another day

by running in a rut

the mold fits well

no one can tell

where it stops

and you begin

How hard would the car have to crash

to wake you from your cozy dream?

How close would the lightning have to strike

to make you realize

that no place is forever safe?

How long will you stand like a stone

staring at the obstacles

that we all put in out paths

now and then?

Stare at the sun until you're blind

and can't see the road

Stare at the sun and you won't know

the color of the traffic light

Keep on staring and you'll never feel the impact

You'll never know what hit you

as if you drifted into dreamland

and never awoke

while traveling your usual safe path

believing that you've cheated death

for another day

Too much sunlight

Too much daylight

much too bright in here

Light everywhere

I've been saving for years

now I've run out of room

the glare overwhelms

over flows

from my dresser drawers

spilling onto the floor

I try to shade my eyes from the blinding white light

mini blinds are useless

they won't let me see

all light gets through

any curtains no matter how thick

I hit my head on sunbeams

those rays are not enlightening

when closed eyes are no escape

you can't think or dream

you can't see the stars when all between is white

I saved too much daylight

but not enough time

the bright light runneth over

from my cabinets it pours onto the ceiling

surrounding and devouring

any place I might hide from so much light

Where has my shadow gone?

hung in my closet

waiting for the day that I can wear it

waiting for the night

waiting for the time to use

all the daylight I have saved

Am I taking out the trash

or digging a grave?

What's the difference

between the mundane

and the profound?

I see it all through the same sliding glass door

covered with finger prints & streaks

just something else that must be done

another chore

another soul

someone crying in the night

someone lost to the storm

a sock missing it's mate

When do the demands ever stop?

If I stopped long enough to consider

If I breathed deep enough to live

Then I might feel something

I might stop putting my grief

in a dumpster

and tear down that shrine

of empty cans and rotten banana peels

If the windows aren't washed

If a life isn't lost

I don't have to know the difference

as long as I remember it's all just a job

They say I am a black angel

and that is why

I keep my halo in my fireplace

Oh dear God

How dare I defy you

Didn't I know

I was destined to lose

but sometimes you lose the moment

only to realize

that you've won eternity

Now I look at you dear God

and wonder what did I defy

You're not so great anymore

on your reupholstered throne

remote contol in hand

the batteries are dying

Maybe you never were my God

Maybe a black halo is a sign that I am wise

and free

Here you are

In my house again

Returned from a dark alley murder scene

a quiet bedroom

or fatal car wreck on the highway

or maybe you were right here all the time

I couldn't see you in silence

A proud dark chameleon

always watching

Everytime I think I am strong

you humble me

bring me to my knees

I tell myself that I know you

because I've seen your moves

looked into your eyes, a time or two

turned away fast

only to feel your breath on the back of my neck

If I'm so brave

why can you send shivers down my spine?

If I know you so well

why am I surprised each time I see you?

The appearance is ever changing, but the touch always the same

Your silence tricks me

into believing that I have conquered you

I go through the day with my head held high

such contempt for worshippers of immortality

I'm not afraid to say the truth

I hold my head high

so proud

Believing I've seen it all

then you show your face

so proudly

and reduce me to tears

as I crumble in fear

fall into your shadow

so quickly

My world is a little emptier

The sky is much wider

more space

too much space

I can't write in an empty world

thoughts run through my head

amazing

brilliant

and bright

but I can't catch them

these things don't last

I can't touch them

All things

precious

dark

and dangerous

Fade to ethereal

gone

before I can put them on the empty page