HARD TIMES 1 Nineteen-thirty was a long, cold childhood wedged into a scar and food that filled half the cupboard. She'd lick the pencil stump and make her lists. Each item considered, written, erased, re-written according to what rattled in the broken tea pot. At six o'clock, she always listened to the news and groaned, her body a vast burial ground for victims of plagues, revolutions, wars, each groan another corpse. She stood ironing, every stroke a preparation for the burial, a straightening of limbs, a smoothing of features, a final act of love. 2 That winter, he worked at the sawmill sleeping in unheated boxcars with his union card warming his vest pocket. At night, he kept the others awake grinding his teeth. Running a log through the power saw, he sliced off a finger then held his hand high above his head like a dripping torch. He still grinds his teeth in his sleep and spends his time adding figures, quoting costs and measuring distances with his missing fingers. 3 Bench sitters on upper Broadway count passing cars and pavement cracks spilling over into empty lots gone wild. Store fronts tilt, weather-scoured like old customers leaning on carts in Safeway aisles waiting for the round-up back to one-room lives. Light dies out. The street steps into darkness. They stand on sidewalks drowning as the past leaks in. Then, like a slow coming-out of sleep, they shuffle back, cook the same soup bone down to stock and vapor, empty the pot and wait for a surprise. They didn't plan it this way. Nothing for the ears. Nothing for the eyes. And night tapering off to a shirt hanging on a nail and a saucer filled with all the cold mornings ahead.
YES In the other, the sunken life, in the world of green feedings, all the leaves say yes and meadows of curved stems say yes and warmth flows from the depth of this and out toward horizons where hills are still transparent and the ground white with drippings from the moon. Waking from this memory of green, we'll face the skirmish of each day with hostages retrieved from the night. this time will be different, new patterns for the feet, wings for the eyes and our names everywhere like grass. * We hold darkness in our palms No maps to where we're going, where we've been. The hours move like secrets as silence stretches a live wire overhead. In spite of wax and burning sand, years move in hesitations and a moment lasts forever as we gather handfuls of time to rub against our mouths. * We say yes to the peeling away of winter to rain's slanted messages and the language of warm winds, yes to yeasty roots burrowing in earth to skeletal trees putting on flesh to ground smearing itself with green pigment. and the sun blooming in our boides with a promise more permanent than love. yes to the unborn waiting to be born, to the sky stretching naked overhead and the days so compact and clear, we could carry them in our arms.
EVE'S LEGACY She picks the perfect one, almost out of reach, more tempting than the rest. Wedging her thumb into the soft stem end, she twists and cracks the fruit in half, it's white skin umber at the core. Stripped of other appetites, she smells, nuzzles, tongues, sinks her teeth into the flesh, rotating as she bites until reaching the womb-shaped heart, convinced that only a solid piece of fruit understands teeth that go on biting and biting a whole lifetime.
KNIVES In my kitchen, I know each blunted blade, worn handle, broken tip, the past compressed in steel. Along with sacramental noise of cups knocking, lips smacking, I hear carving knives and cleavers splitting days into edible proportions. Skillful at the cutting board, I pay my vegetable tithes to the crock pot, the salad, the wok and slice and slice into the heart of things. Familiar knives carve me into chunks served up for family dinner. From the scraps and bones I make a broth and feed myself.
Ruth Daigon was editor of Poets On: for twenty years until it ceased publication. She won "The Eve of St. Agnes Award (Negative Capability 1993). Her poems have been widely published: Shenandoah, Negative Capability, Poet & Critic, Kansas Quarterly, Alaska Quarterly, Atlanta Review, Poet Lore, Tikkun....Internet "E" zines include Ariga, Crania, Cross Connect, Zuzu's Petals, Switched On Gutenberg, Recursive Angel, Mudlark.... also she appeared as Poet-Of-The-Month on The University of Chile's Pares Cum Paribus (an "E" chapbook in English and Spanish) and Web Del Sol has recently published her latest chapbook on the WEB. Her poetry collection "Between One Future And The Next" was published by Papier-Mache Press 1995 followed by "About A Year" (Small Poetry Press in 1996), Gale Research included her autobiography in their Contemporary Authors Autobiography Series, 1997 and she won the Ann Stanford Poetry Prize, 1997 (University of Southern California). RUTH DAIGON 86 SANDPIPER CIRCLE, CORTE MADERA ,CA 94925 (415) 924 0568 ruthart@aol.com http://www.freeyellow.com/members/lyric