"A woman is never in love with anyone she has always known- ever since she can remember; as a man often is. It is always some new fellow who strikes a girl. -George Eliot
Yeah, I think you can guess what happened. And just after I said that I didn't care, either. Ah, irony. I was working on another entry for this, but who cares, I can do that later. =)
FDG called me 3ish =), we talked about school vs. home, majors (he's history, eventual law school), living arrangements (he's moving into a frat house. Hmmm), dealing with people after returning home, etc. Got his number. Said he's returning home in a month, suggested going out to eat then. Works for me. =)
I'm wondering something now- should I start holding back in these entries? I mean, if this goes anywhere, should I really be getting into all the details or not? What if this page turns into just a collection of entries like the one above- just a vague description of what went on with FDG all the time? Is this good or bad? Sound obsessive? I have kept diaries in the past, off and on since elementary school. Problem is, almost everything in them (looking back) was about whatever guy I liked at the time- all the dish and details. (I wrote when I was motivated!) In other words, obsessive, and only interesting to me as a record of what was going on in Boyland. (Those who remember the earlier entries of "Why is The Moron doing this to me?"- that's about what they sounded like. Can you handle it?) I guess I'm just kinda worried that now that something seems to be going somewhere, that I'll turn this diary, which was supposed to be a little more varied, into the same kinda thing. But then again, other diaries blab about their love lives all the time, so it should be okay. Right?
Opinions, anyone? Is it gonna bore the crap out of people if it becomes "Jen's Love Life" most of the time? Or- oh hell, this is silly. The page is "My Soap-Operatic Life", the subject matter is the soapishness of my life, and having a love life certainly counts in that. Maybe I'm just being ridiculous. I've gotten out of the habits of male obsession (I think) and dating someone that I actually WANT to date, and now I'm just getting all nervous and boy-hyper again.
Oh, and that entry I mentioned that I'd been working on before for today? Here it is: Getting "Personal"
E-mail jdrutherford@ucdavis.edu or gr3ruth@pacbell.net to sound in on the dilemma of "Should I tell all or not?"
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