I Dont Need I dont need you your pity your cause your smile your kisses to keep me whole I dont need you your air your opinions your lies your emptiness to corrupt me I need a light at the end of this dark tunnel to shine for me I dont need your shame cast on me like boulders wet with blood I dont need this from you I dont need you so leave ******************** Dont Leave After you tear me open you leave me exposed on this cold hard floor I run to you screaming crying praying "dont leave" i say but you are gone my words run to a vacant room where in a corner lies my dreams of us together forever "dont leave" i say but you are gone ************************ For You, To Me your anger rushes past me could it be that i am numb? or not open to your lies you tell for sympathy from me i dont care about your father the man who left your father i dont believe your apologies the lies you tell to make me stay i dont like the tone in you the sarcastic quick tone you use to tell me you love me im not a patron of corruption to mop the floor after your shoes it is not my mess that stained you you stained yourself when you came my mess does not stain wipes away easily on you like chalk from a blackboard wipe me away, i dont notice ************************* Falter i hold it in no one understands i feel like they do i falter to demands ************************* Bubble i wish i lived in a bubble...no, oh god im afraid i'll be alone where is me on my own? im gonna die alone, at least on my own ************************* Not Open i dont know how i feel i dont know where i stand i dont know when to go im not open to your criticism yet ************************* I Said I Didnt Love You i said i didnt love you and you shut yourself up i feel like i felt never never longing for you the oddest thing happened i touched your hand and i melted into you when i said i didnt love you was i telling the truth? i just need your arms wrapped tight around me then i could sleep and i would dream of better things than are real you arent here with me my body crumbling without your arms holding it but tommorow i will see you and for now i should sleep and pray to dream about you falling into parallel worlds with just us and no past with just now, and what could be love between us i said i didnt love you ************************* Dubbed Me you dubbed me a psychotic paranoid molly im glad that you care enough to place me im ecstatic that my category is correct now ************************* Funny you fell away from me where are all those letters filled to the brim with everything i want to hear? everything you knew i wanted to hear where is my true love who months ago swore he could and would NEVER leave you stepped in for him quick replacement my own self punishment if i didnt deserve it i wouldnt have inflicted it but i do, and i told you you were afraid of me then now, im afraid of you funny huh? ************************* Small Light such a small light inside of me how you increase it with acknowledgement ************************* A Million Years if i fell a million years in time would there still be love? could people breathe in the place without walls and no above? more importantly, if i collapsed in bloody tears where would you be? with the "friends" that adore you and secretly loathe me? if this oath burns forever how can it sputter out? could it be an inconvenience that i cry to you and drag about? a million years gone by and all the answers i can see there is love and air and oaths in a million years but there is none, for me. ************************* Your Popularity, My Pain im tired of hearing you use my insanity for your popularity you make a pitiful mockery of my pain thats not why i collapse every day now so you can fill your head with stupid self indulgences that make you feel like you are like me doubt that you are not like me farthest from it from where i stand so would you leave me or help me dont use me not this part of me i hold it more dear than any other section of myself ************************* While Looking In My French Book I Think the people in my french book are ugly they crawl into my mind and slow me down i want to drown them in dry water nothing is how it apears anymore All poems this page ©1998 Krista Blower Krista welcomes your feedback on these poems. Back To Poetry This page hosted by Geocities