in depth look at poem: This poem was written when Sarah didn't want me to go somewhere with her. I felt kinda left out so I ended up writing this. I don't know if I really meant some of it, because she hadn't really done some of what it sounded like she did.


        I wish I knew better

        I wish I knew better than this.
        to let myself get so close to you
        because I knew you'd reject me.
        and now you have.
        and it feels like you've
        left me in my own corner.....
        where the anger of my past
        becomes my present and future.

        why have you left me in this corner?
        it was so you and your other friends
        could have fun without me around
        to bother you. I'm sorry I'm such a bother.

        I just wish I were more like you.
        that I was someone who someone wanted to be with.
        instead I'm a foolish creep
        who is always alone.
        why can't I have a friend to help me,
        just someone to lean on......
        why does everyone hate me (including you)?

        -Jon Johnston


        © Copyright 1997 Jonathan Johnston


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