A couple weeks ago, I had a get-together with online friends from a chat channel that I used to frequent and manage. When I got pregnant with Genny, on top of finding out about my diabetes, I just couldn't put any time into a "chat room." I quit going there to visit and chat with friends. It just took too much time and energy out of my life.

Anyway, the get-together was not far from us at a hotel with gambling and a club. I knew about half the people, but the other half were relative newbies to me, so I was polite. One guy, aka M, was a brief sex fling between Fares and Mike, but I greeted him like an old friend, like everyone else.

I met this other man, J, I have always had a wild crush on. And after meeting him, I still do. But I also because really happy that I never got involved with him like that because he obviously hasn't grown out of his party animal stage. I'm so far beyond that, it just amazes me that people with kids (and in his case, teenagers) still think it's fun to party hardy. I like doing stuff with friends, but the whole concept of getting drunk, smoking dope, and all that -- just not my thing. In analyzing why I find him attractive, it comes down to one thing: he just exudes love from every pore. He's a big soft teddy bear of a guy. He's also a lot like Mike in his level of humor and mischief.

I got to hang on him a little and we wandered around the casino dropping money in various slots. I had my camera in tow and left it at a machine. By the time I got back to where it had been, it was gone. I guess a woman had reported it to security, but hadn't brought it there. She claimed she'd go back and get it, but never returned. I was sad for the camera, but really sad for the missed pictures. There's one of J holding Genevieve that was adorable.

Of course, the cool thing about a crush, is that you can sort of notice how you feel and then go home to your best friend husband and be totally cool.

Anyway, some of the bonus money was spent on buying a new camera. And due to the influence of my darling husband, I bought one that was better than the one I had. As soon as I get it, I'll post some more pix.

It's so beautiful here. I want to show pictures.

It's also colder than a witch's tit here.