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"Aura hon, you're looking quite thin, are you sure you've been eating enough to keep in shape for your training?"
"Yes mom, don't worry. I take care of myself. I'm not some inept loser." I dismissed herquestions with a wave of my hand.
"I can't believe that you're starting school today. Are you excited about going to middle school?" My mom's eyesshone with excitement.
"I think you're more excited than I am mom." Irolled my eyes and picked at the eggs and toast sitting on my plate. "I'm notall that hungry mom, I think it's the nerves or something." I pushed awaymy plate and stood up.
"Alright. I'll pick you up after school and thengo back to the office. Is that alright with you?"
"Yup." I nodded and tried to mentally ready myself for the day ahead.
"Aura, wait up!" Simone yelled and waived as she ran towards me like a mad-man.
"Hey. Howwas your summer? I haven't seen you in ages." I smiled at her, butinwardly I was disappointed to see her. Even though she was my best friend, I got this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach when I was with her. She was so beautiful and then there was me. Plain old Aura; the wallflower, the one everyone could rely on. I wasn't like her, no matter how badlyI wanted to be.
"So how are you and Zac?" She smiled at me, her teethin perfect rows that made me want to punch her.
"We're normal I guess, whatever that is."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"I don't know, we get along and all, but it's like I can't... he's not the same Zacanymore. He's the Zac that wants to hold my hand and kiss me, not the one whojust wanted to be my friend and play Nintendo."
Simone noddedsympathetically as I continued to pour my heart out.
"Hey Simone!"
Boys kept on greeting her in the hallway as I attempted to me and Zac's situation to her.
"Look, you're obviously kinda busy with other people so I'lltell you about it some other time."
"But Aura," she protested.
"No, it's fine Simone. Don't pretend that you're actually interested in what Ihave to say now, it's too late for that." I grabbed my books and slammed my locker shut. "I'll see ya Simone."
"Hey Hon, how was school?" My mother smiled brightly at me as I slumped down in the front seat of our car.
"As good as school should be," I muttered.
She nodded sympathetically. "Don't worry, it'll get better eventually. I promise."
"Sure mom, sure it will." I gave her the benefit of thedoubt even though my voice was filled with cynicism.
"So bitter." Hervoice seemed almost sad as she patted my hand. I shrunk away and glared outthe window, angry at the world and everyone in it. Simone had forgottenabout me, my father had forgotten about me, my best friend had disappeared and turned into some person I didn't even know, nor did I want to. What was going on inside Zac's head was bugging me. He always seemed to want so much more out of our relationship and that was something I wasn't ready for. Holding hands was fine with me, and so was the occasional kiss,but anything else made me freak. I couldn't help it but be careful; Ididn't want to get hurt. I trusted him enough to know that he wouldn't hurt me purposely, but I knew that he may do it unintentionally. And then what would become of us? Would we just fade into the background with therest of the has-been couples? Or would we be mature enough to get past it? These questions had plagued me since the day we decided to have morethan just a platonic relationship.
"Aura, here you go." My mom had pulled up into our driveway.
"Thanks ma, see you after." I slammed the doorand went into the house; while questions without answers haunted me.
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