A month on tour with the guys had passed, and it seemed like Brian was trying to spend every second with me. I'd even overheard him and Layla arguing about it. AJ was getting a little ticked at the fact too. I mean, I was his girlfriend. I knew that Brian had some motive behind his ways. There had to be some reason he was trying so hard to pull me away from AJ. Well, at least that's what it seemed like to me.
We picked up Howie's girlfriend, Fran, right outside of Atlanta. The bus was extremely overcrowded. We hardly ever had time to sleep in hotels. I gained a lot of respect for the guys. For them to be able to do what they were doing was amazing.
In every new city Fran, Layla, Danielle, Angela, and I was find the biggest mall and shop for hours. I was so glad they were all there. I would have never survived alone.
We were in New York for three days. We got to stay in some hotel near Times Square. Since there were so many of us we all doubled up in rooms. Somehow I ended up with AJ. I was okay with it, but I was a little nervous. Not that there would be any time to do anything serious, but...I don't know.
"Now, you all need to get your rest." AJ's mother, Denise said. With that, we all left the lobby and headed up to our rooms. The guys had just finished a show and had been signing autographs for the past hour.
With the time I had to do nothing, I thought about things. You know what things I'm talking about. AJ and I had gotten to the point where he stopped asking me questions. I guess it was up to me to do the rest. 'Whenever you're ready.' He would always tell me. I was ready. I wanted him to know the real me. Not just the girl he met while staying with Brian. I couldn't act myself around AJ, until he knew the truth.
"Man, I'm beat." AJ said as he fell back onto the bed. He had stripped down to his jeans. I looked at the clock on the intable. '12:03'. It wasn't that late. Midnight was early on tour. Going to bed at midnight was like going to bed at 7:00 at night.
"Yeah, me too." I sat down at the end of the bed, my back to AJ. Suddenly, I felt his hands start to massage my shoulders. Why couldn't I just come out and say it? Why couldn't I just tell him?
"You feeling okay?" He asked me. He positioned himself to sit next to me. I felt him looking at the side of my face, waiting for an answer.
"No, I'm not." I already wanted to take back my words, but it was too late.
"Baby, what is it?" AJ knelt down in front of me and took my hands in his.
"AJ, you know how there's always been that stuff that I couldn't tell you?" I asked him.
"Yeah, of course."
"Well...it's really not that big of a deal, but..." I paused. Where was I supposed to start? "Um, the reason I had to move to Kentucky to live with Aunt Jackie was because...my parents...they were killed in an accident. And um..." I stopped again to let the tears fall from my eyes.
"Oh, baby, come here." AJ quickly stood to his feet, pulling me with him. In his arms, I felt so safe. My tears finally stopped and I pulled back to look at his beautiful face.
"I love you." I faintly whispered.
"I love you, too." AJ leaned in to kiss me. We swayed back and forth to the silence. I didn't care. AJ was a wonderful dancer. He continued to passionately kiss me as he unbuttoned my shirt. He untucked it from my skirt before sliding his hand onto my bare waist. My breath jumped when I felt his cold hands touch my body. He moved it farther up my back and around my breasts. AJ slowly slid my shirt off of my shoulders and onto the floor. He pulled me closer to him as he unzipped the back of my skirt. It fell to the pile on the floor.
I undid his pants and added them to our collection. I didn't know what I was doing. I had never done it before, and I was scared to death. I regreted ever letting it get started, but I felt so comfortable with him. I knew he wouldn't hurt me. AJ unsnapped my bra and slowly took of my panties. I removed his boxers for him. "AJ..." I breathed out. He kissed my neck while laying me back on the bed. AJ trailed his kisses down to my chest and then he kissed my nipples one by one. I could feel butterflies in my stomach and my throat. "AJ, I'm scared." I whispered. He pulled himself back to my face.
"Have you done this before?" He asked me. I shook my head, as a tear ran down my face. "Baby, just relax. I'm not going to hurt you." He kissed the tear before kissing my lips.
AJ opened my
legs and placed
himself between them. He continued kissing me as he
positioned
himself. "Tell me if I hurt you." He whispered in my
ear. Before I
knew it, he was slowly pushing himself inside of me.
I could feel
myself being torn apart in the most eratic way ever.
Once inside he
pulled back and entered me again. I latched onto his
back and arched
mine in pleasure. AJ kept a slow, romantic pace.
Soon, we both
climaxed together. AJ collapsed beside me. He kissed
my forehead
before we both drifted to sleep.
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