Nick and Kim Ann walked slowly along the water's edge, letting the cool water lap around their ankles and the soft sand find its place between their bare feet. "Nick I remember the first time I saw you, the night of the benefit, you were fidgeting with your tuxedo and nibbling on your bottom lip. That aweful girl Amanda was hitting on you and you were trying so hard to get away.
Nick laughed " so you spilled wine all over her dress and rescued me." Nick caressed her hand, which he held in his. "I remember all the stories Skeelo told us about you, god I was afraid of you" Nick teased. "I really began to admire you when you helped Kevin out on tour, you were the only one who could make him feel better, make him forget about missing Sky. He always turned to you."
"He was my friend, and he owned my best friend's heart, I had to help him"
"I remember the first time I knew I had fallen head over heels for you, it was at the Grammy's, when you walked out of the limo all dressed in that green dress, the way the light made your hair shine, the way your cheeks were flustered with frustration. The exact moment I fell for you was when I realised how jealous I was that Carson Daley was flirting with you. I knew you had to be mine"
"You always were the jealous type, do you remember the night at Howie's when you accused AJ and I of cheating on you"
"How could I forget, the make up picnic on the beach still makes me crave chocolate and strawberries" Nick stopped and took Kim Ann's hands in his and stared into her eyes "Baby this feels an aweful lot like a goodbye scene from one of those chick movies you love, tell me it isn't"
Kim Ann looked up into the eyes of the man she had loved for the majority of her young adult years "Nicky I won't ever forget" The tears in Nick's eyes and his crumpled expression made her stop and run her hand over his face "I won't ever forget all the memories we had, I will love you forever but our time has passed. We had our love affair, but it is time to move on."
Nick fell to the sand and cried "NO...I can't lose you" Kim Ann bent down and wrapped her arms around Nick "No crying, please don't cry. Let's not damage are beautiful memories by crying. Nicky I will love you forever, you will always hold a place in my heart but baby we have outgrown our love."
Nick clutched the sand in his fists "Can't we try, can't we try to make this work?"
"Baby we have been trying, we have been fighting a losing battle, everything we have is in the past, Kevin is my future. Maybe Kevin isn't the one for me either but I have to follow my heart Nicky"
Nick looked at Kim Ann with complete devestation on his face "I never meant all those things I said, I did it because I was so afraid of losing you, I was frightned and wanted you to hurt like me. Kymmi you can't leave me"
"I know you are sorry and I know I am hurting you but this is for the best, we can raise the kids together, I would never keep you from them but we can't be together."
"You know AJ told me one night that he thought we had fallen in love with
the wrong people. He told me that Kevin needed you to add spice and
adventure in his life and I needed Sky to add the maturity. I fought so hard
to keep you, to make you love me. Why do I always finish last. While
everyone threw themselves at my feet I couldn't find the woman who would
embrace my heart. I found women who wanted to be with Nick Carter BSB, but
you wanted to be with Nick Carter the regular guy. Kymmi I want you to be
happy. I want you to look forward to the sun rises and sunsets, I want you
to look at our children and think of me everyday. I won't ever fall in love
again. My heart belongs to you and only you. I hate Kevin for stealing your
heart from me but he deserves happiness, we all do." Nick's face was stained
with tears as he and Kim Ann embraced. "go to him, go to him and find your
happiness" Nick watched as Kim Ann walked down the beach towards her car and
he fell to the ground. He reached for the ring she had worn for 5 months and
he threw it into the ocean "Chipper, AJ maybe you can send that ring to
someone who deserves it, because I don't"
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