"Baby I really think this time that we made a baby"
"Howie you have been saying that every night since we decided to try to have baby" Jessi smiled as her husband lay on her and kissed her forehead.
"How am I going to manage to sleep without you in my arms?" Howie asked, as he pushed her hair out of her eyes.
"Baby I think you and I have made love enough times this week to hold you until I get down there next month"
"I could never get enough of you, as a matter of fact it has been 20 minutes since we made love, and that is far too long" Howie smiled and kissed his wife's neck and worked his down her chest as Jessi ran her nails over and across his back.
~~**~~
"Skylar are you sure you are alright with this?" Kevin and Skylar were lying in bed, with Kevin's head resting on her stomach, as he felt his child moving around inside of his wife.
"Baby I will never be alright with this, but I have to accept this, this is your job and I can't stand between you and it. I am afraid that you will miss our child's birth but if you do I will have to deal with it. Marriage is about compromise and this is a compromise."
"Sklyar I love you so much, god I am going to miss you and the kids." Kevin kissed his wife.
"I know you love me Kevin and I love you, and our love is what is going to get us through this. We have gotten through everything else and this is no exception." Skylar tried to put on a brave face but deep down she was frightened but she knew that if she showed that fear to Kevin that he would call off the tour, and she would not be able to live with herself if he did that.
~~**~~
Nick looked over at his sleeping girlfriend who was lying curled up with Alex and Molly. "What the hell was I thinking when I agreed to this tour?" Nick and Kim Ann had spent the evening making love and then around midnight they had woken up the twins and brought them into bed with them so that they could spend their final sleep together for four months as a family. "I cannot possible leave them for four months." Nick was crying when he got dressed and went to get the advice of the one person who had lost everything and still managed to go on.
~~**~~
Denise wrapped her robe around her and walked cautiously to the front door and peered through the peep hole. Her face broke into a wide smile. "Nicky, come on in precious" She hugged Nick tight and then her face turned into an expression of worry as she saw the tear stains on his face. "Nicky what's wrong, are the twins sick, is Kymmi okay?" Denise sat down on the couch beside the crying man and smoothed his hair. "You can tell me Nick"
"Denise, I am so scared, I can't leave my family, I cannot leave Kim and the twins. I have never been away from them for more than a week, this time I will be away from them for 14 weeks"
"Nicky...I know it's hard, the first time Alex left on tour I was miserable, I thought I was going to die of lonesomeness. I slept in his bed just to smell his scent. Nick it will get better, Kymmi is strong and she and the twins will survive, of course they will miss you but you will talk every day and I am sure that they will come out and see you." Denise hugged the man tight. "Nick I talked to Alex last night and he is so happy that you are all doing this, he and Molly are both happy." at the mention of her deceased son Denise's voice grew weary and her demeanor crumbled.
"I know how much you miss him, I miss him everyday, when Kymmi found out she was pregnant I wanted to run and call him and tell him that I was going to be a daddy, when she gave birth to my angels I wanted to hear him say "That a boy Nicky, they are beautiful but remember that they are not like a videogame, if you kill them you can't press start and begin fresh." Nick broke down into tears "Last night I had to go and talk to him, I sat there for hours telling him about everything, I played him a new song I am working on for when Kymmi and I get married, I told him about wanting more children and I told him about how I want to ask Kim Ann to marry me but how I am afraid to ruin the perfection we already have. Denise I swear he talks back to me."
"Nicky he does, he talks to me all the time, and I know he would be so proud of you, so proud of the father you are. Promise me you will go and make him proud on this tour" Denise kissed Nick's cheek and held him tight. "God Alex I miss hugging you" she thought to herself.
~~Sayin goodbye at the airport~~
"I love you baby, and I will see you in a couple of weeks" Howie held Jessi close "Promise me you will tell me the minute you find out if I am going to be a daddy"
"I promise"
~~**~~
‘Nick I love you so much" Kim Ann kissed Nick through her tears.
"I love you too baby, hey buddy come here and give daddy a hug and kiss" Nick scooped his son into his arms and kissed him "Promise me you won't fight with your sister while I am gone, be good for momma. I am leaving you in charge of feeding Furface and remember you are now the man of the house so you have to help momma"
"I promise daddy, but do I have to pick up Furface's doodoo?" Alex asked his father.
"I think Momma can do that" Nick smiled at his girlfriend and grinned "Molly you will have to make sure momma doesn't work too hard okay?
"Yes daddy...daddy I miss you already, momma doesn't read stories like you do, momma doesn't let us eat ice cream for dinner" Molly started to cry and Nick hugged her so tight that Kim Ann was afraid he was going to smother his daughter.
"Molly just remember whenever you are missing daddy that I am missing you more, I will send you bedtime kisses every night."
Kim Ann picked up Alex and joined Nick and Molly in a family hug.
~~**~~
Kevin kissed each of his children and then bent down to kiss his unborn
child "Don't give mommy too hard of a time okay, take it easy on her" Kevin
stood up and looked into his wife's eyes and smiled "Skylar you are my
world, I don't know how I am going to get through these 4 months without you
by my side but always know that if things get to tough call me and I will be
on the next plane home. I promise you that I will be here for our child's
birth, I promise" Kevin held his crying wife close and tried not to cry,
afraid that he would upset his children who were remarkably calm. Kevin
boarded the plane and cried when he looked out and saw Skylar and his
children holding hands forming a picture of proof of what miracles true love
could create. He felt a hand on his shoulder and looked up to see a crying
Brian, Nick and Howie standing above him. He smiled at his friends, who were
experiencing the same pain that he was and smiled "We are doing the right
thing right fellas?"
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