AJ had tried to sleep but the image of him lifting up Molly's shirt and seeing how skinny she was had haunted him all day. His mother had arrived but she knew he needed sleep so she waited until he awoke to have the family reunion. He dressed quickly and found Mike to tell him where he was going. The two got into the van and drove to the hospital. "Mike has Howie left his room yet today?"
"No Phil and I were just talking about him, apparently he went right into his room and went to bed. He is taking it really hard. He is supposed to be heading over to the hospital before the show so you will probably be running into him there"
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"Hi Sandy" AJ smiled at the nurse who was in charge of watching Molly when he walked into the hospital.
"Hi Sugar, what are you doing here?"
"I am here to see Molly, how is she?"
"Umm Sugar she was transferred this morning to a private clinic. Didn't she tell you?"
AJ had to hold the door frame for balance as the words hit him "She checked out, what.....she didn't tell me. where did she go?"
"I am not sure, all I know is that the helicopter picked her up and flew her to the private clinic. I can't believe she wouldn't have told you"
AJ looked at Mike who was staring at him worried "Mike call management and see if they know where she is gone." AJ started to pace the hall "Dammit Chipper where have you gone...why didn't you tell me"
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Molly was lying in the bed looking out at the snow that decorated the trees outside her window. The doctor had been worried when she asked him to transfer her to the clinic but he understood her need for privacy. She had been transferred to Sheana's Place in Ottawa. It was a residential clinic that specialized in difficult eating disorders. She had decided on Canada because it was far away from everyone she knew, with the exception of Kim Ann who would be arriving any minute to see her. The real reason she had chosen it was because it was far away from the two men she loved and all the memories that they had shared in Florida.
"Am I interupting?" Kim Ann popped her head in and tried not to stare when she saw the skeleton that was smiling back at her. "Good Lord girl you look worse than Celine Dion" Kim Ann hugged Molly and smiled.
"It is so good to see you, thank you for agreeing to help me" Molly smiled with fondness and gratefullness at her friend.
"No problem, you need to get better and there is no place better to heal then in the great white north, we have the cleanest air, the most beautiful sunrises and the hottest doctors" Kim Ann joked as the specialist walked in.
"I see you are settled in, I am Dr. Lau and I am your specialist" The man smiled at Molly and held out his hand.
"Hi Doctor, this is my friend Kim Ann, she will be here lots, God help us" Molly teased.
"Well Kim Ann I know that you must have lots to talk about but I need to talk some things over with Molly, will you excuse us?"
"Molly I will come back tonight" Kim Ann hugged her friend and as she walked out she looked at Molly and make a thumbs up and pointed to the doctor. Molly smirked and turned her attention to the doctor.
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"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN SHE CHECKED OUT!! She was almost dead when I saw her, how the hell could she have picked up and walked out" Howie was yelling at the doctor and nurses when he was told of Molly's departure.
"Sir please...please calm down, she made a request to be transferred to a clinic and I deemed it to be beneficial to her recovery. I cannot tell you where she is gone because of the patient/doctor confidentiality rule. I am sure she will call you when she is ready. Now I must ask you to leave otherwise I will have to call security." The doctor looked at the flustered man in front of him and walked away.
"Come on D, this is not helping things. Let's go back to the hotel and get ready for the show, we can figure this all out after" Kevin comforted his friend and the two walked into the parking lot.
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"Skeelo you have to know where she is, she tells you everything, please tell me" AJ was begging Skylar to tell him where Molly was.
"AJ I wish I could tell you hun but I honestly do not know. I hate to be the devil's advocate but if she wanted you to know where she was she would have told you. You heard what the doctor told her, she needs to concentrate on getting better, she cannot do that when you are confusing her with your feelings. I am sure she will take a couple of days to straighten her thoughts and then she will call"
"I hope you are right, I cannot think of not being able to talk to her for more than a day, God Skeelo I love her..I need her in my life"
"I know Alex, trust me I know"
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Molly had finished her meeting with Dr. Lau when she decided to write Howie and AJ a letter explaining why she had done what she had.
"Howie,
How do I tell you why I walked out of your life? How do I tell you that I hate you for almost killing me, for pushing me and not believing in me? I have waited my entire life for you to show me that you have feelings and now that I have your love I am not sure that I want it. Love is supposed to conquer all, it is supposed to make you feel blissfully happy, like you are on a swing high above the ground. The first couple of weeks I was with you I had that. I felt like my feet would never touch the ground. Then one morning they did touch the ground, they fell hard to the ground. I have worked so hard to become the woman that loved you but it never seemed good enough for you, no matter how hard I worked out to be skinny, no matter how much time I spent fixing my hair or wearing the perfume I spent hundreds of dollars on I could never seem to make you entirely happy. I do love you and maybe when I come to grips with who I am and who I want to be for the rest of my life, maybe then I will be able to love you the way you need to be loved, until then I need to find myself before I can share my life with you. Please understand.
I love you
Molly
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