"Kim Ann this is AJ, I need to know if Molly has contacted you, I am going crazy here out on tour not knowing where she is or how she is, please if you know where she is..please call me" AJ hung up the phone and looked at the bunk across from him. Howie was curled up in a ball holding the letter that Molly had sent him. When he had opened it that morning he had broken down and started to cry. AJ had tried to comfort him but in his own selfish way was smug in the knowledge that Molly had placed the blame on Molly. "Slow down AJ, she didn't break up with him, she just told him she needed to concentrate on getting healthy, though the letter could be and had been interpreted as her ending the relationship. There was talk of ending the tour early. There were rumors circulating in all the media about the lacklustre performances of the boys. The Firm were in negotiations to postpone the rest of the tour and let Kevin go home and prepare for the birth of his child, let Howie come to grips with what was transpiring and let AJ deal with what ever was going on in his head.
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It had been 37 days and Molly had fought every day to resist the urge to give in to her bulimic tendancies. Her iron was at 1/3 of the normal level and she had managed to gain 7 pounds. She now took daily walks in the garden and she and Kim Ann had managed to start a Tuesday night movie date. Molly was still afraid of food and the effects that eating would do to her but with the help of her support group and Kim Ann she was slowly improving. Molly had finally talked to Skylar and told her what was going on and begged her not to tell Kevin. Skylar was 3 weeks away from the due date and was getting very antsy about the wedding. She was anxious to get married before the baby and she was losing patience with Kevin. She was relieved to hear that Molly was doing well and tried to tell Molly about the tour but Molly always cut her off with a "I can't think about their problems right now, I have enough of my own"
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"We have decided to postpone the last leg of the tour and work it into the spring tour. There are too many personal factors working against us to have a sucessful tour. You will all need to continue practicing with Fatima and Julie your vocal coach but you are free to leave tonight to go home."
AJ's first thought was of paying Kim Ann a visit and trying to get information out of her.
Howie listened to management explain the consequences of postponing the tour but his thoughts were only on Molly. He was consumed with pictures of her, the sound of her voice and the way her face scrunched up when she laughed. "Baby where are you..please tell me where you are so I can come and make this alright"
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"I miss the way you would look at me and smile just to make me grin. I miss
the way you would stick out your tongue and waggle your ears when I was
stressing over something. I can still hear your voice scolding me for
worrying to much. I miss your friendship and although I am gradually getting
better I know deep down that if I want to fully recover and be able to live
a healthy and happy life I will need you beside me to push me and encourage
me, to make me laugh and to hold me when I am doubting myself. Mostly I need
you to hold me and protect me. The only place I feel safe and secure in this
world is in your arms." Molly looked up from her journal and smiled when she
saw Rose from down the hall wheel into her room. Molly closed her journal
and scooted off the bed "Ready for Dawson's Creek?" Rose was a 17 year old
anorexic who, when she was admitted, weighed only 70 pounds. The two of them
spent a lot of time watching cheesy television or talking about their hopes
and dreams while Molly pushed Rose, who was too weak to walk, around the
garden in her chair. Molly glanced at the journal and smiled "I will write
to you later my darling Alex"
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