AJ sat back in his chair and gulped down the whisky that was in his glass. He watched as Jenn squealed with the hootchies as she caught the bouquet. He laughed when Nick caught the garter and turned white when it was announced that he had to put the garter back on Jenn using only his mouth. He had struggled and was very nervous but when he saw how hard Jenn was laughing he relaxed and got into it. Making suggestive comments and with Kel and Andie egging him on he had accomplished the task. AJ watched as the newlyweds left the reception and climbed into the limo that would take them to Paris for their honeymoon. His thoughts had been filled with images and memories of Molly. He had tried to shake them but they were nestled in his mind, adament that they were staying there to serve as a constant reminder of his failure, reminding him that Molly could be there sharing that moment with him had he only been honest with his feelings for her that night long ago in Florida after the party. He ordered another shot and walked around saying goodbye to everyone. He hailed his driver and drove home.
~~**~~
"So Mrs. Richardson, that sounds perfect, how was your day?" Kevin whispered to Skylar as he held her close.
"It was perfect, absolutely perfect. There is one thing I regret though"
"What, what is it baby?" Kevin asked worried.
"That you and I cannot make love on our first night as husband and wife" The ob-gyn had warned them that sex after the 8th month might trigger premature labour.
"Baby that doesn't matter to me, we have eternity to make love, all I want to do is climb into a nice warm bath and then curl up with my wife in my arms and fall asleep" Kevin kissed Skylar as the limo pulled into the hotel that they had rented for the night.
~~**~~
Molly sat on the dock of AJ's house and looked out at the water. The moon was reflected on the calm water and the surface looked like glass. She watched as the stars twinkled and the cool breeze swept her hair from her face. She saw the light from the headlights reflect on the water and she said a prayer that she would have the courage to tell AJ what she had come to tell him. She heard the gravel under AJ's feet and she heard the door open and shut. She waited for him to find her.
~~*~~
AJ stumbled into the house and fumbled on the wall trying to find the light switch. He threw the keys on the table and walked upstairs to his room. He flopped on his bed without turning on the light and he buried his face in his pillow. He felt something beside him and he sat up and turned on the light. His mouth fell open when he saw the leather bound journal that had been left on the bed. "Chipper" he whispered as he opened it and started to read.
~~ I miss his smile, the way he would hug me a little harder than he would an ordinary friend. I miss his husky voice that used to whisper sweet words of encouragement to me~~
~~ Today was a rough day, I tried to keep down the apple but it didn't feel right in my stomach and I ran to the bathroom. As I kneeled in front of it I remebered the look of concern, horror and disappointment on Alex's face the night he found me doing what I am about to do. I need him beside me to tell me "Chipper you can do this, you are too special to resort to something this bad"~~
~~ Oh Alex why can't you see how much I need you, I talk to you all the time and I pray that you hear me, I beg you to come and help me get through this. I need you so bad~~
~~ I swear that I woke up tonight and heard Alex calling for me, he was sobbing and asking me where I had gone, why hadn't I let him help me~~
~~ I am on my way to tell Alex that I need him, I hope that he reacts the way I have been imagining for the past couple of months. I have played out this scenario in my mind every night before I fell asleep and I pray that it has the outcome I desire. I just want to look into his handsome and kind face and tell him the words I have hidden from him since the night in Florida when I heard him confess his love for me to Skylar. I am resigned to the fact that he may laugh and tell me that I am Chipper, his tour manager and friend, and if that is the case then I will have to try to adjust to life without him but I pray a thousand prayers that this will not be the case.~~
AJ threw the book aside and ran downstairs. He ran into all the rooms trying to find evidence that Molly was there. He ran outside and looked for her sitting on the porch, he ran around back and looked in the pool cabana but he could not find her. He was just about to go inside and call Kim Ann when he looked out towards the water and saw her sitting on the dock. He ran inside and grabbed a blanket and ran towards the woman he loved.
~~**~~
Molly shivered as she waited for AJ to find her "Please Alex come and find me, I need to see your face" Molly whispered.
"I have found you Chipper, I have found you and I am never going to let you
leave me again" AJ covered her shoulders with the blanket and sat down
beside her. "Chipper I don't want to hear you say anything, all I want is
for you to be in my arms, with your head resting on my chest. I want to
smell your vanilla scent and have your hair tickle my nose" AJ pulled her in
close to him and the two looked out at the water safe and warm in each
other's arms.
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