Babe

i felt like i died with you that chilly october night
the cold and formal words on the radio just couldn't be right
my heart stopped and blood froze when i was told the truth
that fateful night god decided that he neede you
at only seventeen you were as vibrant as the sun
your sense of humor could cheer up anyone
i remember as clearly as yesterday
the summers you spent at your job
i always had an excuse to come and see your face 
you never knew how much i adored you
the day you were forever put to rest
the day the snow made the grass a mess
a thousand huddled people mourning over you
the way you would smile your death just couldn't be true
all through the mass i kept waiting for your eyes to open
for you to sit up in your cofffin
we tromped through the snow covering the green grass
to the last place you would ever be
that tiny country cemetery
the wailing never ceased
we hugged each other so tightly 
abe, that day was the worst in my young life
i just couldn't understand why god took you while you were so young
my broken heart bled when before your mother turned 
she kissed you for the last time on that heavy box of wood 
when i left the cemetery, i held matt so tight
our tears flowed as one as we sobbed over you
they said that your leaving would get easier
they said the pain would fade
i can't go to that store now without remembering your face
something inside me just can't erase
those secret feelings i held for you so long
your time is over and you never knew 
just how much i loved you



Red Nightmare

i wrestled with your memory again last night/weeped myself sick/your brown eyes pleaded with me/i tried to help/swam through blood to reach you/my legs were frozen in fear/ my eyes blinded by tears/you screamed in pain/but it was too late~i try not to forget your eyes/i know you're still here with me/i wish i could remember the good times/all my mind can see is your last breath~you know you drove too fast/ you knew that couldn't last/we all knew you were different/we all knew there was something extraordinary about you/ i wanted to help you/you know that, right?/i did what i could/i know it wasn't enough~i hope things are good for you in eternity/ i hope saint frances treats you well/i hope you're laughing at us all down here/i know you're dancing there/will they play you "i'm too sexy?"/ i hope they do/god would laugh at your antics/~once and a while/i know you're here with me/but not physically/i sense your prescence/ and know you're watching me/thanks for the trip, babe




Before it's too Late

my eyes won't close at night/my thoughts are constantly running me ragged/ i can't get you off my mind/so much pain i've been through/has caused me to think about you/ mortality is a difficult concept/i don't want to lose you too/~this isn't easy for me/this isn't a picnic/ my body tells me not to/but my mind screams at me when i don't want to/just listen to me please/ before it's too late~we left on bad terms, i know/pain ran like a blood down my face/so soon after we parted things fell/people died/my heart split open with grief/i wished you were there for me to cry to/i needed you/ i can't take that time back and~please just listen to me/don't interrupt me/this is something i need to do/ so just let me say it/no don't argue/please don't protest/this is your life here/not a history test/~



Adonis a short story i wrote for my english composition 2 class last year. it is a dramatic interpretation of the out-of-body experience i had after abe died. it shouldn't even be called fiction, because it's almost exactly what happened on the night of his death.



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