i promise my eyes won't hurt you
i promise to be gentle with you
my intensity won't scare you, i promise
you don't know how much i adore you
confusion is my medium
my specialty seems to be your mind
i don't mean to make you wonder, i promise
~zephyr you come again
zephyr your lovely face caresses mine
zephyr did you bring her again
zephyr did you tell her you're mine?~



Lethargy

alone in the darkness i lie asleep
slowly slowly the lethargy creeps
engulfs my emotions
consumes my mind
in chicago again



The Things I Can't Say

driving makes me think
going fast down the highway
brings philosophy out in me
i speak aloud and tell god and
the intangible person next to me
just what i mean
i want to know things
everything and anything
i want to see places
every place
even poverty
i want to say things that no one has ever said
only because they never had the nerve
i want to break the glass walls i'm held in
i want to sing without embarassment
scream without regret
i want to drive as fast as my car will go
without getting a ticket
i want to cry when i need to
and laugh even when it's not proper
i want to complain to people if i'm unhappy
and kiss them when i'm overjoyed
i don't want to have to feel like i'm trapped
inside the skin i'm in
i want to be proud of my body
though i'm not perfect
and when i look in the mirror
i want to smile, not sigh
i want to call you on the phone
and tell you what's rolling around in this head of mine
but i haven't the nerve
i want to scream about the injustice in this world
but i don't have time
i want to tell you that though we slipped
i still love you in my soul
that no matter what you've done
those feelings will never go away
but i can't seem to find the words to say it
no human words could say it the way
i want it said
so until i have the knowledge
of angels and saints
and the grace of heaven
the only thing i really want say is
can we please start again?



Incubus

the tempter plays on my heart
tantalizes my senses
kisses my hands and speaks softly in my ear
pain and passion
he's gone
depths of despair
he returns to my side
but the pain comes back
he can't stay every again
my heart is empty
my body aches
tears are my currency
depression my drug