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I got a lot to say so u B4 u start make u sure a have a lot of time. Well where do I start....School was starting off and I'd had a great summer so I'm really excited about seeing my friends and everything. I've been through a lot my whole life (now let me tell u bout my life...). Well the first 6 years or so in my life my father wasn't really around and my mother lived w/ his parents so I saw a whole lot of trauma and violent fights. My mom wasn't always around either, she was off in Bombay (India) trying to get here. I was often emotionally abused while she was gone at my dad's parent's house (its hard for me to call them my grandparents) so she sometimes left me at her parent's house, which wasn't easy for me. She kept me happy by givin me all the new toys on the market.
Then I came to New York City w/ her and my little brother at 6 to reunite w/ my father and I was always curious to really meet him and get to know him so I was happy bout comin to New York. So then right after I've adapted to New York, my parents bring me to Hayward, California and I somehow get to San Jose, and through what seems like a short journey, I've done a lot of things in detial, lost my virginity 4 one, been through lots of conflict and seen fights, had it pretty rough. So neways, I didn't take it that roughly, I was still a fun, out-going and well-liked person. I went to parties where a whole bunch of people would gather around me and just listen as I spoke bout basically just stuff so u could say I was pretty happy.
I'm only 12 years old and sometimes when people ask me my age I forget. I've lost a lot of friends along the way-just yesterday I lost one of my very best friends whom I've know for the longest time I've ever know a friend which is like 3 to 4 years. But right now I'm happy w/ what I have, I'm doing VERY good in school and plan on goin to collage and I just am thinking bout my future, I just got my act together about 4 months ago and now I'm in love w/ this guy but I don't wanna get w/ him I just wanna be friends.
His name is Walter. Walter and I started off being very good friends, being my charming self, he sorta fell in love w/ me but I didn't see it. He asked me out a couple of times and I just laughed it off cuz I thought he too was playin around. Then I slowly started to fall in love w/ him when he'd just moved on. And then I started to think more bout my future and became more I don't know "serious".Before I knew it we weren't as good as friends and even for a while we weren't friends. The last day of school we hugged each other and said goodbye which I was so happy bout that even though we were a lil mad at each other things worked out.
Now, since it's summer , I wanna call him but what do I say?! I'm not sure if he'll understand and how about if he just really doesn't seem to wanna talk to me?! I wanna make a good impression so we'll be good friends but....what must I do? He already has a girlfriend and he thinks I like him which I do but in a friend way I don't wanna lose him, his really a great guy! WHAT DO I DO?!
First off, YOU'RE TWELVE!
You’ve had a pretty mixed up world so far, and, please don’t take this as just an older man lecturing a young girl, it’s time for you to be just a girl for a change. You have a long life ahead of you so don’t be in such a rush to get old. Old isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. So have some fun. I don’t mean the sexual kind of fun, either. Live a while. Be happy with who you are and what you are. Work on friendships. Old will be here soon enough.
You seem to be a pretty smart twelve year old, thinking about college already, so work on that. Experiment with what life has to offer you. As far as Walter goes, phone him and make it very clear that what you really need right now is some good friends and only friends. Be very insistent on that point. Tell him that you hope that he might be able to be there for you on that basis. It would mean a lot to you.
If he says forget it, then you move on. If Walter wants to be that way, maybe he would never have been a good enough a friend, anyway. Lots of people in the world. While you are young, get to know the good ones. Stay clear of the trash. Be good, have fun, and take care of yourself this summer.
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