THE MIND AFLAME
July 28, 1959
If the heart doesn't have any inner nourishment, it won't have
any
strength, because it's hungry and thin. When it doesn't have
any
nourishment, it goes out eating whatever it can find -- bones
and old
dry skins -- without finding any decent food to eat or water
to drink
at all. This is why it ends up shriveled and dry, because the
heart,
if it doesn't have any inner goodness, is thin and gaunt, and
goes
running around all sorts of back alleys, scraping together whatever
it
can find just for the sake of having something to stick in its
mouth.
It doesn't get to eat anything good at all, though. It can't
find a
single thing to give it any flavor or nourishment. But if the
heart is
strong and well-fed, then whatever it thinks of doing is sure
to
succeed.
The Buddha saw that we human beings are thin and
malnourished in
this way, which is why he felt compassion for us. He taught
us, 'The
mind that goes around swallowing sights, sounds, smells, tastes,
and
tactile sensations is eating a ball of fire, you know. Not any
kind of
food.' In other words, 'The eye is burning.' Everything we see
with
the eye is a form, and each of these forms contains a ball of
fire,
even though on the outside it's coated to look pretty and attractive.
'The ear is burning.' All the pleasing sounds we search for,
and that
come passing in through our ears from the day we're born to
the day we
die, are burning sounds, are flames of fire. The heat of the
sun can't
burn you to death, but sounds //can// burn you to death, which
is why
we say they're hotter than the sun. 'The nose is burning.' We've
been
smelling smells ever since the doctor cleaned out our nose right
after
birth, and the nature of smells is that there's no such thing
as a
neutral smell. There are only two kinds: good smelling and
foul-smelling. If our strength is down and we're not alert,
we swallow
these smells right into the mind -- and that means we've swallowed
a
time bomb. We're safe only as long as nothing ignites the fuse.
'The
tongue is burning.' Countless tastes come passing over our tongue.
If
we get attached to them, it's as if we've eaten a ball of fire:
As
soon as it explodes, our intestines will come splattering out.
If we
human beings let ourselves get tied up in this sort of thing,
it's as
if we've eaten the fire bombs of the King of Death. As soon
as they
explode, we're finished. But if we know enough to spit them
out, we'll
be safe. If we swallow them, we're loading ourselves down. We
won't be
able to find any peace whether we're sitting, standing, walking
or
lying down, because we're on fire inside. Only when we breathe
our
last will the fires go out. 'The body is burning.' Tactile sensations
are also a fire that wipes human beings out. If you don't have
any
inner worth or goodness in your mind, these things can really
do you a
lot of damage.
* * *
Greed, anger, and delusion are like three enormous balls of red-hot
iron that the King of Death heats until they're glowing hot
and then
pokes into our heads. When greed doesn't get what it wants,
it turns
into anger. Once we're angry, we get overcome and lose control,
so
that it turns into delusion. We forget everything -- good, bad,
our
husbands, wives, parents, children -- to the point where we
can even
kill our husbands, wives, parents, and children. This is all
an affair
of delusion. When these three defilements get mixed up in our
minds,
they can take us to hell with no trouble at all. This is why
they're
called fire bombs in the human heart.
But if, when greed arises, we have the sense to take
only what
should be taken and not what shouldn't, it won't wipe us out
even
though it's burning us, because we have fire insurance. People
without
fire insurance are those with really strong greed to the point
where
they're willing to cheat and get involved in corruption or crime.
When
this happens, their inner fires wipe them out. To have fire
insurance
means that even though we feel greed, we can hold it in check
and be
generous with our belongings by giving donations, for instance,
to the
religion. Then even though we may die from our greed, we've
still
gained inner worth from making donations as an act of homage
to the
Buddha, Dhamma, and Sangha -- which is like keeping our insurance
payments up. This way, even though our house may burn down,
we'll
still have some property left.
Anger. When this defilement really gets strong, it
has no sense of
good or evil, right or wrong, husband, wives, or children. It
can
drink human blood. An example we often see is when people get
quarreling and one of them ends up in prison or even on death
row,
convicted for murder. This is even worse than your house burning
down,
because you have nothing left at all. For this reason, we have
to get
ourselves some life insurance by observing the five or eight
precepts
so that we can treat and bandage our open sores -- i.e., so
that we
can wash away the evil and unwise things in our thoughts, words,
and
deeds. Even if we can't wash them all away, we should try at
least to
relieve them somewhat. Although you may still have some fire
left, let
there just be enough to cook your food or light your home. Don't
let
there be so much that it burns your house down.
//The only way to put out these fires is to meditate
and develop
thoughts of good will.// The mind won't feel any anger, hatred,
or ill
will, and instead will feel nothing but thoughts of sympathy,
seeing
that everyone in the world aims at goodness, but that our goodness
isn't equal. You have to use really careful discernment to consider
cause and effect, and then be forgiving, with the thought that
we
human beings aren't equal or identical in our goodness and evil.
If
everyone were equal, the world would fall apart. If we were
equally
good or equally bad, the world would have to fall apart for
sure.
Suppose that all the people in the world were farmers, with
no
merchants or government officials. Or suppose there were only
government officials, with no farmers at all: We'd all starve
to death
with our mouths gaping and dry. If everyone were equal and identical,
the end of the world would come in only a few days' time. Consider
your body: Even the different parts of your own body aren't
equal.
Some of your fingers are short, some are long, some small, some
large.
If all ten of your fingers were equal, you'd have a monster's
hands.
So when even your own fingers aren't equal, how can you expect
people
to be equal in terms of their thoughts, words, and deeds? You
have to
think this way and be forgiving.
* * *
When you can think in this way, your good will can
spread to
all people everywhere, and you'll feel sympathy for people
on high levels, low levels and in between. The big ball of
fire inside you will go out through the power of your good
will and loving kindness.
This comes from getting life insurance: practicing
tranquillity
meditation so as to chase the defilements away from the mind.
Thoughts
of sensual desire, ill will, lethargy, restlessness, and uncertainty
will vanish, and the mind will be firmly centered in concentration,
using its powers of directed thought to stay with its meditation
word
-- //buddho// -- and its powers of evaluation to create a sense
of
inner lightness and ease. When the mind fills itself with rapture
--
the flavor arising from concentration -- it will have its own
inner
food and nourishment, so that whatever you do in thought, word,
or
deed is sure to succeed.
* * * * * * * *
FOOD FOR THE MIND
July, 1958; August 10, 1957
There are two kinds of food for the mind: the kind that gives
it
strength and the kind that saps its strength. What this refers
to is
(1) the food of sensory contact -- the contact that takes place
at the
eye, ear, nose, tongue, body, and intellect. There are six mouthfuls
of this kind of food. (2) The food of consciousness, i.e., the
consciousness of contact that takes place at each of the six
senses.
There are six mouthfuls of this kind, too. (3) The food of intention
or mental concomitants, i.e., the thoughts that are formed in
the
heart, leading it to think of the past or future and to know
if things
are good or bad, pleasant or painful. Once we know that our
body and
mind depend on these kinds of food, we should use our discernment
to
reflect on them and evaluate them carefully.
Discernment is what forms the teeth of the mind.
When children are
small, they need to depend on others to mince or strain their
food;
but when they grow up, they have their own teeth and don't need
to
depend on anyone else. If people are really discerning, they
don't
need to chew coarse food at all. For example, an intelligent
hunter,
once he's killed an animal, will remove the feathers and wings
or cut
off the antlers and hooves and take home just the useful part.
Then he
cuts the meat off in pieces so that it can serve as food. In
other
words, if he's intelligent, he throws away the inedible parts
piece by
piece.
In the same way, intelligent people who want the
inner quality of
dispassion have to take the discernment that comes from concentration
and use it to evaluate sights, sounds, smells, tastes, etc.,
so that
these things can serve a purpose and not do them any harm. Whoever
eats an entire fish -- bones, scales, fins, feces, and all --
is sure
to choke to death on the bones. For this reason, we have to
find a
knife and chopping block -- in other words, use mindfulness
to focus
on, say, a visual object, and discernment to consider what kind
of
object it is. Is it something we should get involved with or
not? What
kind of benefits or harm will it cause for the mind? If it's
a visual
object that will cause harm to the mind, you shouldn't get involved
with it. //If it's a good-looking object, look for its bad side
as
well.// Be a person with two eyes. Sometimes an object looks
good, but
we don't look for its bad side. Sometimes it looks bad, but
we don't
look for its good side. If something looks beautiful, you have
to
focus on its bad side as well. If it looks bad, you have to
focus on
its good side, too.
If you aren't selective in what you eat, you can
ruin your health.
Pleasing objects are like sugar and honey: They're sure to attract
all
sorts of ants and flies. Disagreeable objects are like filth:
In
addition to carrying germs, they're sure to attract all sorts
of other
bad things, too, because they're crawling with flies and worms.
If we
aren't discerning, we'll gobble down the filth together with
the worms
and smelly parts, and the sugar together with the ants and flies.
Your
heart is already in poor health, and yet you go gobbling down
things
that are toxic. When this happens, no one can cure you but you
yourself.
For this reason, you have to keep the heart neutral,
on the middle
path. Don't be pleased by the objects you think are pleasing;
don't
hate the objects you think are disagreeable. Don't be a person
with
only one eye or one ear. When you can do this, you're equipped
with
discernment. You can spit visual objects, sounds, smells, tastes,
etc., out of the heart. Once you can see that 'good' has 'bad'
hiding
behind it, and 'bad' has 'good' hiding behind it -- in the same
way
that the body has both a front and a back -- you shouldn't let
yourself fall for sights, sounds, smells, etc. You have to consider
them carefully.
The mind has two basic sorts of food: good mental
states and bad
mental states. If you think in ways that are good, you'll give
strength to the mind. If you're discerning, you'll get to eat
fine
food. If you aren't, you'll have to eat crude food -- e.g.,
you'll get
a crab, and you'll eat the whole thing raw, without knowing
how to
boil it and peel away the shell and the claws. The effort of
meditation is like a fire; concentration is like a pot; mindfulness,
like a chopping block; and discernment, a knife. Intelligent
people
will use these things to prepare their food so that its nourishment
--
the nourishment of the Dhamma -- will permeate into the heart
to give
it five kinds of strength:
(1) The strength of conviction.
(2) The strength of persistence: The heart, when
we're persistent,
is like the wheels of an automobile that keep turning and propelling
it toward its goal, enabling us to see the gains that come from
our
persistence.
(3) The strength of mindfulness: Having mindfulness
is like knowing
when to open and when to close your windows and doors.
(4) The strength of concentration: Concentration
will be firmly
established in the mind whether we're sitting, standing, walking,
lying down, speaking, or listening. We can listen without getting
stuck on what's said, and speak without getting stuck on what
we say.
(5) The strength of discernment: We'll gain wisdom
and understanding
with regard to all things, so that eventually we'll attain purity
of
mind -- by letting go of all thoughts of past and future, and
not
being pleased or displeased by any sights, sounds, smells, tastes,
etc., at all.
* * * * * * * *
FIRST THINGS FIRST
October 6, 1958
There are three ways in which people order their priorities:
putting
the world first, putting themselves first, and putting the Dhamma
first.
//Putting the world first:// There's nothing at all
dependable about
the affairs of the world. Stop and think for a moment: Ever
since you
were born, from your first memory up to the present day, what
is the
best thing that has ever happened in your life? What is the
most
enjoyable thing? What have you liked the most? If you answer,
you have
to say that of all the things in the world, only 50 percent
are
satisfactory; the other 50 are unsatisfactory. But if you asked
me,
I'd answer that there's nothing satisfactory about the world
at all.
There's nothing but stress and misery. You get friends and they
take
advantage of you. You get possessions and you have to worry
about
them. You get money and you end up suffering for it. The people
you
work with aren't as good as you'd like them to be. Your family
and
relatives are nothing but trouble. In short, I don't see anything
that
really brings a person any real happiness. You get money and
it brings
trouble. You get friends and they make you suffer. The people
you live
and work with don't get along smoothly. This is the way it is
with the
world. For this reason, anyone whose mind runs along in the
current of
the world is bound for nothing but pain and sorrow. The Buddha
taught,
'For the mind not to be affected by the ways of the world is
to be
serene and free from sorrow: This is the highest good fortune.'
The world has eight edges, and each edge is razor
sharp, capable of
slicing human beings to bits without mercy. The eight edges
of the
world are, on the one side, the edge of wealth, the edge of
status,
the edge of praise, and the edge of pleasure. These four edges
are
especially sharp because they're things we like. We keep polishing
and
sharpening them, and the more we do this the sharper they get,
until
ultimately they turn around and slit our throats.
The other side has four edges too, but actually they're
not so
sharp, because no one likes to use them. No one wants them,
so no one
sharpens them, and as a result they're dull and blunt -- and
like dull
knives, they can't kill anyone. These four edges are loss of
wealth,
loss of status, criticism, and pain. No one wants any of these
things,
but they have to exist as part of the world.
How are the sharp edges sharp? Take status for an
example. As soon
as people gain status and rank, they start swelling up larger
than
they really are. You don't have to look far for examples of
this sort
of thing. Look at monks. When they start out as ordinary junior
monks,
they can go anywhere with no trouble at all, along highways
and
byways, down narrow alleys and back streets, anywhere they like.
But
as soon as they start getting a little ecclesiastical rank,
they start
getting abnormally large. The roads they used to walk along
start
feeling too narrow. They have trouble walking anywhere -- their
legs
are too long and their feet too heavy. Their rears are too large
for
ordinary seats. (Of course, not all high-ranking monks are like
this.
You can find ones who don't swell up.) As for lay people, once
they're
hit by the edge of status, they start swelling up too, to the
point
where they can hardly move. Their hands get too heavy to raise
in
respect to the Buddha. Their legs get so big they can't make
it to the
monastery to hear a sermon or observe the precepts -- they're
afraid
they'd lose their edge. This is how one of the edges of the
world
kills the goodness in people.
As for the edge of wealth, this refers to money and
possessions. As
soon as we get a lot, we start getting stingy. We become wary
of
making too many offerings or of being too generous with others
because
we're afraid we'll run out of money. This is why rich people
tend to
be stingy and drown in their wealth. As for poor people, they
can give
away everything and then work to replace it. They can give offerings
and be generous, with rarely any sense of regret. Their arms
and legs
aren't too big, so they can come to the monastery with no trouble
at
all.
The edge of pleasure is very sharp, because wherever
you get your
pleasure, that's where you get stuck. If your pleasure comes
from your
friends, you're stuck on your friends. If your pleasure comes
from
your children or grandchildren, you're stuck on your children
and
grandchildren. If your pleasure comes from eating, sleeping
or going
out at night, then that's where you're stuck. You're not willing
to
trade in your pleasure for the sake of inner worth because you're
afraid of letting your pleasure fall from your grasp. You can't
observe the five or eight precepts because they make you force
and
deny yourself. If you observe the eight precepts, you can't
go see a
movie or show and can't sleep on a nice soft mattress. You're
afraid
that if you miss one evening meal, you'll get hungry or weak.
You
don't want to sit and meditate because you're afraid your back
will
hurt or your legs will go numb. So this is how the edge of pleasure
destroys your goodness.
As for the edge of praise, this too is razor sharp.
When people are
praised, they start floating and don't want to come down. They
hear
praise and it's so captivating that they forget themselves and
think
that they're already good enough -- so they won't think of making
the
effort to make themselves better in other ways.
All four of these edges are weapons that kill our
goodness. They're
like the paint people use on houses to make them pretty: something
that can last only a while and then has to fade and peel away.
If you
can view these things simply as part of the passing scenery,
without
getting stuck on them, they won't do you any harm. But if you
latch
onto them as really being your own, the day is sure to come
when
you'll have to meet with disappointment -- loss of wealth, loss
of
status, criticism, and pain -- because it's a law of nature
that
however far things advance, that 's how far they have to regress.
If
you don't lose them while you're alive, you'll lose them when
you die.
They can't stay permanent and lasting.
Once we realize this truth, then when we meet with
any of the good
edges of the world we shouldn't get so carried away that we
forget
ourselves; and when we meet with any of the bad edges we shouldn't
let
ourselves get so discouraged or sad that we lose hope. Stick
to your
duties as you always have. Don't let your goodness suffer because
of
these eight ways of the world.
//Putting yourself first:// This means acting, speaking
and thinking
whatever way you like without any thought for what's right or
wrong,
good or bad. In other words, you feel you have the right to
do
whatever you want. You may see, for instance, that something
isn't
good, and you know that other people don't like it, but you
like it,
so you go ahead and do it. Or you may see that something is
good, but
you don't like it, so you don't do it. Sometimes you may like
something, and it's good, but you don't do it -- it's good,
but you
just can't do it.
When you're practicing the Dhamma, though, then whether
or not you
like something, you have to make yourself do it. //You have
to make
the Dhamma your life, and your life into Dhamma// if you want
to
succeed. You can't use the principle of giving priority to your
own
likes at all.
//Putting the Dhamma first:// This is an important
principle for
those who practice. The duties of every Buddhist are (1) to
develop
virtue by observing the precepts, (2) to center the mind in
concentration, and (3) to use discernment to investigate the
truth
without giving rein to defilement.
The basic level of virtue is to prevent our words
and deeds from
being bad or evil. This means observing the five precepts: not
killing
any living beings, not stealing, not engaging in illicit sex,
not
lying, and not taking intoxicants. These are the precepts that
wash
away the gross stains on our conduct. They're precepts that
turn us
from common animals into human beings and prevent us from falling
into
states of deprivation and woe.
The intermediate level of virtue turns human beings
into celestial
beings. This refers to restraint of the senses: keeping watch
over the
way we react to our senses of sight, hearing, smell, taste,
feeling,
and ideation so that they don't give rise to bad mental states.
This
can turn human beings into celestial beings, but even then we
haven't
escaped from death and rebirth, because when celestial beings
run out
of merit they have to come back and be reborn as human beings
again.
They still have to keep swimming around in the cycle of rebirth.
Those who can gain release from all forms of evil,
however, won't
have to be reborn as animals, human beings, or celestial beings
ever
again. This refers to people who practice concentration and
can
abandon all evil in their hearts by developing the stages of
absorption (//jhana//) and discernment until they reach the
level of
Non-returning. When they die, they go to the Brahma worlds,
and there
they develop their hearts still further, purifying them of all
defilements, becoming arahants and ultimately attaining total
Liberation.
The basic level of virtue protects our words and
deeds from being
evil. The intermediate level protects our senses and keeps them
clean
-- which means that we don't let the three defilements of passion,
aversion/ and delusion be provoked into action by what we see,
hear,
smell, taste, touch/ or think.
As for the highest level of virtue -- inner virtue
-- this means
giving rise to Right Concentration within the mind:
(1) On this level, 'not killing' means not killing
off your
goodness. For instance, if bad thoughts arise and you aren't
careful
to wipe them out, their evil will come pouring in and your goodness
will have to die. This is because your mind is still caught
up on good
and evil. Sometimes you use good to kill evil. Sometimes you
use evil
to kill good: This is called killing yourself.
(2) 'Stealing' on this level refers to the way the
mind likes to
take the good and bad points of other people to think about.
This sort
of mind is a thief -- because we've never once asked other people
whether they're possessive of their good and bad points or are
willing
to share them with us. For the most part, what we take is their
old
dried up garbage. I.e., we like to focus on their bad points.
Even
though they may have good points, we don't let ourselves see
them. We
take our own opinions as our guide and as a result we end up
as fools
without realizing it.
(3) 'Illicit sensuality' on this level refers to
the state of mind
that is stuck on sights, sounds, smells, tastes, tactile sensations,
and ideas, or that lies fermenting in greed, anger, and delusion.
In
other words, the mind is impure and is always involved with
sensual
objects and moods.
(4) 'Lying' on this level means not being true. How
are we not true?
We come to the monastery but our minds are at home. We listen
to the
sermon but our hearts are thinking of something else. Our bodies
may
be sitting in the meditation position, just like the Buddha,
but our
minds are roaming around through all sorts of thoughts, gnawing
on the
past, nibbling at the future, not finding any meat at all This
is
called lying to yourself and to others as well. How is it lying
to
others? Suppose you go home and someone asks, 'Where did you
go
today?' and you answer, 'I went to the monastery to listen to
a
sermon.' Actually, your body came, but you didn't come. Your
body
listened, but you didn't listen. This has to be classed as a
kind of
lying.
(5) 'Intoxication' on this level refers to delusion
and
absentmindedness. If we're going to contemplate body, feelings,
mind,
and mental qualities, our minds have to be still and really
focused on
these things. But if we're absentminded and forgetful, our minds
go
down the wrong path, weaving in and out, back and forth like
a
drunkard. Sometimes we end up falling down in a stupor and lying
there
on the side of the road. Nothing good will come of it.
Those who are careful to keep their minds firmly
centered in
concentration and to keep the five precepts on this level pure
and
whole, though, are said to be developing the highest perfection
of
virtue -- showing respect for the Dhamma above and beyond the
world,
above and beyond themselves. This is called putting the Dhamma
first
in a way befitting those who practice it. This is what it means
to be
a true Buddhist in a way that will eventually lead us to release
from
all suffering and stress.
* * * * * * * *
QUIET BREATHING
Now I'd like to explain a little about how to meditate. Sitting
in
meditation is a worthwhile activity. The outer part of the activity
is
to sit in a half-lotus position with your right leg on top of
your
left leg; your hands palm-up in your lap, your right hand on
top of
your left. Keep your body erect. Close your eyes, but don't
close them
off like a person asleep. Your optic nerves have to keep working
to
some extent or else you'll get drowsy.
These activities are the outer aspects of good meditation,
but they
aren't what makes the meditation good. You also need to have
the right
object for the mind to dwell on, and the right intention: the
intention to keep the in-and-out breath in mind, to adjust it
so that
it's comfortable, and to keep the breath and mind together so
that
they don't slip away from each other. When you can do this properly,
you'll gain beneficial results in terms of both body and mind
-- i.e.,
the right quality you're looking for, termed 'inner worth',
which
means a soothing sense of ease, comfort, fullness, and well-being.
When you sit and meditate, keep noticing whether
or not your mind is
staying with the in-and-out breath. You have to keep mindfulness
in
charge of the mind. For example, when you breathe in, think
//bud//;
when you breathe out, think //dho//. //Bud-dho.// Be mindful.
Don't
let yourself forget or slip away. Put aside all your outside
responsibilities and let go of all outside thoughts and perceptions.
Keep your mind with nothing but the breath. You don't have to
turn
your attention to anything else.
Usually when you sit and meditate, though, thoughts
of past and
future tend to appear and get in the way of the quality of your
meditation. Thoughts of this sort -- whether they're about things
past
or yet to come, about the world or the Dhamma -- have no good
to them
at all. They'll simply cause you trouble and suffering. They
make the
mind restless and disturbed so that it can't gain any peace
and calm
-- because things that are past have already passed. There's
no way
you can bring them back or change them. Things in the future
haven't
reached us yet, so we can't know whether or not they'll be in
line
with our expectations. They're far away and uncertain, so there's
no
way they'll be any help to our thinking at all.
For this reason, we have to keep hold on the mind
to keep it in the
present by fixing it on nothing but the breath. To think about
the
breath is called directed thought, as when we think buddho together
with the breath -- //bud// in, //dho// out, like we're doing
right
now. When we start evaluating the breath, we let go of //buddho//
and
start observing how far the effects of each in-and-out breath
can be
felt in the body. When the breath comes in, does it feel comfortable
or not? When it goes out, does it feel relaxed or not? If it
doesn't
feel comfortable and relaxed, change it. When you keep the mind
preoccupied with investigating the breath, let go of //buddho//.
You
don't have any need for it. Mindful awareness will fill the
body, and
the in-breath will start to feel as if it's permeating the body
throughout. When we let go of //buddho//, our evaluation of
the breath
becomes more refined; the movement of the mind will calm down
and
become concentration; outside perceptions will fall silent.
'Falling
silent' doesn't mean that our ears go blank or become deaf.
It means
that our attention doesn't go running to outside perceptions
or to
thoughts of past or future. Instead, it stays exclusively in
the
present.
When we fix our attention on the breath in this way,
constantly
keeping watch and being observant of how the breath is flowing,
we'll
come to know what the in-breath and out-breath are like, whether
or
not they're comfortable, what way of breathing in makes us feel
good,
what way of breathing out makes us feel good, what way of breathing
makes us feel tense and uncomfortable. If the breath feels
uncomfortable, try to adjust it so that it gives rise to a sense
of
comfort and ease.
When we keep surveying and evaluating the breath
in this way,
mindfulness and self-awareness will take charge within us. Stillness
will develop, discernment will develop, knowledge will develop
within
us.
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