April 24, 1999 - Oh my god I just had the best birthday ever! I'm so happy that all my friends were all gathered just to celebrate my birthday! Although this time is an alcohol-free party, we still had a wonderful time! There were a lota food (took me a few hours to prepare them too!!), a birthday cake (thanx Jen and Jerry), playstation (thanx Jen, Lynn and Rosa), disco dancing (thanx Jerry), as well as other entertainment (eg. strip show by John!!)! Jen-you have no idea how glad i am to have you as a friend! You are amazing!! Chisato-thanx for actually come and gives us a good time! Lynn-you tekken freak! L&R-the karaoke couple! John-Gee there, we sure had *some* dance didn't we? Dirty dance is kewl *wink* Gilbert Alan Howard - thanx so much for coming, you have no idea how much i love you guys!! *G* For the rest of u guys who came, I really wanna say thanx for giving me such a memorable 18th birthday!! I'll never forget it, i'm sure! (as soon as I get the pictures i'll post them up for ya!!)

March 27, 1999 - Wow it's been awhile since I last wrote something here. For the past few weeks, I was THIS close from giving up on this stupid webpage. It's okie tho cuz I'll keep it alive by calling it my personal webpage instead of something. Today is such a fun day~ Went to Happy Hour with Jenny, Idy and Gilbert, then met a new friend Alan! ^_^ Well, I was picked up by this reeeeally cute lesbian gurl - it's so kewl!! Okie here're the updates: Check the "Japanese Drama" page, I have 2 new sections. I made a page for the new movie Cruel Intentions and a reeeally beautiful movie Ever After. Do check them out! Okie that's all for today. One more week till I can get the UCLA letter. They'll probably reject me. Oh well, until then, take care my friend~! Don't forget to sign my guestbook!!

March 2, 1999 - Not good, not good. I'm anxiously waiting for the college notice about my aceptance or rejection to the UC schools. The wait is a kill, but I'll survive... Dammit! I feel like im so sick or something!! I have aches and pains here and there quite frequently. The hell, I haven't have a physical check up for 8 years I don't give a damn. Life's no longer fun and fearless if you know what's wrong with ur body. I don't even know what am I doing everyday. Wake up early and go to school. When I get out of school after 5th period, I'll go to work directly. Driving here and there and then work @ 3 different take me a whole big 4 to 5 hours. Come back home then the regular chores until 10PM. Do the damn homework and study plus some other business will take me to bed @ around 1 or 2 AM... what kind of life is this anyway?? I guess it's been a month since my last entry so I have more to express as to my previous entries. Dammit dammit dammit!!! I hate where I'm standing rite now!!! The hell with everybody around me?? I'm ain't no God I can't deal with so many craps in the same time!!! This is intolerable...

January 30, 1999 - Finals are finally over. I didn't do that well but I will have a 4.0 GPA or above for sure. Hard work doesn't always pay off, but at least it makes you feel right. Life lately has been a bitch. I'm so overwhelmed by everything around me. I feel so very extremely tired. 4 more months of school then I'll be graduating. I can't wait till I find out which colleges will accept me. I feel depressed.

January 17, 1999 - Went partyin' @ Jen's. Should of taken more pix. It was crazy! Oh yeah, sorry John, Lynn and me didn't mean to mess with you in a bad way, we were just playin'! FINALS ARE APPROACHING!!!!! NOOOO!!!

January 16, 1999 - Went to Winter Formal today. Nothing big, just another dance. It was pretty fun~ (thank you, Peter!)

January 12, 1999 - Finals are only a week away. I hope I can do better this year since I don't have any inferior standing in the way. Recently I can already see how my grades are improving so that's pretty good. I don't know why but I feel so unsecured around these days, like I always have this feeling like something really bad will happen. This Saturday will be Winter Formal, hopefully I can have a good time.

January 8, 1999 - Life has been depressing for the past few days. For once I actually realize how lonely it is to be strongly independent. Last night was the National Honor Society Induction Ceremony. They had this fancy way to induce all new members. It's depressing because I can see that everybody's parents were there, except mine's. Like people said, a person gets upset when bad things piles up until it's overloaded. Throughout my high school life, my parents never attend any of those special school events with me. I been taking care of my own problems since freshman. I feel okie about being strong and independent until now. I don't even know if my parents will be there for my graduation. When I think of that, it makes me depress.

January 3, 1999 - After 2 weeks of work, a my homepage's reconstruction is finally done. Two words - it sucks! School is reeeeeeally busy.... Must study!!! I guess I'll leave my stupid homepage at this and revise again later. I'm thinking of moving my homepage and everything to Xoom.com becuz they don't have those annoying pop up windows like "some" server does... Okie that's all for now, enjoy browsing!

January 1, 1999 - This is the beginning of another year. Before we know it, soon it'll be the millenium. Time goes by reeeeally fast; it scares me. I know that 1998 will be the year I'll miss the most (as of now) when I'm all old and gettin' ready to die. One year ago, I was all childish and stupid, spending the new year with well... let's not go there. One year later, which is today, I'm amazed how much I changed. A person can change a lot, A LOT, over a year of time. There were the joyful moments, the bitter-sweet experiences, the wonderful surprises, the inevitable heart broken, the exciting new discovery, the depressing disappointment, the bold attempts, the painful lesson, the warm hugs, the unforgetable kiss, the suicidal thoughts, the disturbing emptiness, the loving support, the sweet lies, the hurtful truth, and the final break-through.... Life was tough throughout the 1998, incredibly tough indeed. Right now, 1999 is a new beginning to start over. My goal for this year is very simple: Reborn from coy, no more fears. To life I enjoy, begone the tears. For 2 years I let relationship over-taken my life, my academic was greatly affected. Blame myself for being an idiot, believing in love and all. All these time I gave up my time from studying for some dumb reasons (eg. boyfriend and stuff), how much I regret it now. In turn, With my overall academic achievement, going to a college of my choice is most likely impossible, though I still keep the slight hope in me. A new year, a new start. Goodbye bad life~!

December 14, 1998 - Bad X'mas. Messed up on something and caused daddy to lose $200 for stupid reason. My underpay tutor job was fine for me to get through the month and save some up to pay back someone some money I didn't owe (few hundreds). Now I'm so in debt and I need a 2nd job very bad. My health isn't going well around these days, specialy after the past out from last week. I feel like I'm over working myself... I feel sick...

December 9, 1998 - The day has finally come; I had a major break down today after my extremely psychotical math test, after a little rest, my ever-so-long computer test shutted my entire brain. The remaining of the day i was trembling and light-headed. After I got home from work, I blacked out on the stairway. Right now I'm sitting in my room, wrapped a big blanket around me and drinking those Campo Soup with the alphabets in it. My head hurts....

December 8, 1998 - I can see it'z been awhile since i last check this site. Lota things happened - best one is that Henry and I upgraded my slow n' old computer, and we replaced our 56K with cable modem!! Dunno why i been so busy lately; it's been so long since i last get time of my own to update this page and perhap sing some karaoke. Applying colleges is a pain. Got nominated to school's Winter Formal court - yeah right like I'll win the election and be the WF queen, but thanx for whoever out there voted for my nomination. =) *Ugh!* Winter is TOO cold!!! AAHhhh!!! I got so many things to do!!! Need X'mas break asap!!!

November 25, 1998 - Day before Thanksgiving. Life got complicated. Only thing i know is that I'm not happy with what's in front of me right now. Two strikes in a row; I guess I'm never lucky in love.

November 16, 1998 - I can't wait till Thanxgiving! Life's busy yet boring. I afraid that I won't make it to colleges that i wanna go to... pressure pressure pressure!!! Life would be hell lot of better if im rich... *sigh*

October 30 - 31, 1998 - HAPPY HALLOWEEN!! I'm sure i had a fantastic Halloween with my group of good friends. The crazy sleepover party is great except for the fact that i got drunk during the party so I ended up missed the whole party until 3AM, when half of the pple left.. But overall this was the best halloween i ever had. Thanx Lynn and Jen for taking over the party when i passed out, much thanx to andy and phil for driving all the way to my place just for my party, huge hug for Lauren who got me the party "supply", and much love to all of u who made my party all great~

October 15, 1998 - Feeling a little lazy today so I decided to ditch school (that's why im here rite now typing this entry). Something's going on in my life rite now and things get complicated, but however, i want to thank an old friend of mine... u kno who you are "Irwin". 143 back to u~

October 10, 1998 - YIKE!! WHAT A DAY!!! SAT in the morning, Chinese SkooL RITE after it, then the Homecoming Dance, but I had a very great night with my date so it's all cooL(*wink* @ Mr. Silva). I'll put some homecoming pix up when i have them developed so come back again soon!

October 7, 1998 - As suggested, I'm trying to work on the frame version of my homepage and other good stuff. I finally find out how to embed RA files into background music so stay tune, new stuff is on its way!! Few more days till Homecoming!!

October 3, 1998 - Okie I can see it's been a long time since I last updated my homepage. Well here are the good news - I added in a few new MIDI if you haven't already notice, then I post up a new story which you can find through Love Corner. Right now I'm working on the 3rd story and tell you what, it'll be a big production of mines, so stay tune! Homecoming Dance is this coming Saturday!!!!

September 9, 1998 - Feeling a little low; don't know why I became so depressed lately. I ditched school for 2 hours this morning. Beside that, I finally have my schedule changed. No more AP Bio~ But I still feel so down...

September 6, 1998 - Went to the beach today! Thanx Rob Andy and PhiL for the visit (sorry I gave you guys the wrong directions >_<) but yeah, it's fun to hang with you guys!

September 3, 1998 - School starts today in a rainy day. Everything are all sucks. The school is over-populated. AUGH!!!

September 1, 1998 - Went out with the gang today, got a little crazy but it's gonna be the last fun before the summer vacation's over.

August 30, 1998 - Went to Westwood today! LA is HOT!! I finally watched the movie 風雲!

August 29, 1998 - One suckie day... help fixed my aunt's computer for SIX hours!!

August 26, 1998 - Went to LA again with Louisa and Richard! Thanx Rob and PhiL for the great time!!

August 22, 1998 - 我 又 重 蹈 覆 轍 啦 ， 都 係 時 侯 要 "著 草 "。 男 人 好 煩 呀 ！

August 21, 1998 - Oops I just figured that I missed the school registration date! >_< Anyway I'm trying to finish up with the stories right now, should be done very soon!

August 20, 1998 - I can't even blieve this - I drove to LA and back all by myself! Met some great friends =) Thanx Andy, Phil and, Li for the great time - Luv u guys! (Specially to PhiL ^_~)

August 18, 1998 - Frustrating day! MMMMM!!!

August 9 - 14, 1998 - GONE TO LAS VEGAS!!! SEE Y'ALL!!!

August 8, 1998 - I went to Universal Studio today. Hot and boring. Don't really feel like going back anymore.

August 7, 1998 - YAY!!! NO MORE SUMMER SCHOOL!!! YEEEEEEHA!!!! Okie my midi page is up! And I'm woking on the love corner stuff rite now. Geez ain't I happy or what!!! =D

August 3/4, 1998 - It's midnight right now and I'm scripting a love quiz. It's pretty fun to create something neat, but gee.. ain't I sleepy now....

August 1, 1998 - YAY!!! I finally finished my midi page! Sorry I have to organize my midi files first before i upload them. But my midi page will be up soon, I promise!

July 31, 1998 - Today is the deadline for the ThinkQuest competition. I had to give up. *sigh*~

July 28, 1998 - WHAT A BORING DAY!!! Well, I'm working on my midi page, it should be out soon.

July 24, 1998 - Yay it's Friday! It's my sister Idy's birthday today. I updated a little bity part in my homepage. Beside that, I decided to totally give up on my ThinkQuest competition. Picked a wrong partner, no matter how many work I can complete by now, it won't be good anyway. Oh well, it's supposed to be cool cuz it's Friday, but somehow today ended up a depressing day for me. Maybe I should go off and sing some karaoke..

July 20, 1998 - Today is the day I reopened my homepage! William, 送俾你o架!

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