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Kafka Dozen |
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Part One

ONE
Mornings....
TWO
He has only....
THREE
This Bachelor
FOUR
As IfPart
Two
Part Three
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ONE
Mornings....
And these mornings,
You look out of the window,
Move the chair
away from the bed
And sit down to coffee.
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....& EveningsAnd these
evenings,
You prop up your arm
And hold your ear
in your hand.
Yes, if only that weren't all!
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TWO
He Has Only....
He has only the moment,
the everlasting moment
of torment;
He has only one thing
always: his pain;
He has only as much ground
as his two feet take up
.....only as much of a hold
as his two hands encompass.
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THREE This Bachelor
This bachelor
with his thin clothes,
his art of prayer,
his enduring legs,
his lodgings
that he's afraid of,
with his otherwise patched-
up existence
now brought out again
after a long period -
This bachelor holds
all this together -
with his two arms.........
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FOUR As If
It is as if I were made of
stone
as if I were my own tombstone.
There is no loophole
for doubt or for faith,
for love or repugnance,
for courage or anxiety,
in particular or in general,
Only vague hope lives on,
but no better than
the inscriptions on tombstones.
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Almost every word I write
jars against the next
I hear the consonants rub
leadenly against each other
And the vowels sing
an accompaniment
Like Negroes
in a minstrel show.
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My doubts stand
in a circle around every word,
I see them
before I see the word,
But what then!
I do not see the word at all,
I invent it.
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