THANK YOU GOD

Oh Momma, as I reach out to take your hand,
I pray to God he will help me to understand.
I am losing you slowly, through my fingers you slide,
But I know in my heart that God is our guide

Through my mind I see the woman you once were
I remember the good times that for you now are a blur.
But I know in my heart that your spirit lives on
Trapped in a body that is now almost gone.

You showed me how to love and you shared it with all,
for you knew the answer, you answered his call.
His light shone through you for all to see.
A witness for God, it was as it shoud be.

Though your life has now taken a turn,
so many lessons we all have to learn.
Compassion and love surrounding you,
and the love of God still remains true.

So even in your dying, you continue to give,
The everlasting light from God so that others might live.
And as the angels surround you to prepare you to leave
I know they will help all so that we no longer grieve.

Thank you mom for the love you have shown,
for in your love I really have grown.
I know that once you leave this earth,
your spirit will be here to give me rebirth.

Thank you God for loaning her to us all.
You used her well to help answer the call.
and now...... I am giving her back to you.
Give her wings to soar so she may be free
and forever live with you.....in eternity.

© 1999 Your daughter; Brenda
 

BE FREE MOMMA

It's okay mom ...... to just let go
It's okay, I really do know.
In my heart I want you to stay.
But I also know .... you need to be on your way.

Do not cling to this earth for me
you need to go where you will be free.
Go to the LIGHT that I know you see
Do not remain here ..... just for me

Leave this tired body here on earth
You do not need it for the rebirth
Into HEAVENS light you will flow
With Angels to guide you as you go

Beautiful Mountains and Cities of Gold
The love of the father will enfold
A joyful reunion with those you love
All gathered there .... waiting above

I will not forget you, you are in my heart
Neither heaven nor earth can tear us apart
Forever will I see your smile
Your willingness to walk the extra mile

Your gentle touch upon my face
Your kind spirit..... filled with grace
Your laughter and giggles fill my head
You took away any fears or dread

So I cannot wish you here to stay
Gather up heavens robe and be on your way
I will join you ... in the blink of an eye
When I to, shall to heavens gates fly.
I love you momma!!!! Go and be free!!!!
© 1999 Brenda Race

FORGIVE ME

I do not know from day to day
Just what I will find as I go your way
Sometimes you greet me with a smile
and I think I am safe with you for awhile

So soft are your hands when they stroke my face
Not a hint or a sign we are in a race
for life then seems as it always should be
Soaring as with Angels as if we were free

But this kindness you show does not last
The disease that is taking you is no longer in the past
For a fleeting moment we had forgotten it there
But then it returns for it has not a care

There are times when your words are as a knife in my heart
One moment you are gentle but then they start
They hit so fast that it always hurts so
in the blink of an eye, the kindness does go

I know that these things do not come from you
But the hurt is there no matter what I do
I hurt for you and I hurt for me
For the meaning of this is not easy to see

I pray to God to show me the way
The answers I should give and what I should say
For I know full well that it is not you
For the things you do now you never would do

It is the love of a mother that I once knew
That I must hold in my heart as being true
Forgetting the side that now comes out
Replacing that thought with shadow and doubt.

No matter what you say or do
My love for you will always remain true
But forgive me momma if I hurt so bad
For I am only remembering the mom I always had.

Love you momma © 1999 Brenda Race

TELL ME PLEASE

As I enter the halls I look around
Hoping and praying that some sanity will be found
Many who know me seem happy I am there
Wandering about....seeming to be without care.

I used to rush in and to each give a hug and a kiss
But the more I go....the harder this is
For I know the fate of each one there
and knowing the facts makes it harder to bear

With each passing day I see a decline
Just a little more taken from each, a snip at a time
This thing is so senseless with no reason to be
So I plead to you God, please let them be free

I look at my mother and I see the same
she is no longer there....only by name
So I turn to you God and again I ask
Why God....for you this cannot be so great a task

There has to be a purpose for all that I see
But God just tell me what it could be
TALK to me and tell me why
Because I do not understand as hard as I try.

I know that life is not always fair
and in my heart I know that you care
You watched your son hang on a cross and die
but you knew the reason, you knew the why.

So forgive me God as I question you so
you have the answer....there is nowhere else to go
Give me the wisdom, the insight to see
Just why is it that they cannot be free?

© 1999 Brenda Race