WHERE ARE THEY????

Where are you all...I know you cannot be far.
It's okay momma I am here right where you are.
But there are others whom I have not seen
Its okay momma their actions they do not mean

But why are they not here to be with me
Because momma they love you too much to see
So why have they all left now when it is my greatest need
Well momma sometimes they get lost in thier own greed

Do I scare them so that they stay away
Have I really changed that much from yesterday?
I know my body is weak and wearing out
But inside my spirit is the same I have no doubt.

Yes momma you do scare them because they cannot cope
to see you as you are and feel they have no hope
so they run and they run and they try to hide
because they do not understand that you are the same inside

But they love me still do they not?
For they are my children and friends I have not forgot
Its very hard to understand why they are not here
for in this time I would like them near

It's okay momma they really do care
It just that this job of helping you prepare
to go to your home is not easy to do
But Gods spirit and I alone will help you to

Never forget that you are LOVED and soon will be free
even though it appears on the outside not to be
For someday soon you will leave this old body and be given a new
And I will be here to help you see it through

To heavens gate you shall go
and maybe then they all will know
You were never really alone here on earth
for maybe now they will see that you have a total rebirth

You will be with the ones you love
looking into the face of Jesus and with peace from the dove
Surrounded by all you have lost here
you now can hold so very near

So do not wonder about those here
they really do love you so have no fear
But until that day when you are freed
I am here with Jesus by your side to fill your need.
WE love you and will hold you and keep you safe

© 1999 Brenda Race

WHO ARE THEY????

I wonder who these people are here with me?
Roaming, roaming all day long, looking to be free
One sits by the window sill
gazing ever outward, looking until

they come (whoever they may be) to take her away
But I can still hear her as she says HEY HEY HEY
Another shuffles by with babies in her arms
Cooing and talking and kissing them, she uses her charms

Down the hall I can plainly see two and often three
Sitting about as if they are having tea
Day after day they gather there
Each of them sitting in the same old chair

Here comes one now with a drink in their hand
and it does me no good to try to make them understand
I am not thirsty .....nor food do I need
I am only staying here until my body can be freed

For I have found in the dark of night
and yes ....even in the morning light
My spirit is free to roam around
my feet have no need to touch the ground

To distant places I am free to go
and I can see all that is below
My children, my friends, I see them all
and even their names I can recall

I have flown with the Angels to places high
over land and sea and the very sky
So though it appears I am not free
everything is not exactly as you see

I have seen the hope of what is to come
when all of this earthly madness is done
I have seen the face of Christ the Son
and know my journey has already begun

So when you look upon me here
do not weep for me my dear
My spirit drifts to places you do not know
Believe me when I tell you I have places to go!

© 1999 Brenda Race

CAN YOU SEE IT?

Oh God, what has happened to me?
I once gave my love ever so free
something I do not understand has overcome me
and all those around me do not seem to see

I want to say HEAR ME but the words are not clear
I feel my mouth moving, my voice within, I hear
but someone else is speaking...I know it isn't me
Why can't those around me .....stop and really see!

When a friendly face appears and I really want to say ....STAY
I find myself telling them ....... please just go away
And those who reach out to me, with a gentle touch
I find myself rejecting and inside it hurts so much

If I could find the words and make them come out right
I would try to tell them all that inside I am living in fright
My whole body seems to be turning upside down!
Where I used to wear a smile ....now I hold a frown

I want to tell them please know ...what I want to say
for the actions I now take....were never my real way
I still love you all from deep within my heart
even though my words all seem to fall apart

My mind is sometimes cloudy and nothing seems the same
feeling one thing but acting another ....as if it were a game
So please have patience with me and try to see my side
for if I could but help myself ....all of this I would hide

Just know that deep within myself ...as you see the outside of me
is my old self I cannot help to once again be free
So look at me .....the total ME .... the inside and the out
and know there is a spirit still, of that there is no doubt

© 1999 Brenda Race

THE WONDER OF IT ALL

Oh the beautiful sights I see
When I pass there do not grieve for me
There is a light there so brilliant and bold
And no one there ever grows old

The people I see are my friends and family
And everyone there now seems to be free
From pain and sorrow and cares or woe
With a radiant glow as they come and they go

The streets are paved with solid gold
Oh the wonder of it all to behold
Your eyes nor mind can never conceive
What lies ahead when from this world we leave

There are angels singing Praises to God
You can hear them as on heavens road you trod
There are flowers and diamonds and gems all around
And a glow emits from this sacred ground

The Father and the Son await you there
And you know without a doubt you will have no care
For the weight has been lifted.... it is no more
As you stand upon GODS Heavenly shore.

So grieve not for me as I leave this earth
For all of our suffering is nothing to the worth
Of all of eternity where we shall be free
So I ask you please do not grieve for me.© 1999 Brenda Race