POEMS PRAYERS & PROMISES

GOING HOME

I brought her home today God,
Back to a place where she had once trod
I think she knew maybe deep in her soul,
that this was a place that once made her whole.

Oh, how I long to see her smile
for I know the pain that goes with each mile
I remember the happy times of days gone by
and how too quickly they did fly

I see with the passing of every day
a little more of her is taken away
But while she is losing a little more from here
I know that closer to heaven she is drawing near

Still the pain of watching her slip away
lays heavy on my heart every single day
I know too God that you are near
and I really should not have anything to fear

But fear I do for her and for me
because you know I do not always see
the good there is in everything here
in losing the ones we hold so dear

When she reaches out and touches my hand
I feel the closeness and her love so grand
And when my name she speaks so soft
my soul soars higher and higher aloft

I guess what I want God is your grace in my pain
to ever remind me that my loss is her gain
Let me take those smiles and the gentle touch
and hold them in my heart where they mean so much

and never let me forget that you are at work here
even though in my darkest fear
I am losing a mother as you gain a child
let not your work ever be defiled

But forgive me God when I question why
for I know that you hold her and could help her fly
a faster journey to her home above
where there is no pain only total love.

SORRY MOMMA

I have been thinking alot today
of how things have happened along the way
How we had so many good times and treasures I have stored
and laughs along the way so I never was bored.

Always willing to share the love in your heart
even when I left and we were apart
The ties that we had remained so very true
even now they are there between me and you

You saw so much suffering in all of your years
but then you found Jesus and he removed all of your fears
and you took me along for the ride you were on
to make sure that all of my fears too were gone

So tenderly you cared for me all of those years
but now I look at you with eyes full of tears
so much has happened that I cannot change
and I suddenly realize just how very strange

that you were there for me when I needed you then
but this is a battle that neither of us can win
Oh how I long to just reach out to you
and have you do the things that you always could do

I tried so very hard momma to care for you
until there was nothing left that I could do
You were always such a kind person to all
and I know in your heart that you do not blame me for this fall

You never would have wanted to be a burden to any
for your lot in life was to help so many
but it was my turn and I feel like I have failed you
even though I know it was all I could do

So momma I am sorry for all that you endured
and when you get to Heaven I know all will be cured
My love for you will always be here
And I know in my heart you will always be near.

LET ME HOLD THEM

Let me do this last thing for you
I know you have many and I do to
but the weight is too much for you to bear
So please momma ....just let me share

I will carry them all for you
to lessen your load...it is the best I can do
Tucked in my heart they will safely stay
when you can pick them up on that final day

We have so many it's hard to recall
but soon momma, we will remember them all
We laughed, we loved, we shared so much
and yes ....we even reached out to touch

A million times throughout the years
we shared it all ....even the tears
But now the weight of all these things
may be holding you back from what eternity brings

So let me hold them just for you
to lighten the load and help you through.
For all of the MEMORIES that we have shared
will tell each of us that we truly cared.

And when you are finally heaven bound
look in my heart, that's where they will be found.
Just reach down and take half but leave me the rest
So I will always remember that you were the best

And when you make it to eternity
share them with the Angels so you remember me
Maybe even tell God so he can free
All of the MEMORIES that are tucked away in me.

YOU WILL WIN!!

I look at you .....sitting there
as into space you often stare
And I wonder momma what you see
or who I am when you look at me
Do you have dreams to once again be free

or is even that.........to much to see
For time is your enemy and has taken its toll
upon your body which is no longer whole
but momma ....I know ....you still have your soul

for a soul which holds the spirit of God
no mans disease may ever trod
so in the end when all is done
I can truthfully say ....YES ....you won

For those who believe shall be set free
because the Son of God was hung on a tree
and there he told of eternity so grand
for those who knowingly took a stand

so as I gaze upon you here
and see you struggle and even fear
I know that soon you will be free
and when you look down ....you will know it's me

And I will look beyond the stars
and see your face without the scars
for your soul be will free once again to sing
and all that eternity has to bring

will now be yours as you look upon the face of God
for that was the goal intended to be
when on that day your soul is set free
and all of the Angels in Heaven sing with thee!

HUSH HUSH

Hush hush what is that sound?
A gentle breeze blowing all around.
I hear music softly playing too.
It all seems to be surrounding only YOU

There are voices lifting slowly up.
Praises to Jesus and asking to fill your cup
with hope and joy that arises anew
they have come to show you just what to do.

Jesus has already paved the way,
so you will soon see a better day.
He has sent Angels to take you there
so all of his riches you now can share.

So as these angels prepare you to go,
relax in his peace and let them show
the way to the heavens as they guide you now.
In the blink of an eye before the Father you will bow.

Looking into the eyes of all three,
the very real presence of the Blessed Trinity!
All of your hopes, your dreams and your love,
will all have a reason in this land above.

So relax in the love of the Angels here
for your time is very soon drawing near.
Feel the touch of the wind from their wings
knowing that soon there are far better things

THOUGHTS OF TIME

I sat by your bedside and tried to take it all in
and I wondered to myself just when did it begin
so many signs that you tried to show
but I was blind and did not know

The years have passed and we are at the end
now my heart is broken...will it ever mend?
I look at you and see you here
but inside I know there is a fear

Your eyes are now dull without the shine
you seem to have trouble focusing on mine
everything that you once were
is gone from your mind...is only a blur

And I get mad at the way things are
for this dreadful disease will leave a scar
Forever etched into my heart
Oh, how I wish we had a new start

Words remain left unsaid
memories already clouded in my head
I no longer have to say what I feel
for in your spirit you know what is real

At the end of your journey already headed home
this tired old body has no reason to roam
Soon you will meet with the God you love
escorted Home by the Angels from above

And when you get there you can pray for me
Ask God to help you to let me see
The why and the reason all this was to be
For as I watch you now I am too blind to see

Letting go is so very hard
it leaves ones soul so very scarred
but to God you must return
while I still have lessons here to learn

So fly away momma to a brighter day
and I will try not to stand in your way
For this is the final goal we will see
when once again your soul is free!

TODAY

Today was different than any other so far
Today I feel I added ......just one more scar
to a heart that is already grieving for the mother I once knew
yet I know the heartache will increase before this all is through

As I rounded the corner and found you were not there
I know the possibilities and it always gives me a scare
How much of you today is left from yesterday
What exactly is missing, what has slipped away

I found you in your chair sitting in the hall
but you didn't even notice when gently "momma" I did call
Not that you have known me lately as I come and go
But I can usually count on some emotion to show

Today you had your head down, your body doubled in two
Kneeling gently beside you I prayed for what to do
As I looked into your face a sadness came over me
For I guess I know in my heart that your soul is being set free

Sitting in the midst of confusion, You looked so all alone
almost as if your face was set in stone
Your eyes held no anger as they often do
I just know that there was a little less of you

The look I saw today was almost more than I can bear
It was a look of distance neither here nor there
Caught between two worlds while waiting to be free
I know now momma that you are really leaving me

SITTING BY YOUR SIDE

Often I go and just sit by your side
and with you and the Angels, I do abide
Barely aware of my presence there
I pray that you entertain thoughts....and know I really do care

I watch as you talk to those I do not see
and I wonder who are these Spirits that you see so free
Are they the Angels I feel in the room
Or could it be Jesus who rose from the tomb?

You speak to your mother who has long ago passed
into the treasures of heaven where all things will last
And I wonder as by your side I sit
if she tells you of things that you too will soon get

For while your body is still tied to this earth
do you hear the Angels tell you of another rebirth?
Do they lovingly whisper into your ear
and tell you GODS child you have nothing to fear?

Sometimes for a brief moment you return to me
and I feel that I may never be able to let you be free.
When you stroke my face and hold my arm,
it takes me back to when you kept me from harm

So as I sit by your side and watch you slowly leave
I can't help myself ....... as for you I grieve.
Will I be ready when the Master comes to take your hand
To take you with him to your new home so grand

I hope he gives me the wisdom to know what to do
As I let go and HE reaches out to you
As I sit by your side and watch you fly away
With the Angels and JESUS as you begin a new day

This Path We Must Walk

This walk we are taking gets harder everyday
The pain I cannot lessen, no matter what others say
I can talk to those who know and spend my time in prayer
I can tell my feelings to others as I share

But never will I understand why things are as they are
for each day that I am with you makes a bigger scar
I am not the child that you once held so dear
now I am the mother with the deepest of fear

As I go to your side knowing full well
that now your life is as a living hell
I want only to comfort you and take it away
wipe out this time and begin a new day

Reach my hand back and stop the clock on the time that we had
to never again have to see you so sad
I would cherish the moments we had in each day
holding them close and never afraid to say

I love you mom and I thank you for being
for all that you have done, for the chance to be seeing
a Fathers love through a mother so great
To be able to turn back the clock and begin with a new slate

But time marches on and we cannot ever return
We must deal with the present and continue to learn
As you cared for me, now, I will try to do for you
Hoping that all of my regrets will be few

As I show you that you are still of worth
The same mother inside which gave me birth
You taught me well how to show Gods love
I only hope that you feel its return from me and from God above!

I will hold you close as you once did for me
and tell you I love you until you see
that I am here always for you, just as you were for me
until that day when you are set free.

THE END OF THE QUEST

As I sit by your side I feel at peace
Finally ....you seem at rest,
God willing, this is the end of this quest.

I remember a mother who had nothing but kindness
Never afraid to reach out with a soft touch or a loving kiss
Now you struggle to find the way
Trying so hard to regain everyday

You have fought the fight until the very end
frustration and fear at every bend
Some say they liked you when you were fighting so hard
Showing us you had the will to live and would not be scarred

I saw only a struggle for the things which could not be
Trying to find the things you could no longer see
A fight that really cannot be won
Only your soul remains which belongs to the Son.

So when I look upon your sleeping face
and I wonder where you are in time and space
I know that your soul is headed home
the outward struggle gone, no need to roam....

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