It is a word that never really enters your mind. You may think about it come Hallowe'en time but when do you ever really sit and think about witchcraft? As for me I began to discover the word when I was about 12. No,I didn't just find a spell and 'poof' I was a witch. I began to read and the more I read the more frequent the words Wicca and Witchcraft came into my everyday life. I had tapped into something great, something wonderful and beautiful. I can't really explain it you. It is more of a feeling. A sense of belonging. I felt like I was home.
Now at 17, I find myself really becoming a Wiccan. Sure, I have read books and cast spells and worked magick before but this is a never-ending journey and it is starting to feel like I am heading on a path towards something great. Most teenagers who are out of the broom closet will tell you that it has not been easy for them. This is why I am writing this. I want to share my journey into Wicca with other people. I want them to not feel as lonely as I did during those years of secrecy and fear.
And so, the journey begins.......First of all, let me explain where I was coming from. I was born into a family with no real religious affiliations. I
was not baptized, christened or told to believe in any set religion. I realize that I am very lucky. Many of friends came from religious families and had an even harder time than I did. It is difficult for parents to understand what witchcraft really is unless of course they are educated about the subject. I can remember reading books for the first time and every time someone would walk down the hall to my room I would hide the book because I felt guilty, as if I had done something wrong by simply reading a book. It is common for most young pagans to feel that way. It is overwheling and even scary at first. Why shouldn't it be? You are learning about something that you have never been exposed to. It is part of the lure that draws people to witchcraft. Truthfully it is part of the mystery about it. It is starnge and unusual. I hate to admit it but that is one of the only reasons some people read about the craft. They do it to be "cool" to feel dark and powerful. But there is always something else that makes people feel welcomed by witchcraft. I find that when I start meeting witches for the first time I connect with them. We can relate and share our feelings because we have all gone through the same trials and tribulations, to different degrees but none the less we have all gone through the same ordeals.The hardest thing to do is to talk to your parents about it. Some parents will be open some will not. My father was a tyrant and tried to throw out all of my reading material. He would make mean comments and tell me that I was just going through a phase. But I didn't argue back. Why?
One thing Wicca has taught me is that people are entitled to their own opinions. If that is what he believed than he could go right ahead and
believe it. When my mom acknowledged it, I told her what I felt and how I saw it. I explained how Wicca made me feel and what is has meant to me. I didn't argue with her, or start looking like a ring leader of some cult by becoming a stereotypical witch. I approached her with knowledge(which is the best tool you could ever have) and secondly I approached her with maturity. I explained myself and how I felt and
it worked for me. Being honest and open and taking it SLOW helped her to understand me. If you throw it in your parents' face at once, they will throw it back. If you take it slow and steady and build yourself up it will be much easier for you. Now, my mother loves it when I read her my tarot cards. I recently bought a new silver triple goddess pentacle and she adores it. Because I took my time and slowly started to intregrate Wicca into my life then approached them, they understood it more.
Now I can walk through my house with my pentacle on and it doesn't create a huge debate. They have accepted me because they saw me act responsibly by not letting Witchcraft dominate my entire existence. I didn't let it take away from friends, family, or schoolwork. It became part of my life but not my life, which I think my parents feared the most; that Witchcraft would take over everything and distract me from my responsibilities. It shouldn't. Any Wiccan will tell you that bills need to be paid before rituals can begin and that means being responsible and putting your priorities in order.
I feel as if Witchcraft has changed me, made me into a better person by teaching me about nature and giving me the power to love myself more. I know it sounds corny but it is true. Parents can take your altar away, your books, your spells and your pentacle but they can never take away your freedom to believe and love the God and Goddess. The Divine is something that cannot be read about but only felt and truly that is what being a Witch is all about. Loving yourself,others and the Goddess. To all the young Witches that are thinking, How can I ever be a true Witch without all the black clothes, books of spells, candles and cauldrons? I say that you should not have to look any further than the Craft within yourself and there lies the trueWitch.
The Club - Blackangel
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