Saturday, September 09, 2000

my first attempt at e-bay
posted by April Fraze 9/9/2000 10:47:19 PM| link

"the slow-rising central horror of "watergate" is not that it might grind down to the reluctant impeachment of a vengeful thug of a president whose entire political career has been a monument to the same kind of cheap shots and treachery he finally got nailed for, but that we might somehow fail to learn something from it.

already-with the worst news yet to come-there is an ominous tide of public opinion that says whatever nixon and his small gang of henchmen and hired gunsels might have done, it was probably no worse than what other politicians have been doing all along, and still are.

anybody who really believes this is a fool-but a lot of people seem to, and that evidence is hard to ignore. what almost happened here-and what was only avoided because the men who made nixon president and who were running the country in his name knew in their hearts that they were all mean, hollow little bastards who couldn't dare turn their backs on each other-was a takeover and total perversion of the american political process by a gang of cold-blooded fixers so incompetent that they couldn't even pull off a simple burglary...which tends to explain, among other things, why 25,000 young americans died for no reason in vietnam while nixon and his brain trust were trying to figure out how to admit the whole thing was a mistake from the start."

--the great shark hunt, hunter s. thompson
posted by April Fraze 9/9/2000 09:50:08 AM| link

"tell general howard i know his heart. what he told me before, i have it in my heart. i am tired of fighting. our chiefs are killed; looking glass is dead, ta hool hool shute is dead. the old men are all dead. it is the young men who say yes or no. he who led on the young men is dead. it is cold, and we have no blankets; the little children are freezing to death. my people, some of them, have run away to the hills, and have no blankets, no food. no one knows where they are - perhaps freezing to death. i want to have time to look for my children, and see how many of them i can find. maybe i shall find them among the dead. hear me, my chiefs! i am tired; my heart is sick and sad. from where the sun now stands i will fight no more forever."

--chief joseph - thunder traveling to the loftier mountain heights - 1877
posted by April Fraze 9/9/2000 09:32:38 AM| link

"hear me people: we have now to deal with another race-small and feeble when our fathers first met them, but now great and overbearing. strangely enough they have a mind to till the soil and the love of possession is a disease with them. these people have made many rules that the rich may break but the poor may not. they take their tithes from the poor and weak to support the rich and those who rule."

--chief sitting bull, speakig at the powder river conference in 1877
posted by April Fraze 9/9/2000 09:27:49 AM| link

there's something about saturday mornings....they have a gentle way of beginning that i appreciate....and i'm nearly always up by 8:00.
posted by April Fraze 9/9/2000 09:24:24 AM| link

Friday, September 08, 2000

i didn't quit my job today. i called to do it, left a message and no one called me back....phooey.
posted by April Fraze 9/8/2000 11:08:58 PM| link

the hours today are dwindling slowly. i'm nervous and my hands are all sticky....my stomache has that roller-coaster feeling going on.....my fingers are trembling. i've spent another day doing nothing...trying to clear my head for the "big news" i'm about to drop. i've voted on 4:00pm....i figure it is late enough in the day that i won't have to endure the rest of the day in explanatory mode.

giving notice is difficult for me. i've done it once before and caved when i was asked to explain my reasons....i got all emotional and spent about an hour dissecting my personality.....i just want to scream...."can't you see?"

i guess i never was interested in being professionally successful.....and i know that if a career must be my life they had better be prepared to compensate pretty heavily..........now if i can get this all across.
posted by April Fraze 9/8/2000 02:11:47 PM| link

this would have given me nightmares for a year as a kid. i had a porcelain clown when i was young that freaked me out. at about 14 when i got into my metal stage i used to run out of my bedroom after the black sabbath song, "am i going insane", begging my mother to get him out of my room. something about all of that frantic laughing at the end. i was a glowing representative for the megadeth/black sabbath/metallica fans of the time, let me tell you...you want anarchy.....call on me....as long as there are no scary clowns....

but i also used to sleep with my back towards the window because i knew that if i looked a vampire in the eyes he could hypnotize me and persuade me into inviting me into the house where i would be rendered powerless. sleeping on my side was the only chance i had...suppose i would wake up and upon opening my eyes, lock gaze with one of those blood-suckers......way too much stephen king at that point in my life and the lost boys movie didn't help either...although i do dig that soundtrack.

and there was the time that we had been gone all day and mom dropped me off before coming home so i could work on a report. it was dark and rainy and we had been gone all day. i was sitting in the living room when the phone rang and the only sound on the other end was that of the song about how "they're coming to take me away"....and all of that manic clown laughter.....i shivered as i hung up and proceeded down the hall to grab the atlas out of my parent's closet. but, what's this? the floor was wet.....and no one had been home in hours.....i freaked out and locked myself in the truck.....laid down and waited for my folks to get home....

i'm such a fraidy cat.
posted by April Fraze 9/8/2000 01:14:20 PM| link

there's a part of me that wonders if any of the houseguests on the big brother show have actually read 1984. i know everyone hates the reality t.v. thing, but i kind of dig it. i'm sick and twisted that way, but i suppose its my vouyeuristic side. my opinions of the characters change....and i have to admit that i really liked george at the beginning....i still do, but curtis just seems like such a good person....he handles the pressure well, and even though he always gets nominated he keeps a good attitude with all of the houseguests....

i promise i won't say any more about it....
posted by April Fraze 9/8/2000 01:02:23 PM| link

red is good....but too much red can be very bad.....
posted by April Fraze 9/8/2000 12:57:00 PM| link

i am back at it...playing with my hair. about 2 years ago i stayed over at lisa's house and when i showered the next day i used her shampoo. my hair had never felt so soft....i know what you are all thinking...shampoo is shampoo, right?

well, when you have as much hair as i do it isn't the case. we bought a different brand recently and just switched back to nutrivive two days ago. i am absolutely shocked at the difference. and it is inexpensive....another plus.

**i do not get endorsements from l'oreal...i just tell it like it is.....
posted by April Fraze 9/8/2000 12:41:16 PM| link

brad just called! we had 3 packages delivered in the mail today:

one holds 2 boston ferns
the second has 2 sago palms
and the third has some things brad bought and a monkey tail cactus, rickrack cactus, and a jellybean succulent for me.

it's like christmas!!!!!!
posted by April Fraze 9/8/2000 12:24:50 PM| link

oh, oh....i want one of these!
posted by April Fraze 9/8/2000 12:22:24 PM| link

oh yeah....an elmer fudd chia pet! i have always wanted the jerry garcia one. one night when i was staying with my friend, jon, in vincennes, in we went to a dude's house to hang-out. jon left to go pick up something and i decided to stay because the dude was going to start his chia-pet.....i've been fascinated with the things for years and just never shelled out for one.....sadly enough the seeds had dried out and we didn't get to do it....
posted by April Fraze 9/8/2000 12:21:02 PM| link

this plant looks like a person in a lunge reaching backwards....picture it. i would love to have it....
posted by April Fraze 9/8/2000 12:14:26 PM| link

i'm doing battle today with this little spider. i'm not sure where he came from, but he seems harmless. twice he has crawled onto my hand and i've flung him off....though i only half-heartedly wanted to get rid of him, so the toss has been easy. i think he's after my chee-tos...they really are the breakfast of champions.
posted by April Fraze 9/8/2000 11:59:18 AM| link

today is a really big day for me. it's the day i declare my freedom. i have nothing lined up....and i'm not sure where i'll be in a month, but a fresh start is underway...and i am anxious to get things rolling.
posted by April Fraze 9/8/2000 10:55:29 AM| link

Thursday, September 07, 2000

i registered a domain today...now i need a good host. any suggestions?
posted by April Fraze 9/7/2000 08:31:20 PM| link

this scanner is too much fun.....be prepared for many changes...and stupid stuff.......i'm a little scan happy....
posted by April Fraze 9/7/2000 08:10:03 PM| link

ok, as promised:

the first grade photo from hell!

and to counteract the ill effects of that one, here's one my aunt took of me at my granny's house (where my folks and brother live now). and here's a younger one.
posted by April Fraze 9/7/2000 09:15:09 AM| link

more photo fun this morning since i'm killing time.

here is a photo i believe taken at my grandma bullington and uncle sam's place, thanksgiving 96. from left to right: me, perry, dad, and mom. it was a couple of years after the cut off all of your hair stage and somewhere in the midst of dye your hair frequently.

in third grade we did a play called "ostrich feathers". i was absent the day we picked parts and ended up as the narrator. it was a good role and i dug it. here's a shot of me after the play. i remember that my mom made these shorts. i also remember that at the time the shoes i was wearing were a size thirteen and a half (mainly because i was still in little kids shoes and my classmates were wearing size five by then. i was so tall that my dad always said if my feet didn't start growing i was going to tip over). notice my dirty knees.


posted by April Fraze 9/7/2000 08:49:30 AM| link

Wednesday, September 06, 2000

so ends our photo fun for tonight. stay tuned.....next session:

the first grade photo from hell.......
posted by April Fraze 9/6/2000 10:28:08 PM| link

and if you haven't had enough:

i always cried when i was little and had my pictures taken....well, it seemed like it. i was a very timid little girl and there is a photo somewhere that has my mom holding me. another shot the same day has me alone. i always really liked the one with us together. here and here you will find shots of me.... had obviously been crying. i have no idea how old i was in the shots......but i dig the dress.

this is before a fourth grade ballgame.....biddy ball. we were at my grandma's house. somewhere there is a shot of me with my brother. he was so short and i love that picture. maybe i'll dig it out. we went to my grandma's a lot and there are several shots of us there. my parents live on this property now and behind where i'm standing is the site of my brother's future home.

here's one of us at my aunt and uncle's home in huntingburg, indiana. from left to right: my brother perry, cousin kim, cousin jeff (back), me (must've of been about 9 or so), cousin greg. the empty space behind the yard has all been developed now....it sucks.
posted by April Fraze 9/6/2000 10:17:03 PM| link

welcome, kids, to fun with scanners. the trip home was great....i'm happy and tired. i acquired my fathers scanner on loan and several pictures to scan and copy. most are of me as a little girl. some are of family.

i'm learning how to use the scanner, so here are some shots.....enjoy.......really, i can't imagine why anyone would care to see these, but i'm having fun. in-depth coverage of the vacation will follow at a later date.....thanks for the indulgence.

this is a shot of me at 7 and 1/2 months.
this is my mother's senior picture. she was a foxy little lady....voted best legs in her class
this is a shot of my dad....he isn't sure which grade, but sometime after he left louisville so he is at least older than 11.

posted by April Fraze 9/6/2000 09:48:04 PM| link