PAIRING : Spike/Xander

RATING : NC17

SPOILERS : season 6

DISCLAIMER : I do not own these characters.

I suppose I knew I'd always end up here- in this place. If I cared enough to look inside and be retrospective, I'd see that I *always* kn- "UH!" I can't save the grunt that escapes my lips.

I used to bite my lip instead of moaning. I didn't wanna give him the satisfaction. I used to bite my lip and fist the sheets or grasp his hair tightly.

I used to bite my lip (because there was no way I was gonna give him the satisfaction of having one leg up on me). So I used to bite my lip- that is until one time when I bit so hard, that I broke the skin and blood spilled down my chin and onto my chest. *That* was the first time I realized there's a little monster in everyone.

"Shit- oh god-" I groan in pain. It hurts. *So* much.

But it feels so fuckin' amazing. "Fuck," I groan.

And the feeling of this and the memory of nights past- shiiiiit.

I would have never even *thought* he'd have it in him.

I remember the first night that I found him between my legs- between my thighs.

I was just sitting, minding my own business, when the door flung open and he came crashing through. I had no bloody idea why the hell he was here- since I hadn't invited him.

"What the-" was about as far as I got before he'd sunk to his knees in front of me.

"Xander!" was about all I moaned (and am moaning now) when he sucked my cock down his throat. I was completely shocked, to say the least. I had no idea the boy sucked anything but clitties and quims.

That night was amazing- but not as amazing as that night when I bit through my lip. His mouth came up off my cock and he started sucking the blood right out of me.

"XANDER!" I scream as he thrusts back inside me. "SHIT, PET! That hurts!"

"Then keep your eyes and mind on *me*," he growls angrily.

"Impossible," I groan, looking up at my wrists. They're shackled to the bed.

"Then feel *this*," he says and pushes inside me more.

"SHIIIIIIIIIITTT! XANDER!" Fuck- I look down and he just grins at me and wiggles his fingers inside me. "You can't go much further, Luv," I gasp and bite my lip, trying not to cry out for mercy. Shit.

"Wanna bet?" He asks as he- "FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!" I whimper and squirm, trying to get away from his hand. Shit- I feel a tear fall down my cheek because this is just *too* much.

"Just take it in, Spike. Make it good."

"FUCK," I growl and bite my lip more as he stills his fist.

I don't know why I ever agreed that this bed was a good idea. I like canopy beds as much as the next bloke, but I didn't realize that he'd be stringing my legs up to the top of it, so I'm practically hanging there, completely open to whatever the hell he wants to do to me.

"Xander, please," I whimper with finality.

He flexes his fingers again and presses a nail into my prostate. "XAND!" I growl- fangs coming out and into my lips. I suck my own damn blood as he scratches all those places inside me. "OhfuckbleedingfuckfuckhellbleedingfuckinghellXandPLEASE!"

"I'm massaging my cum into you, Spike. From the inside."

Fuck. I whimper again and look down helpless at him grinning.

I watch that beautifully pink tongue sneak out and- "Shit, Pet. Please."

I watch as he sucks my cock into his mouth. Fuck- he's so bloody warm and wet. The way he feels- one could actually mistake it for a quim… shit.

I thrust into his mouth, which jars his hand inside me into all the right places, and I let out a wail.

Shit- his tongue and his fingers- massaging me. I can feel his tongue alternating the strength of the suction on my cock and he pressed it in all the right places- playing with the foreskin and tonguing the slit- before finally sucking it down his throat in one slow, practiced motion.

That does me. I scream and shriek- my body going stiff as I shoot down his throat. He sucks it all out of me until I'm spent and slip from his throat.

I actually whimper when he pulls his hand out of my arse and it's covered in his cum from earlier.

He crawls up the bed and places a kiss on my lips. "See? Told you you'd like the bed."

I chuckle and say, "Now let me down."

"Nah- I might wanna fuck you again later."

Then he shuts the light off and leaves me there- arse still suspended in the air, cuffed to the bed.

He curls up next to me and places his head on my chest before closing his eyes.

Fuck. Who would have thought- that he would have come to my crypt after the wedding debacle?

Buffy doesn't want me. But Xander does.

Xander likes to use chains and whips and holy water.

Xander's a monster.

Buffy doesn't want me beneath her- but Xander locks me beneath him.

I guess I am love's bitch.

But as long as I get to keep coming, I couldn't give a rat's arse.

~El Fin~