Carousel Of Hate The painful tears Flood my eyes I kill myself By asking why I look back down The darkened trail I see the people Sad and pale "Why and how" I ask myself Do I cause so much pain? Hurting others, hurting me I drive myself insane Seeing family, seeing friends Bleeding on my path All of them effected By my coniving wrath Someone should've warned them Warned them of my hate If they saw my true cold heart They might've stopped their fate Weeping, crying, hurting still My heart begins to bleed Seeing all my wounded friends Makes it hard to breathe I don't want to hurt them I really don't know why Maybe if I hurt them all They'll be no more goodbyes I cry for me I cry for them This spinning world Will never end "Stop the carousel!" I plead Screaming, begging in my head No where to go, no where to lead The carousel keeps turning All the hate just carries on And so does all the hurting No more laughter, no more fun There's no felicity Black and dark and oh-so-cold It's simple misery

I wrote this poem in like, June (14th, 2001) but I never posted it, I thought it was too dark. I had it typed up on a secret page of the site (well, not secret, just not linked to anything) so a few people could read it. I decided not to hold back any dark poems anymore. I only hold back poems because that suck ass now. (*cough*dream guy*cough.) I'm not taking down any shitty poems though, not yet anyway.

Break Me Down The misery seeps through me Gushing through my skin Lies tumble off my tongue When I'm asked how I've been The darkness tears my insides It slowly breaks me down I feel nothing, I hear nothing I'm oblivious to sound A zombie walking in the graveyard I'm there, I'm truly real Even so, I'm cold as ice I'm gone, I cannot feel My life is but a desert I have no destination Water is the love I long for Black is my damnation Pain lives in my heart It is the knife sunk deep within The clawing hands that make me bleed Punish for my sin Punish me, Claw at me For I am what I shouldn't be Dance with the fire Circle in flames Burn me, let me feel the pain Let me loathe within a storm Just let the darkness break me down

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I actually really like this poem. The ending mostly. I always hate the beginning and love the endings...

I Know You Don't See Me You ripped out my heart And stomped on it hard Here come the tears I have no guard You told me the truth And it wasn't good The news was bad And I understood I lay here crying 'Til my eyes run dry I know you never meant To make me cry I know you don't know but, It's because what you said And I know you don't see me Alone; my eyes red

Alright, I finally posted one of my shitty ass "love sucks' poems. I have loads of the, I held them back for 2 reasons: 1. Um, they're all typical heartbreak bull. 2. They all suck! But, I thought I'd posta  few just to show you all that I am human and I do write about shallow bullshit like this.ss LO

If You Say Goodbye... Don't come to be with charming lines And all your funny tales If all that's underneath is lies Like in almost all the males Don't trick me with your boyish grin And look deep into my eyes 'Cause to me it's as bad as sin To kill me with goodbyes Don't tease me with your gentle touch And your flirtatious tone "Cause you don't really care that much You're gonna leave me all alone Don't confuse me the tiniest bit Please don't even try Don't approach me with your charm and wit If you plan to say goodbye

<~~Another poem to show you that I write about stupid bullshit sometimes..