One of the more interesting things I've noticed about myself...Tuesdays seem to be the big Journal Entry days, don't they? I have to go and update that archive...
I know I haven't been writing as regularly as I had promised (myself) to but I don't know what to do. I'm so busy, all the time. I hope now that the dreaded holidays have passed, everything will calm down a bit, and I can "get my calm on"
Christmas was a disaster. I gave my family too much, so they all looked at me funny, cause they didn't have a very expensive Christmas this year. Joseph's mother scheduled a Christmas party the day after Christmas and I wasn't supposed to find out, so that way I thought that my having breakfast with them on Christmas day was something special. That's okay, she'll think it's really special when she wants to be friendly and I don't give a good god damn. Which is about to happen.
My second medical opinion told me that I do indeed have acute gastritis (severe tummyache in layman's terms) and it is indeed caused by stress. Go figure. And to top it off it seems to be confirmed that I will not be well until I get rid of a HUGE chunk of the stress that is a part of my everyday life.
Give me a break people, it's not been the nicest year, ya know?
On a brighter note, this Sunday I am going to be getting together for lunch with Roxanne, so that should be pleasant. I do miss that girl after I haven't seen her for a while.
The BIG BIG News: I did not break up with Joseph on the 1st...nor on the 2nd...nor on the 3rd. We are just going to cool off the relationship for a while. Which has it's benefits considering I cannot get a pap appointment before January 29th, which means I will not get birth control pills until January 29th, which means I will not be having SEX until January 29th. This does not please me at ALL!! But I'm the one who forgot to schedule one in December ~ so its not like I can blame PPA, or anyone/thing else for my fertility. At least it's not the beginning of Spring, and at least there aren't any pagan rituals for fertility about to happen this month (as far as I remember anyway) so the "energies of the universe" won't be turned toward childbirth ~ it's something.
On the other hand, I could call my primary care physician and see how soon he can get me in for a pap smear. *shudder* I've never gotten that done by a male before, but what else can I do? I have a vacation to go on February 3rd, and if you think I'm going to go and do that and not be able to have sex, you are craaazy!
I'll try to write more later ~ I have to work now!