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THE DAILY JOURNAL////// DATE:December 20,2001 Nothing new really happened but i had some stuff on my chest that i want to get off of it. Ok, well lately iive been really thinking about the value of a human life if there is such a thing, my honest opinion as well as alot more people is that life is PRICELESS, At first the September 11th Attacks On America didnt reallt affect me emotionally because i think basically because i was in shock but lately damn has it been bothering me like what if i lost someone close to me what would i do i myself think i would die right along with that person. tThe news says only 6,000 people died i find that to be soo much fucking bullshit yes 6,000 people died but what about all the families that are now totally fucked up cmon giving them money is not going to fix the problem of losing someone i really think the only way to accept a lose of someone is to accept the fact that u will never ever get to share another conversation with them or even feel them. God we take life for granted i am so glad to be alive at the moment yeah shure everyone has shitty days,week,months and even years but people never stay down forever theres always good around the corner it just depends on how big your block is. I have lost someone , My Mom, shes not dead but she is heavily involved in drug use and i havnt even seen her in about 10 years soo yeah in my heart she is dead and lately this has been killing me because theres is no way that i will ever meet her voluntarily she needs to come to me but i really doubt that she ever will i was no good 10 years ago and i bet she still feels im no good now. Well, Im going to end it here now because this is getting long if you read this thanks it really means alot to me to get this off my chest. Have a good night. I Love You Currently Listening To: The Eagles - Motel California DATE:December 15,2001 Today was a pretty bad day, my girlfrined broke up with me, If u read this im not coming back, my dog had to be rushed into surgery because she had a tumor. I tried to go to a dance with my friend Magan but i got in trouble with my dad.Tonight was pretty good i finally got something off my chest and i think my dreams are going to come true finally. Thank you Jenn and Jess for talking to me makes me feel good to have good friends out there. Currently Listening To: The Juliana Theory - On Top Of The World DATE:December 13,2001 Today's post is very serious I finally realized what the meaning of life is and i want to share it with the people of the world. Well everyone thinks that life has to be get a job you like, fall in love with the girl of your dreams, have some kids, make your mark on the world, and then die. I agree totally but all that would mean shit if we didnt have friends, freinds are everything in this world i beleive that friends are stronger than family and sometimes i consider my friends as family. If a supposive friend hurts you that simply states you were never friends to begin with sure sometimes you get mad at each other but i mean like when a "friend" has the intent to hurt you. That is so fucked up and It just recently happened to one of my friends and now they have a false sense that friends always hurt you eventually but i find that to be so untrue becuase the few i consider friends i would never hurt in a million years I Love them all to death. So basically you can have the best of everything, love your wife to death but if she isnt your friend first then wife you havnt lived life at all just a big confusing lie. Everyone have a goodnite I love You Currently Listening To: The Ataris - I.O.U One Galaxy DATE:December 11,2001 Today is the 3 month annerversary of the September 11 attacks on America. If you could please say a little prayer for everyone who lost their life. Its not fair that all that beautiful life was just wasted because of Hate. I've been really happy lately and its all because of my friends Not that much happened today. I went to school at 6:00 a.m. cause I had a meeting that went awesome my princapal said im a exceptionally smart student and that made my Dad so happy I know I've been kind of hard to deal with lately and hes been realy patient. Currently Listening To: Saves The Day - Rocks Tonic Juice Magic DATE:December 10,2001 Today was the first day back to school since i quit. I realized that it was soo stupid to quit during my senior year. Also i finally think im starting to get out of my little depression. I really want to thank all the people i talk to about the stuff that was bothering me. Ok, today in school i was in shop and everyone said they missed me and it brought tears to my eyes i guess alot of people do care about me and i thank you all from the bottom of my heart. It really meant alot to me. this is the first post in the Journal. Currently Listening To: New Found Glory - Boy Crazy |